The Brave Babes Battle Bus - The Wheels On This Bus Go Around And Around, In Search Of Sobriety.

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Hello, I'm Mouse

This is the brave babes bus, Gerald. He travels far and wide, to wherever he's needed to offer non judgemental support, advice and Opal Fruits!!

We can tell you about the kind of places that can help, your GP can be the first and easiest place to start, or you can look up you local community addiction centre, or even just come onto the thread and let it all out.

There are posters here who have been on the Bus from the start and those who have just joined us

It doesn't matter how long you've been here, the fact that you have taken that first amazing step in acknowledging that maybe, just maybe, things aren't quite right with your drinking is truly MASSIVE!!

This is a safe place for you to just be and to be as honest as you like, or just to talk.

We'll listen

And if you'd like to see our last thread, you can JUST HERE

Plus if you'd like to see where these threads all began, you can read all about that YOU CAN READ THIS VERY EMOTIONAL AND MOVING THREAD

See you soon,

Mouse xxx

Hey alias

Don't worry. A month is brilliant. I'm here. All that's stopped me binging at the moment is a broken leg!

I went three weeks in Jan, felt amazing, then went on a two-month-long bender.

I didn't do a month! That was my bloody autocorrect and I can't even remember what I did write.

But broken leg is bad - how did you do that?

It doesn't matter. How are you feeling? Are you ok?

Fell off a sofa. Being old sucks!

Hangover. Hate myself. Not enough sleep.

So STUPID.

Oh alias, sweetheart!!! So sorry about last night!
Crutched for jumping in! And sorry about your broken leg. Fuck, you fell off the sofa and broke your leg?!

alias btw I always have to think of that bad ass character jennifer garner used to play in alias when I type your name. DDs used to love her!
Hope the hangover is too bad, my love.

I was home with a gentleman caller who made me dinner
What the hell, a babe's gotta eat, right?!

Sweet how did your run go, darling babe!

Ma Isn't moving out of your flat the perfect time to split? I know it is hard with your job and all. And for that reason you might move with WB. But hopefully you could sort something out, either job wise or financially and that could you your clean break.

Oh, and yes! IT'S FRIDAY!!!

Morning.

Ma, that's a very big decision, I hope it doesn't add to your stress - good luck with it.

Joey, what are you like poppet? What made you decide to have that first drink? Hope you don't feel too bad this morning. Try not to pick up that first glass today and post before you do.

Crutched are you new to the bus, a returner or a name changer? Being stuck with a broken leg is rubbish, but perhaps you can look for the silver lining - it will help you to break the cycle you have got into, and get you back onto a dry 'run' (sorry ).

Well, I didn't get out to the running group. I was all up for it until about 6pm , and then the sun started going down and the only thing showing any get up and go was my motivation! So I have emailed the leader and asked if it is ok to join in a couple of weeks time.

Today is 'D-day' - 'Dog-day', will be looking at the potential new family member this evening. This is really significant for me because Ex-P was violently anti-pet (that should have been warning enough, shouldn't it). Then an unsuitable house, young and somewhat challenging DS and a long commute meant a dog wasn't practical. So this is something really for me. It's about valuing what I want. It's also about needing the energy and clarity to cope with a notoriously rambunctious breed - and my wine money will have covered the cost.

Right, I'm going on a bit, so have a good day everyone - where's Mouse and Wry and Beaches and Obrigada and Spanna? - come and tell us you're ok.

A tout a l'heure Babes

Khalisi a gentleman, cooking for you. Do tell, darling.

Yay, so glad Friday is here at last. It's been an 'interesting' week at work and I'm ready for a calm, restful weekend. Going away for a big family event actually but it will be a relaxed pace. Just the job

Re the sleep, I don't know if it will continue but I usually sleep long and deep and it's one of the great pleasures of going to bed sober. When I was staying up for 'one more drink', I suppose I was tired but I didn't want to give in to that. And then the sugar and stimulants in the wine made sure I stayed up longer and slept badly, making me tired again the next day, and so on.

Sometimes I had that first drink because I was tired and wanted a pick me up. I think it might be part of the cycle and once you break it, you can feel your bodies natural rythmns more easily and just go with it.

Have a good day babes x

Just sending a hug to Joey - hope you feel better and don't beat yourself up, please, please, please. Hope your day improves. Crutched - hello and I am so glad you were on the bus last night. Sorry about your leg, tho!

Khalisi - sounds fun! Look after yourself, babe.

Right, I've been for my swim - so cold, but lovely to see the sun peeping out above the trees and daffodils round the pool. Even spotted a couple of (very small) lesser-known urban dolphins..

Hope everyone has a good day.

Oh, and Sweet, let us know about the dog, eh?

I am very wary of appearing to expect people on MN to live their lives vicariously for my benefit (something wrong with that sentence but you know what I mean) - but I would so like to hear about the puppy. I would love, love, love one but it is really down to DP as he looks after the DC while I work, and he says it is just a step too far for him right now, and I respect that. But I am working on it..

You go for it, and it is so lovely to hear that you are doing something for you, you deserve it. Fingers crossed it goes well.

Faire, have a lovely weekend. I am trying to listen to my body, instead of deadening it. The depth of sleep I expected, I am just surprised, like Small, how much I am needing.

Small my Dad is just the same - he hates the phone but has asked for a call on Sat morning to hear all the details! And I don't think a puppy is something you can do unless you are 100% up for it - so maybe your DH will be more ready when the DC are older?

Morning all. Still have a cold - bleargh...Feel horrible...bleargh.

Having a quiet potter around house day.

Sweet let us know about the dog.

Small do you swim outside?

Joey be kind to yourself today and drink lots of water.

Ma hope that's what you want

Hi Faire and Crutches and Khalisi

Crutched not Crutches

Good morning babes,

joey you alright babe? Don't beat yourself up, it's happened to the best of us, has something prompted this wee wobble??? Lots of hugs and lots of water for you, tomorrow you'll be grand again, mwah xxx

sweet I have a black cocker and a ginger pussy (16 weeks)!!!!

I've always had dogs and they can really help bring everyone together and provide an unconditional love unlike any other. I believe there is a dog out there for everyone and u hope tonight you meet yours...

Bon chance ce soir mon ami xxx

khalisi you sound amazingly "zingy" these days, you've changed so much since your first post. I'm so glad, your finding your inner foxiness and that makes me very happy indeed. I imagine you by a roaring fire with candles swaddled in cashmere looking all lithe and feminine, if I didn't live you so much I'd hate you!!!! Mwah my lovely friend xxx

small go you swimming so early, as Mel and Kim sang "get fresh for the weekend, respectable" love it xxx

ruby god dam those pesky colds, wrap up warm and watch trashy tv, it's the law!!! Xxx

crutches our caped crusader, thank you for helping our lovely joey glad you were around, are you new or in disguise, your the bus superhero for sure, loving you already.

ma what prompted the decision to sell? Sounds like a move towards freedom, so tell if you feel you can, always thinking of you and wishing happiness and peace for you xxx

Also lastly who was mentioning teeth whitening, I have found a great at home and inexpensive way to do it xxxx

Going now incase I lose everything, have a splendid Friday y'all xxx

Morning babes, nothing too exciting to report here

Waves to all babes x

Hi Obrigada hope all is well?
Baby had to at you having a 'black cocker and ginger pussy'. I know it's pathetic but still .

Right, off for a brisk 3 mile walk to blow the cobwebs away...

baby! Like Ruby I giggled at ginger pussy! ummm...!

alias babes, sorry. I meant to say hope the hangover ISN'T too bad!

Have a lovely time, Faire!

Thanks ladies, I was aware of the double entendre, glad it made you both smile. Ironically my natural hair colour is indeed ginger though we prefer to call it strawberry blond. Soooo we'll leave it at that xxxx

Helloo! Five days AF, but not tonight, and not consecutive. Sweet, I hope you get your pup. I do know about dogs, if that's any use, but not in a Cesar Milan way. Crutched, that's quite a feat to break your leg falling off a sofa. Was the sofa suspended? If not, I'd be thinking osteoporosis, rather than clumsy. Hope you're not too uncomfortable.

Crikey Crutched, i hope that didn't seem flippant or scary. I was a nurse, so I'd suggest checking out any surprising fracture. My mum has osteoporosis and she's in her seventies and is v active.

Hi guys. Nice to meet you all - long time lurker, first time poster. alias how are you feeling? I hate that horrible hungover doomy feeling Hope you have felt better as the day has gone on.

No babe left behind, right?

Leg is the very definition of a freak accident but I am trying to see it as a perverse blessing. DH had really had enough of me - I've been awful lately, on a mission to self-destruct almost and it's awful for the DCs to see me pissed/worse.

Now I am physically unable to buy/get my own booze. So a sort of forced period of AF and a lot of time to think/reflect.

One thing is though, DH said something like "thank god you weren't drunk when you did that, it would've been the end" - broken leg has already had massive impact on all of us, you can imagine I'm sure, school run/kids activities, plans etc. On top of how angry and disappointed and sad he was it would've been the push to end it, me breaking my leg.

But I HAD had some drinks, secret ones. I think I can never tell him that.

So I've broken three bones and four hearts (DH and DCs), this has to be the end of it surely.

Has anyone read/had any success with Alan Carr?

crutched thank you for your support last night. Physically I wasn't too bad this morning (apart from the lack of sleep) but mentally I was a wreck. Feeling guilt, self-loathing and generally shite.

What caused the blip - I think it was because DH wasn't here, and I just wanted to let my hair down (he can be quite high-maintenance!)

Uggghhh