sad and lonely

[matroyshka]

Ashamed to even type this but I’m just so sad and lonely I need to reach out. I’m 35 and single with no children and I feel like I’ll be alone forever. Everyone I know is part of a couple and/or has children and sometimes I feel like the only one who’s alone. I have been seeing a guy for a couple of months who I really like but feel he’s losing interest – so sad as I just don’t understand why I keep ending up alone. What’s wrong with me?!

I know writing this sounds really self-pitying but it genuinely feels like that - in the grand scheme of things this is such a non-problem…Lately I’ve been making a list of 5 things I’m grateful for each night before bed and this makes me see that I am lucky in lots of ways but it just doesn’t seem like that most of the time. I would like to have a family and feel time is slipping away.

I was in an EA relationship for a long time (a few years ago) and absolutely appreciate that no relationship is better than an awful one… but I’m still so lonely and just want to feel loved...

Bit of an outpouring really, sorry for the pity post, I just thought it might help to write it down…

Aww, sorry to hear that, Rummi - virtual hug!
How are you feeling this morning? Great that you had a good couple of evenings, what did you get up to? Sometimes after a few evenings of company, an evening alone can be a bit of a downer, can't it... Do you have anything else planned for this week to look forward to?

Hi, I went out for dinner with a different friend on my evening out. Problem is that to be occupied and do social things then money is required. And I need to economise.

I've got my dc back now so that does help. I just can't rid of the feeling that I've messed up my life :(

Rummi - hugs! I'm sure you haven't messed up, you have a dc and obviously have friends who care about you. I hope you're feeling better today but please vent here if it might help a bit.
I understand about the economising thing - everything social is expensive haha! A friend of mine and I used to take turns to have each other round for dinner every few weeks, that doesn't work out costly, might that be a way to see friends without spending much?