The Brave Babes Battle Bus - The Wheels On This Bus Go Around And Around, In Search Of Sobriety.

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Hello, I'm Mouse

This is the brave babes bus, Gerald. He travels far and wide, to wherever he's needed to offer non judgemental support, advice and Opal Fruits!!

We can tell you about the kind of places that can help, your GP can be the first and easiest place to start, or you can look up you local community addiction centre, or even just come onto the thread and let it all out.

There are posters here who have been on the Bus from the start and those who have just joined us

It doesn't matter how long you've been here, the fact that you have taken that first amazing step in acknowledging that maybe, just maybe, things aren't quite right with your drinking is truly MASSIVE!!

This is a safe place for you to just be and to be as honest as you like, or just to talk.

We'll listen

And if you'd like to see our last thread, you can JUST HERE

Plus if you'd like to see where these threads all began, you can read all about that YOU CAN READ THIS VERY EMOTIONAL AND MOVING THREAD

See you soon,

Mouse xxx

Oh ma
Right I'll stop poncing on and send a big hug instead. You're making the right decisions,which is all anyone can do. Glad Richard is there- please don't worry about what he may or may not do in the future.

Sounds as though you're both providing comfort and care for your dad by being near to him. Really wish you the best.

faire they are supposed to start tomorrow do make sure he is up and make him some breakfast, and then pop in at teatime. This was all arranged a few weeks ago though and he has deteriorated a lot since then. I think they will say it has gone beyond their remit to be honest.

They are usually pretty good ma, they will clean, dress and feed him. He will only need further intervention if he refuses to co-operate or becomes aggressive. It's very sad but the care workers who come to my neighbour are lovely, professional and very kind.

ma is he in any pain? Or just distressed?

Just distressed, exhausted, scared, confused.
Although he does have loads of tablets - not even sure what they are all for- and he obviously hasn't taken any today. He was very good nd methodical about keeping a diary of when he had taken his medicines, all in a neat journal in different coloured inks in a meticulous hand. Now there are just very wobbly scrawls where he has tried to write which say stuff like" can't remember, " mustn't give in".....

ma my darling babe.
Sending you positive vibes.
Don't worry about not saying the other stuff. He knows anyway.
Right now you have enough to deal with and if for once he was there, then no one can blame you for not bring up him NEVER being there for you, you know?

Today was better. Thank you for all the thoughts. You babes are rock stars.

I'm turning in.

Sleep tight, everyone.
xxx

Sorry I didn't mean "just" distressed as in 'nothing important' I just wondered if there was something else going on (eg. an infection?) as you say he has suddenly gone downhill.

Its ok joey, I know what you mean.
I feel guilty because he was such an awful father, a drinker, a wife beater, and for years I wished a horrible death on him. And now he is having one and its awful. I dont love him in the way I love my mother, but it is still awful.
I'm going to stop drinking now and go to bed.
I want it all to stop. I want distracted chap. I want not to be here any more, dealing with all this shit.

Aw, Ma xxx

I don't have any advice really, apart from try to get some help for you. Can you go to your GP, or is there a helpline for carers where you can just ring them and vent and get advice? Or your GP may be aware of services in the area to support you?

Sorry, don't know what to say. Try and get some rest tonight lovely. Can you take a bit of time off work if you need it? Does lovely boss know what you are coping with?

Keep checking in and posting so I know you are OK. Sending you good vibes over the ether.

Guggs welcome back lovely. Glad you are feeling a little better.

Turning in now. Love to you all xxx

Morning All.

I fell asleep at a stupidly early time again.

Hope you got some rest Ma

Morning all

So much anxiety due to thinking about issues from my past - don't know how todeal with it all.

Sweet your night out seems to have exhausted you

Ma my heart goes out to you about your dad (and everything else)- poor you

Sorry I don't have the energy to post anything else but will hopefully be back later.

Have a good day
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Poor Ruby. Anxiety is a bugger isn't it? Is it something you have been facing up to dealing with, or just stuff hitting you?

I've got a poorly boy at home today with D&V

sweets DDs school also choose their options a year early (she's only 12) in a way it might be good because it will give them an extra year to get used to the subject, even if they don't start studying the syllabus straight away. We're lucky, DD already has a pretty clear idea of where her strengths lie (although I suppose it means she has to quit other subjects a year sooner, which might be disappointing as it gives them less of an 'all-round' education) for kids who are not sure what they want to do, yeah it is a bit young. But presumably if they think they've made a big mistake, they can change next year?

Anyway, what the heck was that photo of? It looked rather suggestive There are some filthy-minded Babes on this Bus, and that would be right up their alley. As it were.

ma I'm on holiday but logging in briefly to let you know I'm thinking of you - what a tough time. Do you have a sister somewhere who might help you with decisions re your Dad?

Missing all you other Babe's too and admiring the tumescent plant [snurk]

Amorphophallus titanum

Apparently David Attenborough coined the common name, Titan arum for The Secret Lives of Plants because he could keep saying 'phallus' on the BBC!

And since it is about six feet tall, I don't think I'd like to find it up my alley

Thanks all
Venus sister is in London but is coordinating support as best she can.man to fit the key safe turned up but the key safe didnt! Needs to be rescheduled. Locksmith for back door coming Friday. Social care need access to fit smoke alarms and a fall alamprm to dad. Have to try and teach him to push the button if he needs help. Lots of people trying to help but I'm main contact and under huge pressure at work just now, due in no small part to big event coming up. Can't take time off, lovely boss needs me as we have staff off sick and things on a knife edge as it is.
Sorry to be such a moan, I'm not the only one on here with problems I know.
I'll be lurking for a while....

Hi babes, I'm so hating this layout, it's awkward and it's making posting hard so I'm keeping it brief cos it's put me in a huff, just wanted to send a lovely, warm hug to ma cos you so need one xxx

Love to all xxx

Take care, Ma, we're here whenever you need us

Baby, I couldn't even read on my phone, let alone post

To all of the other Babes, hope you're ok. Keep on resisting old saggy tits, Spring is almost here, so you're going to need those bikini bodies soon.

Aw Ma and everyone else - it sounds so hard. Hang on in there, you're doing brilliantly.

Fourth AA meeting tonight. Still really enjoying them. Still finding the sheer levels of support, warmth and acceptance rather blinding. I like the simple approach they promote - you only have to do two things. 1. Don't have any alcohol today and 2. Keep coming to meetings!

Had a bit of a revelation the other night. You know when you've read something a million times and yet when you reread it, suddenly it jumps out at you in a whole new way? Well - that. The thing about alcoholism being an illness. Now I've known that for years, but...omg actually, seriously, do you mean that? Do you mean that perhaps, maybe this is not just all my fault for being a massive fuck up? It's an illness? I'm just ill
Are you SURE?

So, for about five seconds I felt the crushing burden of guilt lift off my shoulders. And that was the most incredible feeling I've had in a long time. But it didn't want to stay away. I couldn't let myself feel that way for very long. For as bewitching an idea as it is, I can't let myself think that I'm not, and haven't been, responsible for my own behaviour. All the behaviour that's brought me to where I am now. I can't believe I'm not responsible for all that.

However, the flip side of THAT is that I really truly am responsible for my behaviour from now on. And my current behaviour is good, and getting better, and healing me. Slowly but surely.

Hey everyone. Am lurking. Finished Allen Carr yesterday morning. And have been AF since my last glass of wine on Saturday night about this time. Funny thing is, last night I didn't even think about it. And today, I have thought about alcohol, but in an abstract way, then thought "Naaaa, don't want it or need it" Which is odd as all through the book, though I could see what he was talling about, I couldn't see how it could be applied to actually stopping drinking completely, as I knew a lot of it already; it's a poison, it's bad for me, it ruins my health and bank balance and family life...hasn't stopped me up to press!

But it's early days and things have been calm at home and work, so there has been no stressful flashpoint. And I'm only 48 hours AF. I have done that before, many, many times.

Sorry some of you are having a hard time of things. Ma, I feel for your home situation, I really do :(

Now, exercise...what's that again? I ran round the playground today and peed myself. Won't be doing that any time soon again!!

Good morning my darling Babes!

I have to get this in bright and early otherwise the day runs away.

Faire Big wave, darling! I didn't want to wave on the LTB thread. nc'd So, so proud of the young lady!

Awww Sweethaven't owned a bikini in years! Might try it this Summer!

Sober Good on you, my love! I know exactly what you mean. So proud of you for fessing up about part of it. Sometimes I think it is so easy when we can explain things away to do so (this led to my meltdown Saturday).
Keep up the good work! You are doing so well!

Hey Daisy Good Girl, you! Don't mind the pissing yourself! What counts is moving and ist not like someone will check your panties!
(i hope?!)

Hey Baby!

ma big hug, darling. Thinking of you.

Morning all

Have a great day

Good morning foxy ladies,

Delighted to report I have managed to get back to the correct setup, I had switched to desk top mode on my iPhone and could hardly the screen, duh!!!

All is well here, 3 weeks AF tomorrow and yesterday I did my first body attack class, I am moving around this morning as though I've been I'm a car crash... Everything hurts, it was sooo hard and halfway through I thought to myself "these people are insane, I will never do this again" BUT at the end I felt surrounded by dolphins (floodied with endorphins) and kind of buzzy and high, it felt amazing UNTIL this morning !!!!

I am hobbling off to my first Week SW weigh in muttering "no pain no gain"

Love and hugs to all xxx

Ps what is the LTB thread that faire and khalisi frequent, I only ever use this one????

Morning All.

Khalisi - I haven't worn a bikini since I was 19 - just not that sort of gal (I get twitchy sitting still) - but I would like a body that gave me the option . And you, my lovely are having a good effect on me too - a flyer came through the door yesterday about a new beginners running group starting on Thursday, and I felt so inspired by how calming your running is I have kept the flyer (note I haven't actually decided to go !).

I wanna dolphin!, Baby, but probably not enough to do Body Attack , but I used to get a real kick out of that next day sore muscle agony. Pom Poms for three weeks AF. Keep it up.

Morning Ruby, you sound chirpier this morning.

Sober, that support is invaluable. I'm coming to realise just how fucked-up my use of alcohol was ('scuse the language, but it was). I kidded myself for years that I was a sophisticated, grown-up, controlled drinker. But in the end I was just a drinker. I drank to quiet the panic that was caused by being too drunk to do my job properly, and too drunk to take care of myself. Now, I am beginning to feel increasingly uncomfortable around alcohol, and representations of drinking. The normalisation of having a glass in hand enabled me to ignore my problem for a long time. I feel like screaming at Coronation Street and The Archers, not because they make me want to have a drink, but because I want the writers to stop being lazy and complacent, and stop making the non-drinking characters weird.

I've got the house to myself today thank goodness, once the sun has come round to the back garden I am going to get out there and get my hands dirty.

I'm not certain, Baby, but it might be this thread ?