Feel sick to my stomach and really shocked. Have just found out from the man himself that when I stayed over at their house (I hadn't seen my friend for yrs) when I was sleeping he...quote "did something beautiful to me that he will remember for the rest of his days"- whilst I was f***g asleep!. What he described after and I can't be too graphic has made me feel sick as he said I responded to him. I have no recollection of this happening and worst of all this was about 17yrs ago. Now in theory I should be over it as it was a long time ago but I've only just found out and am having trouble dealing if I'm honest. My situation is complicated and I can't tell anyone so it's just bouncing around in my head and I can't think of anything else. On top of that my partner has been groping me whilst asleep leading to rows (complicated!) so I'm starting to feel pretty much like I have no control over what people do to me which is freaking me the hell out. Appreciate any comments...just needed to say it to someone without worrying about fall out.