The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Starting the New Year in Fine Style

[venusandmars]

Hello, I'm Venus, and standing in for Mouse (who usually starts all our threads)

This is a safe and welcoming place for anyone who is facing up to a problem with alcohol. It may be something you’ve known for years, or it may be that struggling with dry January has made you re-think your relationship with drink.
Anyway, welcome old and new, lurkers and posters. It can be a weird thread at times – travelling on a bus called Gerald.... he takes us up and down and this wondrous land, searching high and low for Babes in need of some support, a warm place to sit and chat, and to have someone to listen to them.

So, grab a seat as we swing by your way. There's lots of hot drinks, food and fleeces, places to just be and places to sit around and chat if that's what you want.

We don't judge, because we've all been in your shoes, be they stilettos, wellies or crocs!...

We're just us, we're just honest and we just do what we can to help, if we can, when we can. If you find all the banter off-putting just jump in with a cry for help.

And HAPPY NEW YEAR xxx

Here is the very first, emotional thread if you would like to see where this all started

Our most recent thread, if you want to catch up

Sweet, that's a sair fecht. I hope you get some peace soon. Mouse. I'm sorry your medical folks are not able to help you as they should. Is Ma the norky lady with a posh do to go to? Because if she is, i think she'd look the bees knees in a steam punk sari. (Purple hair, tartan silk sari - covers/uncovers any bits you want).
I came on here, whiny and sad and ashamed a few days ago. Told my husband that I wanted to stop on Friday night. Saturday, I found two!!! bottles in the fridge. Out to dinner and jazz last night. He had beer, wine, whisky. Me nada. Tonight, I have had wine, because my Uni have confirmed today, that i have a Masters degree. I'm sitting on my tod, and I'm not alcohol free but over the last three days, only tonight, and that's very unusual for me, lately.

Ooh, dying to hear about khalisi....

fevvers yeah, ma is 'the norky lady' as you very eloquently put it...

wry I did not know about that Author! Is he any good?

Hang about, have we all missed something important in the excitement?

ma has lost half a stone! Since Christmas! (is she pining?) well done ma

Crikey, "joey", i didn't mean to be rude.

Hi all. Not been on for a couple of days, have had a large glass of red on Sun, one on Sat and small one on Fri - just recording that.

Fevvers have you just been awarded a masters? If so congrats.

Sweet hope you're more relaxed now? DP's can drive a person nuts!

Khalisi tell all.

Wry nice to 'see' you back

Small Frozen drives me crazy, my dd told me this morning that she's going to change her name to Elsa .

Had a boring day. I'm not good with boring

And Happy Birthday Obrigada

Hope you're feeling better Spanna and Sober

Ruby, Yup. Fuck up in admin. Confirmed it today. Too fat to get into my prom dress from the 1980's (which never existed), so am eating cheese with the dogs. We are all happy but not able to show off, as no-one cares. (The dogs love me, but they don't care about Uni stuff, but I suppose that's good because they'd also love me if I'd failed)

A Masters is defo something to celebrate, Fevvers.

The quiet has done me some good, though my brain is a bit fried - I sat on the previous page for ages, thinking it was unusual for the thread to be so quiet at this time of day!

Not feeling in the least inclined to drink, which is good, today is day 40, I'm still a bit at that - mainly because the year is going too quickly already!

Ruby sticking to one per night is good, - are you going for some AF days this week?

Sweet, the dogs are delirious with cheese. And thank you. I hope you get some peace.
(Couldn't find a way to delete my whiny post.....can it be done?)

You can use 'report' post and ask for it to be deleted. But I don't think you should - don't apologise for feeling under-appreciated.

I have to go to a community meeting this evening - threatened over -development stuff, so I need to get my concentrating face on.

Thanks. Good luck this evening.
OK, I'll continue be the post grad whiner (FFS where's the ironic smiley face?)

Is the Masters an end in itself, Fevvers? Or a stop en route to more research?

Wry lovely what did you get to cooking? let me live through my stomach with you Hope you managed to get the ironing done in front of some day time telly. You must be feeling a huge hole in your day without Little about I'm so sorry She'll be right next to you next to your other dog, keeping their beady brown eyes on you I know it's early days but have you thought of getting another pup in time? was Little a pup when you got her? I know you're hurting, remember all the moments and time that you did have.

Happy Belated Birthday Obrigada well done with the drinking and moderation so so good. Hope you have a good week

Fevvers huge huge congratulations on achieving your Masters, that is awesome WELL DONE

Sweet hope you managed to have some 'you' time this afternoon hope your meeting wasn't too tedious. At least you've got your house back sans parent such a relief sometimes, isn't it?

Ruby sorry you're day's been so boring sometimes we need days like that to put better days into prospective. I hope you have something nice, for you, this evening

Got through me days work, bloody hell is hot where I work, work with the oldies so heating on all day and night really bad with a hangy, spend the day sweating like a pig serves me right all completely self inflicted. Keep wondering if I'm going to spend the next 9 months not getting beyond, well Day 3 at the moment, always seems much more 'do-able' in January I seem to lose my momentum when I drink after abstaining (Day 24 was my last stint) it's always so hard for me to rack the days back up I am another who has no 'off' button the 'on' button is stuck down. Once I start I won't stop until it's 'gone', I've passed out or there is no means of getting any more to drink I'm an 'all' and would never consider 'nothing' girl
Needed to get that down in writing Posting before I lose it!!!!!

Khalisi spill please

Joey how you doing? x

Ma have you become our Norkess?

Hi Fox Hi Sober

Soc you've not been about in a bit, everything ok over there? x

Baby how are you darling? come and say hello xxx

Beaches me lovely buttercup, how are you holding up in all that snow? Can we get our ball dresses on soon pleeeeease? hope you're ok honey

Mouse I so hope you got your painkillers today. Sending you hugs x

Hope are you ok lovely one?

OMG
I just did an hour of yoga to work up the guts to tell you guys.

Ok. So.
When he showed up, I was just about to tuck into my pancakes. He had some too (liked them) and then we were both so nervous. He kept running out to smoke. I was moisturising my hands and offered him some (really didn't think it through!). It was like electricity. We just sat and stared at each other- The he said 'I feel like am sitting here with my lover'.
It really was so very intimate, though, even if it sounds cheesy.

He's married. Why the fuck did he come back? It was so clear we really had a connection. Anyway, I wanted to do the decent thing and told him to leave. He go up and all I can say is the next moment I was in his arms (god, is he strong), and well, I have a bruised lip.
I've never kissed so passionately. Ever.

We didn't sleep with each other and I do feel but can't say I'm sorry. I hate what it means but its scary how intense it was.

But. I'm nipping it in the bud.

Sorry, Babes to disappointment you.

Khalisi you will never disappoint us and you mustn't feel that way - and I feel bad for jokingly putting so much pressure on you to 'deliver' us a story.

I really hope you are ok. It sounds the weirdest, most wonderful and saddest experience all rolled into one. That kind of connection is rare and you must not feel embarrassed or guilty for not knocking it on the head as quickly as you meant to - it is hard to resist! Well done you for your resolution in deciding to nip it in the bud now - who knows, maybe it is meant to be one day, but you must follow your instincts in what is best to do now. Though I suspect it is your head rather than your heart/instincts which is making this decision! Try to hang on to the good stuff - the amazing, electric connection - you are so worth it, and the fact that he is (grrrr) married doesn't invalidate the intensity of that connection, it just affects what you do with that.

Hugs to you, lovely babe - take great care of you and know we are all thinking of you and wrapping you up in a great soft snuggly duvet and stashing you safely on the bus with us.

Ah khalisi my empathy and my heart go out to you.
I probably have lost half a sto e through pining, so I know what its like. So very sorry babe.

Love being the norky lady but they are not really that impressive. Not quite sure how I got that reputation....

Morning All.

Khalisi darling, that connection is amazing, intoxicating , you've done the right thing. It's lovely to know you've still got 'it', and now you can confidently seek that connection somewhere safer.

Spanna, even maintaining a run of three days at a time means that you will be AF 2/3s of every month, and that's a great achievement. But as you well know, what you don't get with that, is to properly surface from the fug - it's the constant hangover instead of the boing . You've done 24 days, you can do it again. Those days soon add up.

Wry, hope your book was good, have a lovely day.

Hello to everyone else.

Last night's planning meeting was scary. I don't object in principle to new houses being built, but the lies and obfuscation is maddening and scary, particularly around the impact on traffic and drainage.

Oh well, on with today. DS is off on a school trip to the Natural History museum [jealous], then this evening I have an information evening about his year 9 options; and DH is at work, so I have another much needed quiet day.

Morning, tis me, Mouse

No painkillers yesterday. Apparently, they have ordered my morphine for today. I really don't think they know what withdrawal from something so toxic is.... I've done booze and that was a breeze compared to the feelings I get from not taking morphine.

I'm going to call again this morning to make sure that they have them in today, otherwise there will be a visit to A&E, as I really can't think what else to do.

I'm going back to bed now that Nemo is in school for an hour to try and catch up on the sleep I've lost through the pain and detoxing.

I'll pop back later but for now, here's the breakfast trolley. :)

Night xxx

Hope you manage to get some rest, Mouse

Good morning, Babes.

Thank you, Fox. That really means a lot to me.

I'm proud that I did not drink on Sunday and yesterday. It was very, very tempting to have a drink at my friend's house after that whole experience, I tell you.

I'm now caught between a rock and a hard place because he is meant to come fix the hole in my wall this Sunday. And I really need it done before the rain comes.
On the other hand.

Sweet, I will take your advise. Your words give my self-confidence a boost. It must means I still have 'it', mustn't it?
(Yesterday someone at work invited me to the park for wine and a chat when the weather gets better. )

Thank you for letting me indulge my me, me, me.

x-posted, Mouse.

So totally joining you for breakfast!
Big bosie, darling. Yell at them if that makes them understand! (I know. I know).

All those AF days have given you a confidence and glow, Khalisi, and people are responding to it. Grab it with both hands and a keen sense of self preservation {hugs}

I had a lovely little surprise this morning. The first of my white foxglove seedlings have come up. So that's foxgloves and Dahlias, but I can't plant anything else until the greenhouse arrives, because I have run out of propagators and Puss can't be trusted with unprotected compost! But it feels like Spring (in spite of the cold).