The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Shaping Up For A Super, Sober Summer!

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Hey, I'm Mouse

This is 'Gerald', our trustworthy, non judgemental Bus, full of a variety of posters who have travelled long and far, or even just joined us a few stops ago.

This is a place where you can be who YOU want to be. 24/7, 365. This lovely place is just like your best friend, there's no slagging off, no judging, just us.

Drinking or not, embarrassed, fed up of the way things are, or just lonely of living the way drinking makes you do, come and take a peek and see what you think.....

THIS THE LAST THREAD WE HAD

AND THIS IS WHERE THE BUS WAS BUILT, WHERE IT ALL BEGAN

We can't wait to meet you, we won't bite! Well, unless you ask very nicely.

Take good care until we see you. :) xx

small did you say 80 pairs????????

Yup...'fraid so. In my defence, I am very bad at throwing anything away.

Will you still speak to me, Ma?

Day 32 and I slipped. I had a psychological assessment this morning and they said (third one) that I am too complex for their team to deal with. I do not feel complex. I just feel stupid and as if there is nowhere to turn. I did go back to my GP, yesterday. She said that my BP is 85/50 and my BMI is 17 and that's why I am passing out.

I drank today. After my interview, which went well. I have another tomorrow.

My daughter is disgusted with me, as I am with myself. Why, why do I hit this self destruct button so consistently when I am so aware that it doesn't solve anything?

lobster are you OK? Day 32 is amazing. Don't let today undo all the good work. Good luck with the interviews
small I'm just jealous I don't have the room to store that many pairs of shoes even if I had them!!!!!
I don't get the shors and bags thing. Now, if we are talking earrings I might give you a run for your money....

Ladies, it's better to be overdone than overlooked!!!!

Also just wanted to say thanks for all your support yesterday, inside you made me cry with your loveliness, your all so wonderful xxx

Music that makes me happy, Denise Williams. "Let's hear it for the boy"

And for all of us "we go together" from Grease.

And for dancing "wherever, whenever" Shakira.

Soooo cheesy but soooo good xxx

I used to sing "let's hear it for the boy" for Ds when he was little!

Evening all, day 2, so so so close to drinking, had there been any in I would, had to force myself to stay in the house by doing crafty stuff with the little people.

faire so sorry to hear of your loss , there aren't really any words that help but thinking of you.

Lovely mouse, you're so fab and strong, I don't know how you do it but you do, I hope this idiot gets what they deserve and you get the dla sorted very quickly.

Sending positive thoughts to you all, sorry to not NC everyone, I'm still getting back in the swing of things, since I've been off the bus, I've been signed off work for a while too, life has been a little tricky but I'm getting there, just find conversation a bit harder work some days, especially with pmt!

Anyways, I genuinely have no idea how many pairs of shoes I have, it'll be around 40 I reckon at a guess!

Wearing my Bedroom Athletics slippers. And a dog.

lobster honey, I have walked your path almost identically, bounced from agency to agency, is it depression, is it related to my crohn's, is it bipolar??? Is it a nervous breakdown, Not fitting any profile, still don't. It frustrates the hell out of me I can be sober and do everything for my family for months and yet when I fall, and I really do fall , I've got to start from the bottom with everyone's dissaproval as though I've been a drunk for years!!!

The love and support of this bus show me that when I succumb to booze and depression, it's just a blip, it doesn't define me and neither does this wee wobble define you.

Maybe you need to find answers within yourself, could you see a private therapist, even just a few times to empty your head of the thoughts and feelings you can't share with dd or the people around you.

You have given me so much pleasure reading your posts, more uplifted every day, that's the person you really are, I know you because I see myself in every word you write.

Please please keep posting and show your dd you have the strength and courage to get back to where you were yesterday.

My daughter used to ask me why loving her wasn't enough to make me happy, I will never know the answer to that question but with my friends on here and the hope in my heart I know I'll be ok, and so will you!!!!

I know it xxx
A million hugs my friend xxx

Baby your post, particularly the penultimate paragraph, made me cry. You are wonderful: thank you for your insight, honesty and kindness xx

baby those shoes! instantly recognisable as a West Coast lass

And for those who aren't posting pics of their shoes, I'm now wondering if you a load of hairy arsed truckers just posing as babes ???? Get posting, and I'll be looking out for a size 11 (masculine) foot stuffed in to size six stiletto

and smallfox - this is what I'm listening to now GIVE IT A LISTEN it's beautiful It's part of my funeral music plan - no plans to go yet, but I'd hate to leave to the old rugged cross!

lobster I am so sad that our health system and care system is so disjointed that it cannot seem to provide the holistic care we all deserve. My friend's son has some of the most complex need I've ever known, and last week he was accepted into a supportive community where there is a real possibility that he will find some peace. Keep fighting.

Venus that's lovely, my lovely. Am taking it to bed to listen, quietly, again. Thank you for that, and for your kindness.

venus I promise no hairy arsed trucker here but I am in bed so no shoes either!

And this is another song for my funeral (funeral of a faded rock chick) - now since I understand from some of our previous posts that I'm pretty much the oldest on here, so I'm expecting you all to turn up when eventually (in a long, long time, and far away) I pop my clogs. And I'm expecting you to sing in a big swaying brave babes chorus.....

Blue toes & mad eyed dog posting from phone . Squinting as I type haven't got my specs on x

Fox honey sorry didn't mean to squeeze you that hard Babe you are doing so well, you are inspiring so many of us and I for one luvs ya! Talking Heads are one of my faves, also love the Tom Tom Club. You are amazing, keep on keeping on, tomorrow is another day it will be better. I had you down for a DM girl

Baby you inspire me more day by day. Love the shoes x

Joey your dog looks lovely. I love sharing my bed with my dog

I've had a shite few days, today slightly better, work crap, I can't stand it when people don't do their jobs properly, it gets right on my flicking norks! Anyhoo, off to watch tennis tomorrow, never been and thought I'd take myself off for the day, you never know I may pick myself up a handsome chap

Hope amazing job

Love to you all you lovely Babes, sorry not to NC you all, it's taken me ages to type this must go and find me specs x

Fox that's a 'super' hug not a 'supper' hug consuming food currently occupies quite alot of my time

isindie they need 40 pairs of shoes because their legs are like this:

Good morning lovely Babes

I love this bus and all that travel in her!

Lobster good luck with your interview today and well done on yesterdays. I can really relate to the 'celebration' 'well done' 'pat on the back' drink, it's so easy to do and I always think, 'why the fuck shouldn't I' - You are doing so so well please don't let this blip scupper your progress and all the AF days that you've achieved. It is a huge achievement and we all know how hard it can be. Before you go to your interview today, think about a reward just for you that doesn't involve alcohol and treat yourself because you deserve it! Have a good day babe x

Fox darling I hope you're feeling brighter today lovely one Think over the passed 5 months and the progression that you've made. You have achieved so much and as you've said 'it is so so worth it'. Reconnected with your family, feeling clear headed in the morning, feeling more alert, looking better, all that money you've saved, the list is endless. Hold onto that my darling

Isinde darling I have a vision of you in your attic office, howling away to your favourite songs, that makes me smile. Have a good day lovely lady x

Have a good day everyone - hugs to everyone of you x

Morning all. I've been drinking since my pathetic 2 AF days last week. Woke up today with terrible anxiety about pretty much everything in my life - my current job (why am I messing it up?), my imminent job (how on earth will I cope?), my kids (what am I doing to them?), my partner (how long will he put up with me?), my studies (how will I ever catch up?), my weight (I am so fat!) and my blood pressure (am I going to drop dead one day?). I know these are all drink related but it it all feels like too bloody much.

Not asking for answers just needed to get it off my chest. I know the answer. I have to stop I just don't know if I have it in me.

Sorry not to name check or contribute to shoe debate but thanks to you all for your humour and wisdom. Good luck for the interview Lobster and keep on keeping on - you have been doing brilliantly.

Ladies, it's better to be overdone than overlooked!!!!

I'm totally overwhelmed by all the shoe posts! Sorry, Foxy! I promise to zip it after this.

baby, my heart is racing. Literally RACING!!! I LOVE; LOVE YOUR PUMPS!!! Ok. I need to breath.
(OMG, I've fallen in love.

isinde you have great taste in music!

beonit, keep going, posting, I understand that vicious cycle, half the problems blame my drinking on, would be so much less if I didn't even drink! I think it's harder knowing this yet still the wine witch beats you, however you'll get loads of support here, fab bunch they are.

You know I thought my shoe collection was fairly tame I've mentally counted 36 pairs, I might try and count when I get home! They're 90% comfy flats though, converse, boots and flip flops, nothing really posh!