5:30 am and I'm raging

[LoveLetters]

Currently 14 weeks pregnant with 2 DC. DH did coke last night against my wishes. He is still walking around at this time of the morning blowing his nose and still buzzing. This week, even though I am absolutely exhausted with pregnancy and having to keep getting up with a 2 yr old at night, he doesn't seem to care that I need help and that I'm on the verge of passing out most of the time. I have no one else around to help. He woke me up at 4am and I am so angry at haven't been able to go back to sleep. I'm going to be so ill tomorrow from lack of sleep. And oh joy... My son is now awake.
I really don't even know how to think right now.

When I read the OP I thought, ok I'd be pissed off at him for coming home in that state and make him grovel, but could understand and forgive a rare regression to former child free behaviour. But on reading further that's not what this is and don't let him down play it. It's a recent discovery for him, which is now a regular habit and he keeps drugs in the house - absolutely not on. You are fully justified putting your foot down on this. He needs to snap out of it and realise how selfish he's being.

I think OP probably meant that SOME people (not necessarily her DH) are able to take drugs socially and not have it impact themselves or anyone else.

OP, hope this is the wake up call for your DH. Good luck.

Very similar behaviour to this is what made me leave my xp, and I'm enjoying my pregnancy a lot more without him around remember to keep putting yourself and your children first, that is the most important thing

I never said he didn't have a habit I was taLking about SOME people.

Are you talking about yourself?

Drugs turn people into deadbeats.

Your "darling" husband is bullshitting you by saying the words he knows you want to hear.

He is a loser and a liar and you're kidding yourself if you believe otherwise.

I'm sorry.

My 31 yr old school friend died 2 years ago after a particularly heavy night. He was a weed smoker, drinker, and used coke when he was on a night out.

He died of a heart attack, leaving his 3 yr old and pregnant girlfriend.

I don't believe he was a bad person. His family loved him. He was addicted to drugs and he was selfish beyond words because of it. His girlfriend just kept saying that he promised he wouldn't do it anymore. The image of his 3 yr old at his funeral holding a balloon 'for daddy' will stay with me.

Drug users are selfish, sick people.

totally agree happy

It's a fool's game. Any smug person who thinks they have it all under control is one step away from the slippery slope. For WHAT? If life's really too dull without them then they need to take a good look at their life.

I really don't think posting "a good toot is enjoyable" is appropriate AT ALL. That'll really make the OP and others whose lives have been blighted by drug abusers feel really great! And whilst the point being made "do you really think people would abuse drugs if it wasn't enjoyable?" Well actually yes, it becomes an addiction, I have spoken to hundreds if heroin abusers whose lives are ruined and they know it, there is nothing in it for them now than the release from the pain withdrawal causes.

So I stand by my statement of posting the response to "a good toot is enjoyable" as what the actual fuck!! As it's entirely inappropriate to advocate the use of drugs as being enjoyable, anywhere, at anytime, to anyone!

Sorry, the above is to love letters and pocketsaviour