The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Shaping Up For A Super, Sober Summer!

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Hey, I'm Mouse

This is 'Gerald', our trustworthy, non judgemental Bus, full of a variety of posters who have travelled long and far, or even just joined us a few stops ago.

This is a place where you can be who YOU want to be. 24/7, 365. This lovely place is just like your best friend, there's no slagging off, no judging, just us.

Drinking or not, embarrassed, fed up of the way things are, or just lonely of living the way drinking makes you do, come and take a peek and see what you think.....

THIS THE LAST THREAD WE HAD

AND THIS IS WHERE THE BUS WAS BUILT, WHERE IT ALL BEGAN

We can't wait to meet you, we won't bite! Well, unless you ask very nicely.

Take good care until we see you. :) xx

Good morning, Babes!

First up. didn't stay AF. This perimenopausal shit. I had period pains from hell, from late afternoon on. By the time I got home I took painkillers (very unusual for me) and when they had not helped after two hours and two hot water bottles, I drank a glass of wine. Two more and not only did the pain get better but I actually slept until this morning. And that is also unusual because more than two glasses means interrupted sleep.
Sorry to have let you all down, my darling Babes. The pain was horrendous. I have been working since 8, so no hangover. Things have now settled and if the day stays calm in the nether regions.
Well, at least I got a period in May.
Really feeling down and teary though, about drinking. Most of all about being unable to run because that would have helped staying AF.
That deep, sad feeling I get after three glasses is there and I'm crying.

Good you're feeling better, guggs.

Morning ladies. Busy weekend as we have DS and his gf visiting. I have been drinking but not as much as usual (but still far more than is healthy ). Hope you're ok khalisi . Have a great day everyone xx

Come on sweetie,today is a new day. 3 glasses isn't wonderful but it's far from being the end of the world either. i have many memories of baaaaad nights out where I staggered home and had to put the pieces together when I came round the following day. Going to bed early after a few glasses is ok.

The perimenopause can just fuck off as far as I'm concerned. it's vile. grrr!
Hope you are feeling a good deal better and ready for an af saturday- get something nice in to eat.

I really envy you with your ability to run. For some reason life i've just run out of energy and motivation for all the things I used to enjoy. It's probably left over crap from the depression I went through last year.Your lovely posts about running always cheer me up and help me to remember that I could do it if i try.

So stop worrying and enjoy the day, lovely. By order. x

Thank you, Hands and guggs.
Working seems to help. And my favourite radio station in the background.
And being on the bus, of course.

Big hugs khalisi

Yesterday was day 40, or it would have been. Today is day 1 again. Sigh.

My lovely parents are visiting and I didn't want them to be secretly hoping I was pregnant. Only 2 glasses, but I'm annoyed at myself. Should just have eaten some raw eggs!!

Oh April! Ist 40/1. Not 0/1. Forty is too fabulous a number to just wipe clean, babes.
I need to log off. Am trawling relationship board. Jesus Christ, there are some really bad people on this earth.
I should be getting ready to leave but the period pains are back and the weepiness just won't pass.
New fella was lovely last night. I was so furious for no reason and he said, well, it isn't for no reason. Pain makes the nicest person go crazy. Don't worry about me.

Haha April that made me laugh. Or shout to dh 'Darling, could you pick me up some tampons whilst you're out'

Khalisi sorry you feel that you let yourself down. No-one else feels like that about you, we love you just the way you are x

Get back on it girl. Write that day off and start again. Hope the pains stay away.

How about this idea? For the bus anniversary party tomorrow, shall we make it fancy dress?

Hope you feel better soon guggs, maybe when this cold shifts, you'll get your mojo back

Hey babes. Got horrendously pissed last night by accident. Everyone cross with me. Feeling ashamed and sad . One of those where I felt fine leaving the bar but can't recall getting home. I hate me.

I love you, hope.
I know you feel really bad. And if everyone is angry with you, please stop being angry with yourself. You need a general around you in rl and since I'm on the continent and can't just pop over and tell them all to fuck off, you need to be there for you, ok?
Big hug, my darling friend.
But I have to ask, by accident?

Yeah kind of. Was our t with friends and had no more to drink than them, and they are not massive pissheads, felt fine leaving the bar but then collapsed at my front door. Hate myself. I didn't eat yesterday cos running round after everyone. So no, not strictly accidental but I wasn't conscious ly going on a bender if you see what I mean. I want to die today. I spend so much time on the moral high ground at home cos I am the financially responsible one, the earner, the keeper of kids' diaries, the buyer of presents, organiser of activities, driver to sports clubs....then one night like last night and everyone hates me and I feel like I am a piece of shit

And I can't blame them. God I feel so low. Can try to excuse myself by saying I have been so tightly wound up about the job and wankbadger situation for months and drink is an outlet. But it isn't an acceptable excuse. I need to stop. For good.

Khalisi, thanks for being here when I need you xxxx

Don't you be bothered by them hating you.
someone has to have the fucking upper hand. and since WB is a shit, it has to be you.
Don't engage in being battered. JUST DO NOT.
If you have apologised, that is enough. I know our children hurt and, and, and. But real love means when the person who always takes care of you and looks after you stumbles, you stop and carry them, if you have to.
So fuck the fingers in your face, babes. Do not engage in apologising over and over. You've made a mistake. You can see how it happened. If they can't, that is their problem.
If you can, go for a long walk. Even if ist raining.
Make yourself a good pot of tea and find a quite place.
I know it sounds slightly twisted, but you have to turn this around and literally make it about you. Because right now, it is.
If any one says anything, look them straight in the face and say you are always my priority. I know that. And you know that. Right now, I have to look after myself though because no one else can.

(I am so very furious for you.)

Aw Khalisi, thank you. I am almost crying here. Ds is being lovely as usual. Dd is being a bitch tho don't blame her and WB is being nasty, smug and preachy. He pretends to be annoyed but I think he loves it when I fuck up. I am dismayed by lady night. I really do need to stop for good ...

Lady night? Last night. It was not ladylike

If you want to stop hope, do it for you, not for anyone else. This is what wankbadger's do. They make themselves feel superior by putting others down. Look after yourself and the dcs, let him fend for himself for once x

Well done for coming back to the bus, that takes courage and determination. Want to dress up as a grumpy camel with me? You can be the front if you want. I'll be the hump

You are a much nicer person than I.
But really, wait to be sure it only you and WB and say 'I wouldn't be so smug if I were you. You know what they call men like you? Cocklodgers. Actually I'm amazed I'm not pissed all the time, living with you'.
The fucker.
Tell dd I wiped her shit. And vomit. And snot.
Oh, and diarrhea
But she 's your babe, you can forgive her bitchiness although not necessary at all.

sorry, for to put your in there... of course I thankfull didn't have to wipe your dd's shitty arse!

hope my friend, you did it because in your head it was your way if saying to wb and everyone else, well fuck you. I'm doing this for me. And of course its not for you because it makes you feel worse but it seems like a way to shut it all out at the time. I totally get it. And do it. Stand tall today. Remember FB2020. You are a strong and glorious babe and no wankbadger is going to make you feel otherwise. There is a lot of love and support for you on this bus. Pick your self up and get working on your grumpy camel costume for tomorrow.
I wonder if indie will go dressed as Elmer Fud?
I think I shall go as the Queen, what with me knowing lots of posh folk an all.

Oh I love you babes. You are making me smile when I didn't think I could xxxx Thank you both. And Faire, am buying a camel costume from Amazon xxx

Oh, Ma just cross posted and missed you. Yes, FB 2020. And yes, you are right as always wise and wonderful friend. You babes are lifesavers. I literally could not survive without this bus. Love you all so much x

Attagirl hope!! If he says anything to you just tell him that its the stress of living with him that makes you drink and if he doesnt like your behaviour, maybe he should leave. ( and while he's at it, why doesnt he go fuck himself?)
I'm orf to polish my tiara and dust off my ermine cloak for tomorrow. Shall I bring some soldiers? I know lots.......they look very dashing in their party outfits of scarlet jackets and kilts.

Yes to the soldiers please. Am in the car after picking up tickets to dd's dance show tomorrow. Still being a mum even though I feel like a failure. I really need a month off from my life

Hope, its Fevvers here.(stuck with my politico name cos Im rubbish at technology...and my keyboard has lost its apostrophe) You are a fine quaen, no mistaking that.

Wouldn't a month off from life be great?
You are anything but a failure hope. You hold your family together, as do most of the Babes on here.