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Drug addiction

221 replies

NotTheSpiceOfLife · 26/10/2015 17:59

I am astounded to discover that there's no drug support thread! So I thought I would start one.

I've been smoking weed for 25 years. Over the last 6 months, I've smoked legal highs instead because it's cheaper and you can buy it on the high street.

It has wrecked my life. I want to tell people about my experiences whilst I'm going through withdrawal, and see if there's any help/advice available.

Of course anyone can post about any kind of drug addiction that they want to talk about. I'd like to use this thread as a distraction to help me help others.

I'm going for a long soak in the bath now, as I'm trying to use distraction techniques to get through each day - but I'll be back with you later.

I'm an addict. I'd like to say recovering. I just need to keep recovering x

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torthecatlady · 05/11/2015 13:06

"Bright shiny morning"!

NotTheSpiceOfLife · 05/11/2015 13:58

Bright Shiny Morning. Sums it up, that.

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eachtigertires · 07/11/2015 01:41

How are you doing OP? :)

NotTheSpiceOfLife · 07/11/2015 20:36

Hello Smile

I'm doing really well! This is day 15 of being clean and I have honestly never felt better. I'm excited. Can't remember the last time that happened... And my dd is 18 tomorrow!

Thank you for asking X

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Friendlystories · 07/11/2015 22:36

Woop woop, 15 days!!!!!!! So glad things are still going so well, how's DP? Wishing your DD a very happy 18th, hope you all have a lovely day Flowers

eachtigertires · 08/11/2015 03:56

Congratulations! To you on your 15 days and your DD on her 28th. :)

NotTheSpiceOfLife · 08/11/2015 10:42

Bloody hell tiger, don't age me more than I am already! Wink

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NotTheSpiceOfLife · 08/11/2015 10:42

Thanks so much to you all Thanks

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lovestodazzel00 · 12/11/2015 23:56

Hello just found this thread, also searching for an addiction thread. Not name changing as rarely post. I have been smoking cannibas for nearly 20 years. My life seems normal on the outside. I'm married do doesn't smoke, I've 3 doc's. A responsible part time job, some days my memory loss is massive I get panic attacks a lot, I spend my life in limbo don't drive, dont go on holidays abroad due to finances all my own fault, yet I can't get a grip on it, when I stop and I desperately want to, my moods are awful. Your thread has given me motivation and inspiration Monday is my day, I've had many Monday's then I cracked by Wednesday. Horrible addiction.

Friendlystories · 13/11/2015 00:52

Good for you loves, lots of us have been where you are, it's bloody hard but it's worth it. I feel like I sleepwalked through 20 odd years of my life, what a waste, I barely remember many of what should have been the most significant events of my life. I'm 2 years clean now, I don't miss it at all and know I will never go back, weed swallowed enough of my life it's not having any more of it. I'm here if you need someone to talk to, PM me if you prefer, it's not easy to stop but it's the best thing you'll ever do, good luck Flowers

NotTheSpiceOfLife · 13/11/2015 09:09

Me too loves - anytime you want to talk or want a bit of support, I'm here.

3 weeks for me today. 3 FUCKING WEEKS!! Never thought I could do this in a million years. You can.

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Friendlystories · 13/11/2015 15:05

Glad to hear you're still going strong Not, hope DP is doing ok too Flowers

lovestodazzel00 · 13/11/2015 17:58

That's amazing Spice and thank u all, I'm determined this time, 3 weeks is brilliant, it takes something big to change its only a matter of time before I meet rock bottom if I keep it up, the support on this thread is very helpful and supportive to all

NotTheSpiceOfLife · 13/11/2015 18:22

Don't wait to reach rock bottom, it's shit Grin

Seriously, if I can do it, anyone can. I've been a druggie for years and never in a million years thought that I could do this.

One day at a time x

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51howdidthathappen · 13/11/2015 18:40

Three weeks is fantastic not very happy for you Smile

Good luck loves

lovestodazzel00 · 13/11/2015 19:26

Thanks spice, I've wondered about going to NA a lot, what was the reaction like, ppl always say weed is not addictive. My problem is huge to my life, would others at NA think I'm over dramatic addicted to weed as I know ppl have bigger problems with heavier drugs heroin etc. We are the proof it's is addictive even if it is masking underlying problems.

NotTheSpiceOfLife · 13/11/2015 20:53

It's nonsense that its not addictive. Nobody at NA judges you, there are people from all walks of life, all addicts, all addicted to different things. I've taken loads of crap, but weed has been the hardest to quit.

And don't worry about the seemingly religious aspect of it either, it's nothing like that.

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NotTheSpiceOfLife · 18/11/2015 14:42

www.mumsnet.com/Talk/relationships/2495433-drug-addiction?pg=1

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NotTheSpiceOfLife · 18/11/2015 15:39

Yeah, so accidentally I posted the link to this thread ^^ Hmm

Have reported, hopefully will be removed!

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ashamed1986 · 18/11/2015 17:38

I'm. Addicted to.codeine. I was prescribed it for pain but take it everyday even thong don't have pain. I buy nurofen plus and cocodomol as my prescription was stopped a while ago. It's my horrible dirty secret and to look at me you would never know. Good job beautiful big house horses stables fantastic lifestyle but here I am an opiote addict . It's awful and I wish I was never prescribed codeine.iv never taken any kind of drug in my life and I don't smoke but here I am addicted to codeine.

ashamed1986 · 18/11/2015 17:47

My whole reason for taking codeine is I self medicate my depression. It makes me feel like I can conquer the world . I don't get stoned or high it just makes me feel lighter and less anxious. I just want to feel happy without codeine ? Is this even possible ???

eachtigertires · 29/12/2015 12:24

Whoops, OP! Sorry about that typo! I hope your DD had a good birthday. ashamed - it definitely is possible. I see your post was a while ago, how are you doing now?

My DP is now entering day 5 without weed. He seems to have much more determination now, has thrown out all his stuff and cleaned his smoking room. He lost his appetite but regained it yesterday. It still isn't completely back to normal but he can at least eat 3 small meals a day which is great. As per this thread, I got him a multivitamin too and also some melatonin to see if that would help with his sleep. It didn't. This is really the biggest issue along with the issue of his (stoner) friends not being at all supportive (like he invited some friends over and they said they would come but then no text from them after he told them he wouldn't be smoking weed any more). Anyone have any ideas? :)

PS I'm super proud of him for getting this far.

Lottie999 · 29/12/2015 14:05

Well I can offer you some advice, I've been there. I was a total pot head for about 7 years, smoked it morning noon & night, the first step to recovery is admitting that you have a problem & wanting to change, which you are recognising & it is the first step to making improvements. I wasn't just sitting around on my arse smoking weed all day if that's what people think, I was by no means a jobless bum, I had a job that paid well & I guess I was a functioning addict. In the midst of my addiction I refused to believe that I had a problem, that it was my life & my business & that I enjoyed smoking it. Slowly it dawned upon me that my life now revolved around weed, my day was ruined if I ran out. I was with my now ex - partner during that time & he was the same as me, smoked every day & went to work & had good job etc. Luckily for me the relationship ended, I cut all ties with him packed a suitcase & went to live far away with my sister for a while, my family were aware of my addiction & the moment I admitted I had a problem they were very supportive, that being said I sent my parents to hell & back with my behaviour & the worrying I caused them.

Smoking weed IS addictive, it makes you emotionless, it turns you into a recluse & cuts you off from the outside world( because let's face it, all you want to do is go home & smoke - I've been there ) Once you realise you have a problem, that's the first step to getting clean.

It's been about 8 years since that day I decided enough was enough, my BF at the time wasn't going to change / stop, infact he blamed me for his habit FFS - it was like a lightbulb that had been out for 7 years just came on.... I can just remember thinking ' I FUCKING NEED OUT OF THIS SITUATION & LIFESTYLE ' I left behind furniture, clothes, he owed me a couple of thousand pounds, luckily I was living in his place at the time so it was just a clean get up & go.

I never returned to even try to collect my stuff/ money that he owed me, he was a nasty piece of work, very manipulative,he wouldn't gave given me any of my stuff without a huge fight & I just did not have the emotional energy to deal with him, plus just returning there could have prompted sitting down to chat, him rolling up a joint like the old days & me sinking back into the sinkhole that I was trying to leave behind. I was unhappy with him for years, the relationship was extremely toxic but because we were both pot heads 24/7 all emotions got buried away & not dealt with.

From what I can remember I was a nervous wreck for about a year after quitting, after bursting my bubble of being in smokey smokey land for so long....being out in the real world meeting new people & going new places was actually pretty scary....but I dealt with it, I left behind all friends that I knew wouldn't respect my decisions & friends that would hinder my recovery.

Do not take this lightly, carrying on smoking pot WILL ruin your life, years will pass by & they will all be a blur.

When I think of those days now, I'm so pleased that I did it, so many people bury their head in the sand & think 'I'll deal with it soon' THAT SOON can easily be smoked away & another couple of years pass like they already have done.

I was the biggest pot head believe me, I honestly thought that I would be smoking it forever as I honestly could not function without it.....if I came that far so can you !

I've been at friends houses since, been to parties where a joint was being passed around & im now one of those people that can take it or leave it, I have smoked with friends I reckon a handful of times in the last few years & that's how it should be, it's not enjoyable when it's done daily.

You & your brother need to support each other, but this isn't going to work unless you are both serious about stopping. I cut ties with ALL PEOPLE that were pot heads because I knew I would not quit if I carried on hanging out with them, I'm by no means suggesting that you cut ties with each other if one fails but I do hope that you do both want to stop because I can see this causing a rift if not - recovering addicts just cannot be around other addicts.

I do wish you & your brother the best of luck, it takes time to feel better & time for the cold turkey to wear off, and I sincerely hope that you can be supportive of each other.

And where weed is concerned ... I'll stop tomorrow doesn't actually mean tomorrow, those tomorrow's can fade into years, don't waste another decade of your life to this habit.

Anything you want to ask me please feel free.

eachtigertires · 30/12/2015 01:16

Thanks for your perspective Lottie. The post wasn't about me or my brother though, it was about my DP. Which is why it's important for me to get an idea of what he's going through as its not something I have to do. Neither me or my brother are stoners btw Smile

NotTheSpiceOfLife · 30/12/2015 18:26

This ^ in spades!

So glad people are still using this thread Grin

68 days for me today! I've really fancied a smoke over Christmas, but I didn't.

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