The Brave Babes Battle Bus - The Wheels On This Bus Go Around And Around, In Search Of Sobriety.

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Hello, I'm Mouse

This is the brave babes bus, Gerald. He travels far and wide, to wherever he's needed to offer non judgemental support, advice and Opal Fruits!!

We can tell you about the kind of places that can help, your GP can be the first and easiest place to start, or you can look up you local community addiction centre, or even just come onto the thread and let it all out.

There are posters here who have been on the Bus from the start and those who have just joined us

It doesn't matter how long you've been here, the fact that you have taken that first amazing step in acknowledging that maybe, just maybe, things aren't quite right with your drinking is truly MASSIVE!!

This is a safe place for you to just be and to be as honest as you like, or just to talk.

We'll listen

And if you'd like to see our last thread, you can JUST HERE

Plus if you'd like to see where these threads all began, you can read all about that YOU CAN READ THIS VERY EMOTIONAL AND MOVING THREAD

See you soon,

Mouse xxx

Baby good luck at your weigh in

baby at your thought of the others being insane!
I sat in the car and smsed dd 'Omg. Running with these lunatics is going to kill me!
And the week before that I also sat in the car and wrote that I don't want to run with them because I know I will suck.
But eish, those dolphins!!! They are sooo addictive!
I have a lot of respect for body pump. Did crossfit for over a year which led to a hip injury but I was never as fit as I was then! No fat, 10km in less than an hour (with loads of energy left over to do stuff afterwards!).

Oh well, dwelling on that is making me a bit sad.

But, I finally had an opportunity to weigh myself this morning. 3kgs off!!! Snail paced but happening!

Sweet darling. The beginner groups are the BEST! I wish we had one. It is much nicer and easier getting into running with a group starting out at your level.
Mind you, I do enjoy looking at all the butts!

Oh yes, that is the thread, Sweet. I stopped trawling the relationship board for a while because the EA relationship were triggering me and my heart would race no end.
But once in while, one comes along and I realise all the stress was worth it. That no matter how long it takes to do my house, I am better off without ex-WB.
And this young lady is just phenomenal. Really.

Hey obrigada!!!

Khalisi at 'looking at the bums' - that's where I will be, right at the back!! You are making me think I might actually want to do it!

She is doing so well non the LTB thread - so many of her exPs tactics remind me of DS's father - wish I had had Mumsnet then.

I have been looking at puppies for sale - have found a be-U-ti-ful chocolate cocker, but need to run it past DH first. He will say yes - but I think it would be just because he likes to indulge me. But I could take it for walks with the dolphins - and I've had a name picked for over a year .

Sorry, forgot to ,wave at Obrigada, and say that 3kg is brilliant, Khalisi* (sorry, I'm now obsessing about puppies - Puss is not impressed.

Hi Isinde!!!
Crazy lady waves!!!!
Of course you can rejoin, OMG!
How have you been?!

Thank you, Sweet. That's about half a stone, right? So so much more than 3kgs!
Awww, a puppy! Puss will of course not be too impressed but they probably will end up the best of friends!

Isinde you have a lifetime ticket, you know that. We've been worried about you. Three nights is good - you'll be starting to get the week one benefits, that'll help. And how are your lovely DTs?

It is indeed, Khalisi. All those tiny grams soon add up.

Growing up at home, we always had two dogs and a cat - the cat was always the boss .

Just sending a quiet wave to all. Hugs to those having a tough time.

Feeling a bit flat, still chasing those dolphins. But still AF and still grateful for that.

inside I'm so so happy your back, your razor sharp wit and gorgeous personality were very much missed, love ya girl xxx

Will NC later but wanted to report I've lost 4lbs, so chuffed!!! I did try hard but was still a bit slack with measuring milk and a few other things so this week I'll follow it with gusto and hope for another few off.

The class is lovely and it's really nice to meet up with other "grown ups" I didn't realise how lonely I'd become, hiding In my secret manic, wine soaked life. I'm learning it's not narcissistic to value yourself and that I deserve to eat well and take time to excercise, IM WORTH IT, it's taken a while to value myself and the results affect my abilities as a mother, daughter, partner and friend. I can say with confidence that every single one of us is priceless even though I hope to be less pounds every week.

Your encouragement as always is also priceless so thank you all for being fabulous xxx

Hey Small, I guess even AF life is a bit like that sometimes, but there is some warmer weather on the way for the end of the week, maybe you could plan a nice activity to make the most of it?

Whoop, whoop, go Baby, go Baby

Thanks, Sweet - you're right as ever. I think I had envisaged being AF as a permanent walk in the park (by which I don't mean I thought it'd be easy to maintain, but I think I'd not taken on board I might be flat or just 'normal' without alcohol - I had attributed all previous mood issues just to the fact of drinking).

But yes, I will try to line up some treats. There is a work thing hanging over me at the moment which is making me feel a bit sick, but I am plodding on and hugging my dc tight to remind me of what is really important in life. Right, I'm off chasing dolphins now.

Thanks lovely sweet xxx

small I know what you mean, I've figured out life's just like that sometimes, whether there's alcohol in it or not!!! It's taken me ages to realise this. It's not any higher power at work, it's not because we drank, it just is and it happens to everyone so I'm ordering you to have a lovely soak in the bath, order a new book or kindle download and eat something tasty and just roll with it and tomorrow will be better... Here's a squishy hug xxxxxxx

Tomorrow is Zumba in the morning and a massage and facial in the afternoon, providing I'm able to move freely by then!!! Xxxx

Squishy hug received and much appreciated, Baby. Thank you! This bus rocks x

Who the hell decided it was a good idea to give vaccines to a group of hormonal, emotional teenage girls? Without any privacy or separate areas, so they can all watch each other getting hysterical and winding each other up?

Kudos to the nurses though, they were more patient than I could have been (I'd have been Jab Next!)

It's a rubbish way to do vacs,Joey, when we had the tb jab they did the same thing, had a sneaky laugh though because the two 'hardest' girls in the school were the ones who cried and got hysterical!

Baby have you found your very own 'auntie' Derek? Sounds like a lush afternoon

Delurks to hug indie and everyone else. Tons of snow last night. Phone rang at 2am.Dads alarm system thingy to say he has pressed his help button. Dug the car out and slithered round to find him on the floor, fully dressed, sobbing. Got him up and sorted. So, in case it happens again tonight I am AF but mainlining mini eggs.He is going to have to go into care!
Sorry not to name check everyone....

Ma, that's really tough for you to be dealing with, but it doesn't sound like he's safe on his own any more.

Hope you get an undisturbed night.

Morning All.

It's a lovely day here. I've got some tree branches I need to saw off later.

How is everyone else?

Isinde did you stay AF last night?

Morning all. Dh has shouted at me this morning so v upset. Dd playing up (she's 5 and high maintenance) so dh loses it and yells at me in front of dc. So off to work feeling shit. Thanks dh you selfish ...

Sorry not to nc. Hope everyone's day starts better

Ruby, why does DH think DD playing up (being a typical five-year-old) is your fault? It makes me mad - because I suffer a lot from the feeling that I am responsible for EVERYTHING. My conscious mind knows I'm not, but my subconscious is an overwhelming pain in the ass. Hope your day gets better

Good morning lovelies,

ma this must be hell for you, I don't know why but it seems even more unfair as he was not a good father to you, it's like a twisted irony!!! I think you are very kind and generous to shoulder so much responsibility inspite of the cruelness you suffered and witnessed as a child. I hope that when he is placed somewhere safe with the company of others and an enforced routine he may actually be happier and better off. Once again you show us how big your heart is and your compassion knows no bounds. I'm certain there will be happiness ahead for you, karma owes you big time.

Got my period and was very on edge last night and cramp from hell this morning. I had a wee panic attack at bedtime, dd's and dh seemed to irritate me and I was a bit scared all evening as I could feel the darkness seeping in!!!! Anyway just plodded through it and still not great today but I know it will pass, it's just hormones and I'm certain the dolphins will chase those bad boys away!!!

You are all truly awesome and inspire me every day xxx

Sweet he has a terrible temper and blows up so it becomes a huge issue rather than dealing with the problem. Pathetic in my opinion and I'm fuming. Sometimes i'd like to shout like that but I think it is like an adult tantrum and we have to learn how to deal with these situations in a constructive way.
Enjoy the branch sawing

Good morning, Babes!

Ruby Sorry, babes. I absolutely hate being yelled at (who likes it?!).
Hope you feel better.

Sweet I'm very envious of your gardening! I have SOO much to do around the house and have really let things slipped this Winter. Will start with some clearing stuff away. The weekend should be sunny and that always makes it easier to work around the house.

baby hope you feel better and can go to your class?
Go dolphins!!!
They are so bad ass they chase anything away!

ma hand holding, darling.

Have a good one, Babes!