The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Shaping Up For A Super, Sober Summer!

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Hey, I'm Mouse

This is 'Gerald', our trustworthy, non judgemental Bus, full of a variety of posters who have travelled long and far, or even just joined us a few stops ago.

This is a place where you can be who YOU want to be. 24/7, 365. This lovely place is just like your best friend, there's no slagging off, no judging, just us.

Drinking or not, embarrassed, fed up of the way things are, or just lonely of living the way drinking makes you do, come and take a peek and see what you think.....

THIS THE LAST THREAD WE HAD

AND THIS IS WHERE THE BUS WAS BUILT, WHERE IT ALL BEGAN

We can't wait to meet you, we won't bite! Well, unless you ask very nicely.

Take good care until we see you. :) xx

Ello babes

how you doing babe?

spanna that mocktail sounds nice

Stressing about work and stuff. DD being a pain

DD2 has had a face like a slapped arse all weekend. These girls can be very trying. Little shits but we love them.

come on have a dance it will make you feel 10 times better x

can't resist the songs hope you all don't mind

Gonga anyone? or I know, all on the floor

Evening, tis me, Mouse - the furry one you love! - (waves at Faire) xxx

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR GERALD AND THOSE WHO RIDE HIM!!

I can't believe that Jesus started all of this wonderment five years ago.

Gosh, those were dark, lonely days for me....

I've got a problem with my Diverticulum, it gets inflamed, rather severely, and then I vomit countless times, put my back out and end up in bed for 3 frickin days.

I feel so poorly right now but I want to join in the celebrations.... of our wonderful bus! :)

Anyway - welcome to new babes, sorry I'm no god right now, docs asap. It's not nice not being in control of your bowels or stomach. :(

Night Babes - I love you all, past, present and future. xxx

Sounds awful Mouse wishing you better very soon

Night lovely Babes

Happy Birthday you band of loons!!

I've had man flu so I just gave a weak smile at the bus celebrations yesterday- congratulations all!

mouse you have my sympathy,hope you feel better soon.

*it was man flu because i could still get up every so often,can't do that with proper flu.

Thank you lovely bus for helping us to get /stay /try for sobriety.

Good morning, my lovelies,
Sorry I disappeared yesterday. Suddenly felt awful. Like stomach bug awful so I went to bed.
Still feeling a little shaky this morning but better too, thank god.
Happy Monday, darling Babes!
xxx

Good afternoon you crazy crew

hope even In your darkest hour you still made me roar with laughter at you camel comment!!!! I hope your feeling better today. I think the problem in your household is that your family expect so much of you, utter flawless perfection that the bar is set too high and you are not permitted to stumble at any time. That's not possible for any of us, we are human and flawed though in your case it's WB who is the flaw. My dd1 is a great girl and very very protective of me but it borders on controlling , her dad was the same for many years, critical and subsequently cruel and I feel on edge when dd1 silently takes in what I'm wearing, my hair and had told me she will leave if she sees me drink ever again, no pressure then!!!

mouse I truly hope you fell better soon, I live my life looking for toilets do I sympathise completely. I go to the toilet up to 20 times a day on a bad one and the bloody irony is the steroids make me overweight, I at least deserve to be slim, ain't life a bitch!!!

Have been eating a load of rubbish and it's really caused my crohn's to flare up so I've had a grim and painful night but it's kinda kicked my butt into action to get back to eating nice clean foods and getting back to excercising regularly, it helped me so much yet I've just let everything go, everything I do in life is soooo extreme, no middle ground, lovely manic highs and terrible lows, dieting or bingeing, sober or pissed, out every day rushing around or staying in for days, loving dh like a desparate puppy or hating him with every fibre of my being. The trouble is I believe my feelings to be totally true whichever zone I'm in and so now I don't trust my own thoughts anymore and without our thoughts and feelings we are just robots, serving others as programmed by "mother, wife" software dictates,

I think that's why wine became such a problem for all of us, it made us feel warmth, quietened the chaos and the self doubt and magnified our bravery and showed us how to laugh again. Sadly it came at a very great price !!

Anyway excuse my little downer, I always get huffy on housework day, I bloody hate doing it, resent repeating the same menial tasks BUT I know I'm not a robot cos there's things I know to be true, in any of my zones, I love my kids, my amazing parents and ofcourse ;

I LOVE EVERY BABE ON THIS FABULOUS, LIFE AFFIRMING GODDAMM BUS

Thaaaats all folks !!!!

Xxx

Sorry I was grumpy yesterday, hope the party went okay

Evening Lovely Babes

Joey how was work? hope the bastards didn't get you down I hadn't realised how anxious I was about going to work today (have had half term off). Spent the evening going down memory music lane on youtube (sorry about the affliction on you All) then I just couldn't settle down and get to sleep, eventually fell asleep after 1am And work was ok and it was ok to be back Have a relaxing evening if you can x

Baby I'm sorry that your crohns is bad I can really relate to your life 'split', it's almost like being on scales. Are you a Gemini? Twin personalities in the same body, if you know what I mean I have what I have called masks, different hats, heads that I use depending on who I have to be at that moment in my life. Anyway, I am yabbering on I hope the cleaning wasn't too bad. I HATE (strong word but it's true and it makes me want to shout) Housework of any kind! So I do admire anyone who keeps up with it on a daily, weekly basis. I do understand the benefits and how much better I will feel etc but it is so mundane and there are so many more interesting things to be doing like watching shite tv x

Khalisi how are you babe? I hope you're feeling better darling

Fox how you doing honey? I hope you had a good weekend. I had a virtual sober dance off with you whilst we listened to a few bands I think my friends were more bothered about me being sober than I was I still found my sense of humour and had fun Still uncertain with where I'm going with this but I'm just going to keep going until 100 Days and I am really starting to want to keep going

Mouse I hope you're feeling better x

Guggs

You are all amazing Babes and I hope you are all having a good Monday x

Checking in. Wish the ADs would kick in. Am a miserable cow

Ma

Full moon tomorrow

Really?

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Is that you Ma? Gorgeous Babe

Hi again,

Big hugs to you joey just cos you sound like you need one. Xxx

spanna I am indeed a Gemini, ridiculously sensitive and highly emotional whether it be in a good way, life and soul of the party, utterly devoted to my friends and loved ones and always looking for the best in people, the flip side is a dark, brooding soul, cynical and hard done by, believing every minute action of everyone around me, every throwaway comment or moany comment of dh and kids is a direct insult.

It's very very exhausting and my brain never, ever shuts down, no respite from giddy excitement to agonising disappointment.

My councillor says I must try and control all the surrounding and changeable triggers to my "darkness". and the house becoming unmanageable destabilises my mood immediately, therefore I must spend much of my time doing things I bloody hate.

At least I'm finally learning how important it is to make time for the things I like doing to even up the scores, I think that is the key for all of us, without the good stuff, wine fills In the space and the time and that's when it all starts to go horribly wrong!!!!

Love to all xxx

Not me. Doesn't have purple fur......

Hey Spanna, I'm ok, thanks. Bit flat, but ok. Weekend was fine, kept thinking of you and am so glad you had a good time. So proud of you. What bands did we listen to during our dance off, just so I know? I thought of you and had a little dance with my DDs and you in my living room on Saturday afternoon - we covered all bases with our music 'cos we weren't sure what kind of festival you might be at, so we went from Supertramp to Shostakovich to Nick Cave to Siouxsie to the Communards in our efforts to keep up with you. The DDs settled on Dancing Queen in the end, and that was fine by me.

for Ma - hope the ADs kick in soon.

Mouse you poor thing - really hope you are back on your feet soon.

Sorry, posted too quickly there - for Baby too - hang in there lovely. You are amazing and don't let anyone undermine you or persuade you otherwise.

Hope you are awesome, how you hold it together I don't know, you are an inspiration. Take care of you.

Khalisi, hope you're feeling better.

Joey - hope work was at least tolerable.

take care all on this lovely bus. You - we - are all extraordinary. In a good way