friend is confusing me??

[ghostspirit]

about 11 weeks ago i send friend a text:

Me: have had baby. had him at home. J: poor little thing. me:why???

J: ridiculous of you having another child,not fair on others,one parent can not possibly cope properly with 4 let alone 5.

Me: oh shut up J if you have nothing nice to say. J: you know deep down that i am right. Me: please dont contact me again there is no need for your nastyness and i do not wish to have a friend like you. thanks.

J:Truth is not always sugar coated. your kids are smashing people although 4 was too many to bring up properly on your own. I really feel sorry for this new one. But i wish him every best wish for his future. Cant help being disappointed that you just carry on producing.Thats all. good luck.

Me: go away J. i can see why your kids dont like you. and i can see why you dont see your grandchild....now go away.

J: wait till yours are older you may not see them either.

following day: J: what you choose to do or not do, is not my business. should not have voiced my opinions so forcefully i suppose. Anyway happy days and good luck.

Me: no you should not you said what you had to say when i told you i was pregnant should have been left at that. Baby is here your comments were not going to make him go away. so there was no point to them.

Above convo was 23rd april

then 9th june i sent message: how are you. no reply. 14th i sent another: i guess you dont want to talk to us anymore. shame because we were friends for a long time. and you were like a nan to the kids as they dont have that. and L was asking about you the other day.never mind i guess people in life come and go.

J: im in mallorca till thurs. Thats all maybe expensive to text not sure. Me: ok have fun.

28/06....Me good you felt you could speak to O but not me...thanks

my confusion is she does not seem to want to talk to me. but then sends me a birthday card. she does not reply to me if i message her will talk to my daughter but not me. but sends me a birthday card. its really confusing me she either does want to talk to me or dont????

Do you struggle with social anxiety OP? By the sounds of it you feel very alone but can only see barriers on how to make your social circle better? X

fairy i don't know could do i guess. the school i went to was only 10 to a class. i later found out the school was not suited to me. to late by then though. also i remember as a kid at home i could hardly talk as in join a convo because people used to talk over me. so could all be linked i guess.

I almost picked the social anxiety thing up instantly from a few of your post, something told me but can't put my finger on it? I suffer with mental health and occasionally anxiety and I take medicine for that, do you have any help or are you too shy to ask? X

i have had counselling in the past due to depression. but it was like talking to a wall. never looked into or even spoke about social anxiety. it never entered my head till you just said about it. might be something in it though.