The Brave Babes Battle Bus - The Wheels On This Bus Go Around And Around, In Search Of Sobriety.

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Hello, I'm Mouse

This is the brave babes bus, Gerald. He travels far and wide, to wherever he's needed to offer non judgemental support, advice and Opal Fruits!!

We can tell you about the kind of places that can help, your GP can be the first and easiest place to start, or you can look up you local community addiction centre, or even just come onto the thread and let it all out.

There are posters here who have been on the Bus from the start and those who have just joined us

It doesn't matter how long you've been here, the fact that you have taken that first amazing step in acknowledging that maybe, just maybe, things aren't quite right with your drinking is truly MASSIVE!!

This is a safe place for you to just be and to be as honest as you like, or just to talk.

We'll listen

And if you'd like to see our last thread, you can JUST HERE

Plus if you'd like to see where these threads all began, you can read all about that YOU CAN READ THIS VERY EMOTIONAL AND MOVING THREAD

See you soon,

Mouse xxx

practical question: I've been having a non-stop panic attack I think - can it just go on and on? Heart really racing (well over 100 bpm), shaking etc for three hours! I've tried deep breathing but it's not going slower. It's not dts. I think given the amount I drunk I still have alcohol in my bloodstream.

Feeling really terrified. Has anyone got any ideas how I can calm down?

Hi Crutched. I understand that you're emotionally upset, but I also think that you may be experiencing withdrawal symptoms. Is there anyone at home with you? Can you get to a docs?

crutched try deep slow breaths, in through the nose and out through the mouth. Count them, for example in, two , three, four and out, two , three, four. slow and steady. Just stay in the minute, not what has happened or what might happen but just focus on breathing and sitting or lying calmly.
Drink plenty of water when you can, sugary sweets might help if your blood sugar is low.

waves to Marfisa

Hi crutched good to hear from you. I would agree that a check up might be prudent. You could ring NHS direct and ask what they think?

I'm not in UK,Crutched so I might be well out of date, but can your GP do home visits? Since you're incapacitated due to your leg, it might be best if you could get her/him in to see you at home. I do think you need to see a medic if your symptoms have gone on this long. I think NHS Direct has dissolved, but I understand that calling 111 can start the process of accessing care?

Crutched are you alone? If so, can you get someone to come over?

Second Ma's suggestions too.

crutched when I get in a panic I listen to a meditation - something like this that you listen to on youtube

To stay in the present moment I concentrate on sounds - maybe the meditation, or the sound of a car driving past, or the nise of the kettle or the central heating.... anything that is a REAL sounds, rather than the sound of my worrying, anxious voice in my head.

On breathing I concentrate on the OUT breath - breathe OUT for a count of six, and breathe in for a count of three. Breathing out slowing and steadily will calm you, and the in-breathe will take care of itself.

Have you been drinking lots of coffee or coke to recover from your hangover? That will make your heart race and your muscles to shake. Also you have given your body a big dose of poison and all your systems are focussed on clearing that as quickly as it can. Is there anyone who can come a sit with you for a while? A friend who will just be there in case you need medical help?

And keep posting, if you can.

thanks for the ideas. I'm in my own, the friend who came over over the weekend isn't replying to my texts, god knows what I said to her.

OK, so seek the comfort of (medical) strangers today. You can sort things out with your friend later.

I hope you don't mind me joining your thread! Until 3 weeks ago (yay!) I was secretly drinking between 1 and 2 bottles of wine a day. I started a blog to help me get sober and have met some amazing people through it already. There are loads of us out there! Please have a look if you get a chance. It's on www.mummywasasecretdrinker.blogspot.com and best of luck to you all!

Hi sobermummy you are very welcome to join. Thanks for your support.
crutched how's it going? Are the dcs home tonight? Is dh there?

By the way, I think you guys all rock, and I really hope crutched is okay. what an amazing bus to be on x

Evening, tis me, Mouse

I'm sorry that I've not be around for a few pages, I've been catching up. I was in A&E this morning after falling over a shoe and into Nemo's toy box. I have no idea how to put pics up, no breaks but severe nerve and soft tissue damage.....

Anyway, there are bigger things to talk about it would seem.

Welcome to the bus Crutched, your posts are so similar to how my life used to be, 10 years ago. It's taken me 10 years to rebuild my life and I'm still doing it, step by step, day by day. Your husband is emotionally abusing you, emotionally, mentally but I hope not physically

You're in the right place for talking to a wide range of wonderful posters who have worn the t-shirt out, read the book cover to cover, and could tell you how it's all going to end.

You also need medical support as Ffevvers has said because you sound very 'skitty' in your posts, and rightly so. This is the start of the end, yes? Is that what your husband is saying? And you do't want that? If so, I'm very sorry but if you guys have children old enough to know what's going on with you guys, then it can be a destructive part of their once happy and 'normal' family life.

Do you have some close friends that you can go with you to the GP or to talk this through, who know you more than we do? Inside and out, for years that can hold your hand in rl? We can do it, the support and hand holding etc through the thread..... in abundance lovely. Stay with us, we can and will help you xx

Ma - FFS. How long? How long is it now that we've seen posts like that from you? You are pulled in so many different directions sweetie, but this time, with your Mother looking after a man in your life who you feel unworthy of such kindness, you're running on empty, emotionally, you are giving so much but who is giving YOU care, love, an emotional crutch to lean on through all of this? You have so much to deal with, day in, day out. I hate to see you suffer like this....

Thank goodness for the bus, this thread, this website where we can all just let it out, be honest and say "actually, this is rather shite and I don't want this anymore"

venus - I LOVE the knitted bus, I've just started to teach myself to knit..... I'll let you know if I get a straight line!!

A HUGE HELLO, HOW ARE YOU LOVELY LOT? To - Sweet, Hope, Ruby, Baby, Obrigada, Marfisa, alias, Faire, Khalisi, IsinDe, and Smallfox

A MASSIVE WELCOME FROM DE-LURKING TO - Mojomac, Sobermummy, AND Tobyjug

To anyone who I have missed, I'm really very sorry and I'm sorry for such a long a post, but it's only at this time of night that I can sit and post my thoughts. I miss my Mum so much right now, I could do with her to call and ask her about my darling boy.

We're having sad mornings here, Nemo is crying ever morning that he wakes up. He said he wasn't being bullied or picked on, but has wanted to stay with me for weeks. I feel guilty. His teachers have said that this is very out of character of him. I feel as though I need to give him so, so many cuddles just to stop him looking so tiny, so scared, so worried and lost. Maybe it is a phase? It's always a 'phase' and for once I can't fix it, I can't make him better and I want to make him stop hurting, crying, pleading with me not to make him go.

Thank God we've only got until Friday until the holidays........ but then what. I'm hoping that I can break the cycle.

Anyway, my pain meds have kicked in, I'll try and post some pics of my are, daft sod that I am. I was sober too. Those are the kind of accidents I'd have years ago.....not now.

Sleep well Babes, wherever you are, whatever you're doing, however you're coping. Stay strong.

mouse hope you get a good night's sleep

Morning everyone. Just to say hello lovely Mouse, hope you're not in too much pain and that Nemo has a better morning. Must be heart wrenching. Roll on the school holidays!

Crutched, sending you hugs and hope and strength this morning and every day. You did 3 weeks - that is unbelievable. Take support from this lovely mad bus and from your own amazing inner resources - it isn't easy but try to believe you can do it again. One day, when you need it most, it will stick. In the meantime, do all you can to wrap yourself up in the moment and concentrate on rehydrating, sleeping and taking care of you. You can only focus on the DC once you have really looked after yourself.

Waves to all. And a special wave to the missing (and missed) Sweet.

Morning

Crutched please pop in and let us know how you are. Keep posting.

Mouse lovely to hear from you. Your arm looks really painful. Poor Nemo , he's doing so well at school too. Then again my dd loves school but has spent an hour this morn trying to convince me let her stay off. No, was my response.

Hi Small glad you're doing well. I miss Sweet too, hopefully she will pop in soon.

Sobermummy I've just read your blog - it's brilliant. Well done on 3 weeks. I'm day 2....

quick check in - head count, register, nominal roll....
have wry and sweet gone for good?
mouse I'm ok. I do have someone giving me love and support - I'll get by. I always get by.

Thanks so much for reading the blog Rubyredlips (great username by the way!), and well done on 2 days! Stick with it - it's worth it. And do read Jason Vales book (Kick the Drink) if you haven't already - it really helps xxx

Morning, Babes

Sometimes that is the problem, ma. Always getting by.
Not good enough, babe. You are also entitled to actually enjoy life.

Mouse That looks so very painful!
Thank you for you post. So much strength there for us.

Crutched Hope you're okay, darling babe. I hope you don't feel I was too harsh, my dearest. I honestly am appalled by EA behaviour having spent one and a half years with a right arse.
Do get yourself medical help. It sucks that you can't move because a nutritionally supported detox would have been very good.

I hope you haven't left us for good, sweet and wry.

All the missing babes, hope you are being good to yourselves!

xxx

Morning, tis me, Mouse

Thank you for all of the 'OUCH's :) the doc said that if it's not better by Wednesday, to go back and they'll re-xray it..... I can see me going back. :(

I hadn't realised that the lovely Sweet hadn't been back since she last posted when I read back last night.....

The thing is, when I used to drink more or slip up etc, I'd be too embarrassed to post. Sometimes, people feel like that, and sometimes that's enough to keep someone from posting for a while. I'm not saying that's the reason that we've not seen some posters for a while, more that my reason was that!

I too hope that Sweet and all the other Babes who've not posted for a while, who we all miss will come back and post soon. :)

Right, off to the shops, (carefully!!!) and to get petrol.

Bye for now xxx

Aww, Mouse! It might be the breakfast trolley but I'll gladly tuck in!

Just wanted to bump us, we're falling off the front page.

And also say I hope you're all good.

Hi all. Been quiet today, thanks for the nibbles Mouse, have you eaten all the cheese?

Had a lovely facial today and a long walk - bliss!

Has cheeky builder been around again Khalisi?

Hey all. How is everyone?
In the sidecar again