The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Shaping Up For A Super, Sober Summer!

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Hey, I'm Mouse

This is 'Gerald', our trustworthy, non judgemental Bus, full of a variety of posters who have travelled long and far, or even just joined us a few stops ago.

This is a place where you can be who YOU want to be. 24/7, 365. This lovely place is just like your best friend, there's no slagging off, no judging, just us.

Drinking or not, embarrassed, fed up of the way things are, or just lonely of living the way drinking makes you do, come and take a peek and see what you think.....

THIS THE LAST THREAD WE HAD

AND THIS IS WHERE THE BUS WAS BUILT, WHERE IT ALL BEGAN

We can't wait to meet you, we won't bite! Well, unless you ask very nicely.

Take good care until we see you. :) xx

Hey babes,

Not had much of a chance to post, dd1 on study leave so we're swatting like mad, think I could do the bloody exams too!!!

Just wanted to say hope, your a spectacular mother, your always posting on your way to or from the kids activities, carrying the burden for everything emotionally and financially. Could I point out that although we know we have issues with booze, it is not a crime to get drunk once in a while, were you the only mother in the pub, eh NOOOO. Every bloody mum I know gets pissed occasionally and they DO NOT have any addiction. Same to my lovely friend khalisi, half the bloody population of the world, if not more have a few wines on a Friday night. We are so close to this issue that we view a fairly normal situation, tipsy or a bit pissed as a capital crime, when in a once in a while case it's perfectly bloody normal. Infact teetotallers are the people considered strange and stern because they completely abstain so please do not forget the wonderful, glorious women and mothers you are and that's a bloody order or you'll be be getting a Glasgow kiss fae me!!!!

What would you both say to me ??? You'd say "pick yourself up, dust yourself down and tomorrow we all start with an A"

Big wave to lovely, lovely spanna, your posts warm my heart, your a fabulous babe, as indeed are you all.

Love to all winning or struggling, keep on keeping on xxxx

Quiet on here. Where is everyone?

Drags sorry self back on the Bus... Think I'll just stick to chocolate and footner tonight

Hey joey. What's up?

Thanks Baby. Love you xxx

Hey Joey ... Hugs xxx

Just got back from race with ds. He has qualified for nationals 2 years younger than the rest of his age group. I am so proud of my darling boy,

Well done hopes fleet footed Ds!. He sounds a lovely lad too, supportive of you and kind. How are you feeling now?

Just been drinking too often lately, and feel guilty about it. I hear you've been hobnobbing with all sorts of interesting soldiers people lately ma

looking how are you doing?

I am feeling really bad this morning. Suicidal bad. I hate myself for messing up. Went to bed when I got in from race as Dd and WB ignoring me, and ds came in and we watched the races back on his laptop. Then I slept for a bit but have been awake for hours now and just want to die. I am not planning to act on it and leave the kids of course, but I just feel so low, and could stay in bed forever.

Hope we're here for you x

Stay in bed if you want. Get a cup of tea and go back to bed with a book/mag/mn and have some time for yourself. Take the day off, my lovely, you've earned it.

It's raining here, don't think I'l be doing much either. Maybe I'll go for a walk later if the sun comes out. Maybe not.

hope can you get to GP this week. Depression is a horrible thing. I have been fighting it for months and finally caved last week and have gone back onto Citalopram. It hasn't kicked in yet but when it does I know it will help as I have had it in the past. No problems with getting addicted and coming off it when you feel better. And tell WB you are going to a doctor and need medical help because you are now at the point where you can't cope any more. Make him aware of how desperate things are. Tell him you are considering selling the house. Its yours and he can't stop you. Anything to make him fucking wake up!!!!!
Do you have a close friend nearby you can talk to?
I know that feeling of not being able to get out of bed. You need help sweets and thats great coming from me who is the last to accept it but you really do. Medical help to take the edge off first, and then you can address, or at least cope with, the bigger issues. Can you get some sleep today? I could sleep round the clock at the moment so take any extra chances if you can get them.
I have to go out for a bit today but will be back this afternoon.
Take care.

Hey lookingforhope life is such a roller coaster for you at the moment. When you're facing so much that is difficult and out of control, a little bright spot, a little bit of optimistic thought feels incredible. And then when that vision seems to fade it can feel like we crash down more heavily than ever. But the hope, the vision is still there behind the grey clouds and you will glimpse it again and feel warmed by it.

I agree with ma about seeing a doc, getting something that can help you through the short term. Of course what would help more than all is a kind, supportive partner who affirms all that is good about you - unfortunately not available on prescription, but in the meantime we are all here encouraging you, cheering you on, and most of all understanding you.

Thanks babes. I have citalopram but keep forgetting to take it (I know, own worst enemy). I just feel so lonely and today very cross with myself. I am sick of having to cope. When I do everyone takes me for granted, and when I slip up everyone hates me. Apart from ds. Dd can be a massive judgmental cow and I am walking on eggshells with her a lot of the time. I know it's her age and hormones and insecurities but....

Still in bed but have to get up and iron and take dd to a dance show with WB. Dreading it.

Day 1 here. Don't count yesterday as was still full of it from the night before

Sorry to hog the thread but want to get it all down so I stop pretending everything is ok when really I am just hanging in by a thread...

looking when I get stuck in an unhappy place, I sometimes do this very slow, very easy yoga movement Neurobiologists have shown that the position with your arms stretched up and your face looking upward to the sky actually makes subtle changes in our brains - especially if you can force a smile onto your face as it is tilted upward.

I also find that the instructions to focus on the feeling in your fingers and arms helps to take me out of my head (slightly different to off my head )

And HAPPY BIRTHDAY to the Brave Babes Threads

I can remember seeing the very first post from JesusWhatNext and studiously ignoring it - scared that it would call me to do something about my own drinking, and scared of admitting the extent of the problem that I had. For about 4 weeks I saw the thread popping up and in my head I made scathing retorts about it and then something got to me.... I daren't post when I was drunk, or even the morning after, so I managed 3 days sober and then made my first post - and my first real admission that I had any kind of a problem. I was shaking so much when I typed, and I was sure that my feeble post would be ignored.

Instead what I found was a group of people who replied, supported, cheered, cajoled and understood. Thank you to the early posters of that time JWN (of course), MIFLAW that uncompromising, argumentative old bastard with the most excellent of advice, MelvinMummy, MoominMag and thank you to all the others who have supported me over the years and who either directly or indirectly have help me on my journey. There are far too many to mention but I have to say special thanks to ma, mouseface, isindie, silver. However one of the reasons I am still ere, and still posting sometimes, is that reading others' posts keep me from the easy complacency I could so readily find, you all remind me of how much I am still drawn to alcohol. And when I post it reinforces my intention and my determination.

So in the words of Jesus : TODAY I WILL NOT BE DRINKING

Oh, and for the bus party I have dressed up as a

Oops, I didn't dress up as YOGANORMAN, I dressed as venus fly trap

Bus party!! Drapes bunting and puts out bowls of nibbles.
hope are you ok? How old is dd?
You do so much running round after your kids and their activities, no wonder you're knackered. Can you just get takeaway tonight so you dont have to cook?

Love the outfit Venus

HAPPY BIRTHDAY; GERALD!!!!

So true, Baby. We tend to over judge and over think.

Hope pm'd you. And do the yoga if you can. I try and do 15min ss every morning and I can tell you, it makes a huge difference.

Managed a very hard 10k today. Festival was really fun. I didn't want to stop dancing. New fella kept reminding me that I'll be running and Need to sleep. Finally got to bed at 3am!
I can honestly say I'm too old for this shit.
I'm dressed as super woman. Gonna fake it till I make it!

Happy Sunday, Darling Babes!

Thank you for the link, venus. Just did it and it was really relaxing!

Wishing I hadn't offered to be the back end of the camel now. It's hot in here and I can't get to the nibbles. Humph!

Happy Birthday Brave Babe Battle Bus. Anyone seen Mouse, she may be disguised as something small and furry.

Faire at least I've had a shower. Being the front end is no picnic either, I'm not tall enough to see where I'm going, and I suspect the real camel has taken a shine to us.

Happy birthday lovely bus. You are my lifeline, and though I'm still not winning the wine witch battle, I will keep trying, and feel less alone with you crazy babes around xxx

at the real camel has taken a shine to us!!
Sits regally on throne and waves condescendingly at everyone while stuffing face with nibbles.
mouse has hurt her back and is bed ridden. Shall we drive Gerald round there?

Yes, let's go pick her up. Is Isinde driving?

Nooooo. If isinde is driving there won't be a rabbit safe in the country! Where is silver? She used to drive the bus!
Would also love to hear from rural, thurso, ladame, wry, purple and so many others.

Wooo Hooo!

Hope I laughed so hard at your 'camel' comment I had to run to the loo still laughing.... I so hope you're feeling better today I hope dds performance went well I agree with everyone, you are an amazing woman, mum, you have had so much to deal with and I admire you for your determination and strength. We are all allowed to have a blip and we are all allowed to let off steam, we all know the relief and sensation of that first glass in my case the second as the first doesn't even hit the sides Hugs to you my friend

Ma can we have an edible cake that one of your lovely men in uniform with a bit less on can pop out of when we sing happy birthday to Gerald?

Venus love the outfit

Khalisi I hope you're feeling better honey and so glad you enjoyed your festival I read some of the other threads last week and was shocked at how nasty posters can be to people looking for help I am such a worrier that I get completely enveloped in reading threads, it's not good for me, I'm sticking on this here bus

April lovely it was just 2 glasses you are doing so well

Baby I luffs you x

Well I did my first ever sober festival I went for some mocktails, my yummiest being a Gin Gin without the gin - crushed cucumber, fresh lime juice, elderflower cordial and apple juice over ice, OMG divine I danced alot, laughed like a drain, people watched some quite tasty men there So I'm ready to party tonight

Happy Birthday Gerald!!!!!!!

I hope everyone is ok x