The Brave Babes Battle Bus - The Wheels On This Bus Go Around And Around, In Search Of Sobriety.

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Hello, I'm Mouse

This is the brave babes bus, Gerald. He travels far and wide, to wherever he's needed to offer non judgemental support, advice and Opal Fruits!!

We can tell you about the kind of places that can help, your GP can be the first and easiest place to start, or you can look up you local community addiction centre, or even just come onto the thread and let it all out.

There are posters here who have been on the Bus from the start and those who have just joined us

It doesn't matter how long you've been here, the fact that you have taken that first amazing step in acknowledging that maybe, just maybe, things aren't quite right with your drinking is truly MASSIVE!!

This is a safe place for you to just be and to be as honest as you like, or just to talk.

We'll listen

And if you'd like to see our last thread, you can JUST HERE

Plus if you'd like to see where these threads all began, you can read all about that YOU CAN READ THIS VERY EMOTIONAL AND MOVING THREAD

See you soon,

Mouse xxx

Evening, tis me, Mouse

SHIT, SHIT and DOUBLE SHIT Hope

That's so sad and utterly awful for you. Do they have any kind of redundancy support in place for you. How to do your CV, apply for jobs, if you're entitled to redundancy payment, holidays given as pay?

I really feel for you sweetie. You've been through the feckin ringer of late and you so don't deserve it.

If you want to PM me what you did/do currently, my DH has his own recruitment business and we could see what's around at the mo, also, let me know where you live etc, via PM of course.

You have come so far and I really hope that this isn't going to send you spiralling into a bad place so you need to let out as much as you want to....

Oh Hope, why you? Why now? Life can be so utterly shite to the nicest of people...

Please keep posting, please stay or PM the Babes you want to. Lots of love to you and your children... stay strong! xxx

Hello to the rest of the wonderful Babes. I'm back off to A&E even though I've been today and got nowhere. I need another x-ray as my hand is huge.... they gave me a splint but I think I've got some sort of fracture.... The doc on Monday says that it can take a few days for fractures in hands to present. Boy, this bugger is presenting!

Anyway, bed so I can try to sleep. Much love to you all. Stay safe, stay you and stay true to what it is you're trying to achieve.

Love, Mousey xxx

Hope
No words. Just speechless.

Just want to add:
Sadly, I have experience being bullied at work. I started this job not so long ago absolutely thrilled because it pretty much is my dream at least for two or three years.
Now I am discovering jealousy, envy and conceited double faces.
These women have stolen my joy of waking up for work.
Which is so terribly sad because the bosses are ace.

Hi babes,

hope absolutely gutted for you, could the other team recruit you directly after redundancy on a temp basis? So so upset for you xxx

khalisi people are just well jell cos your gorgeous, foxy and fabulous, SIMPLES xxxx

For those suffering with depression I have noticed something quite significant. I have for the last 2 weeks been exercising every day and my eating habits and mood level have been consistently better, I did a ballet class on Monday night and my ankles were sore next day so I had a few days off. Yesterday my mood plummeted and I felt skittish and emotional and ate shit, it was horrible!!!

Life is a bit strange at the moment, dh and I aren't speaking, every time I try and better myself and my life I feel I want more from our relationship but it never happens, we don't go anywhere together and have very different ideas of how to be a family. I think we were probably never a great match and I wonder if my internal loneliness was the catalyst for all that's gone before. Trouble is with depression you never know if your feelings are real or a trick of your mood so I'm just going about life as best I can until things seem clearer. He is stubborn beyond belief and emotionally very lazy and I'm an only child and need loved and reassured and will be as devoted as a puppy in return.

Anyway I'm off to step class and back on SW with a vengeance, I can only deal with today and tomorrow can take care of itself....

Love to all xxxxx

Morning everyone.

Gosh, I'm not sure whether I am more surprised that just one or two drinks could have affected my sleep so badly, or that good AF sleep returned so quickly. Slept right through until 7am.

It's horrible and wet and grey here, so there is a towel by the door for pup - it's going to be a long, wet-doggy smelling day .

Have a good day everyone.

Sorry, I hadn't refreshed my screen.

Hope that is so, so far beyond awful. Is there no action that can be taken against your boss? Would ACAS be able to advise, since your union seems incapable? Or could they not transfer you and not make you redundant - more uncertainty I know, but it seems so counterproductive? I have everything crossed that you catch a break soon.

Khalisi, as Baby said, jealousy, pure and simple - not that knowing that makes them stop. Have you spoken to your bosses about it?

Baby I get the same when I've not been in the garden, and I am counting the days until Pup has his last vaccinations, so I have an excuse to go out in the rain twice a day. Silly, isn't it, I just can't do it for myself, even though it's something that would make me happy. I would have hoped your DH would be happy that you are taking such positive steps, I hope it gets better soon.

Mouse that injury looked horrible. I broken my arm a couple of years ago. The break was pretty obvious straight away, but I had to wait a week in a temporary cast before it couple be fully assessed. It was a weirdly debilitating injury, because I didn't realise how many mundane tasks actually use two hands - brushing and washing long hair - argh! Get a good book and and don't leave until they have fixed you.

Morning

Hope am I correct that the job you are working in is coming to an end but there is a job in the same company that would be suitable for you but only for one year? Or is the 'new' job in a new organisation? Let me know and i'll try to advise (this is my line of work). PM me if you'd prefer.

I'm working from home today so will be checking in.

Hey babes,

I read a sentence in my book last night that really hit home "I feel like I'm pretending to live in real life instead of actually living it". It really struck a chord, I often feel very alone even when surrounded by people, my life has no structure other than the kids commitments and I often feel I live in my head too much. Sooo I'm hoping lots of exercise will burn off some of my excess mental energy as well as fat and a school of dolphins will swim around me making me feel safe and happy.

Have a good day y'all xxxxx

Hey Sweet.
I have mentioned the reluctance of assisting a few months ago but now something concrete happened. They left me in tears last week.
I hate to think of it but right now I'm thinking of looking for work closer to home because there is no use having a long commute if getting out of bed is hard already.
But it would be such a pity because, as I said. The bosses are really fantastic and they have gone above and beyond all to help me through that rough patch, even though I was very new there when ex-P drove me around the bend.

Hi baby when my dc had severe depression as a teen we would try and get out for a walk everyday. Somehow if it was dull and raining it felt like the weather matched the mood, and we would notice wet branches, and droplets of water on leaves, and mist-laden spiders webs. It helped us both, and felt so much better (and easier) than talking therapy. Sometimes we would skip along (there was a short downhill part that was great for skipping) and dc said that it was difficult to skip and to feel suicidal at the same time.

baby Sometimes, our best is very intimidating to our partners, especially when they know that really, they would/could never have been a first choice for us if we would meet them again, at our best.

oh hope that is so shit.
as someone hanging on to a job by the skin of their teeth, I truly empathise. We have just had our last paychecks unless a small miracle happens. lots and lots in the pipeline if we had a few months but we don't.
baby wel done on the exercise. Usually by now I am well into C25K training but haven't even started this year. I just cannot summon the energy so very impressed by those who are getting out there.

Oh Ma didn't know it was that bad at work. How sad. Do you know what you'll do next?

Baby brilliant on the exercise. I've been doing my bit but not planned any for today - might go for a run later. It so makes me feel better, although got a dodgy knee so should probably rest.

Also doing the 30 day core challenge which I started yesterday and nearly collapsed whilst dh watched going

Core challenge today is: plank for 35 seconds, russian twist for 20 seconds and mountain climber for 35 seconds. Join me .

feel like Davina

Wish I could Ruby, but can barely move with my bruised rib.

Just got back from a traumatic academic review with DS and his form tutor bloody teenagers!

hello babes sad that so many of you struggling at the moment

sweets traumatic for DS or for you?

Hey Joey, both - but him more. His 'attitude scores' have slipped rather dramatically since Christmas, and unfortunately for him he can't hide that it's laziness not lack of ability!

Sweet you're let off the core challenge, hope rib gets better soon. On the positive you're skirt is too big proper jealous . What happened at academic review?

How you Joey?

Thanks for the rain check Ruby .

DS turned into a proper 'Kevin the teenager' and accused me of not understanding or listening, and starting an argument about it , after having been outed as not doing homework or working properly in class - there may also be a forged signature in there somewhere, but since his homework book is lost and my memory isn't what it was, nothing can be proved - or disproved.

And that skirt is designed to sit on the hip, but I have been wearing it on my waist for years, and pretending I was a size smaller! KARMA tripped me up!

Sweet I bet you feel great with the now hipster skirt despite the bruised rib.
Have you managed to sort anything with ds?

I'm gonna go for a run in a bit to try to relax my mind if I can be arsed

Ruby, it's a scabby, 15 year old Demin skirt with all kinds of muck and stains, and I love it .

DS has apologised for his mood and done some labouring for me outside, the homework we will deal with tomorrow and Monday.

Enjoy your run/displacement activity!

I dont think I could plank for 5 seconds! I really need to get my arse into gear.

The plank is for your core, Ma. You need squats and lunges for your arse

Lol sweet. I will bear that in mind.

Sweet dreams, All.