In May I had a thread on here about a discussion I had with DP about setting a date to get married. He had said that sounded like a good idea. A few nights later I said to him that I wanted to seriously start asking round about what was a good date for our families, but he flipped his lid.
He said that we couldn't afford it (we can afford something small actually and I would be paying) and that it was irresponsible to organise a wedding when we didn't know what was happening with my job. This is true. Long story short I handed in my resignation two months later to run my business full time. I'm a few weeks in and it is going ok. He had just started a new job after two years of uncertainty following an earlier job loss.
He also made a huge big deal about how he didn't have a ring so how was he supposed to propose? I said that I didn't want a big Disney proposal, we have been together for nearly six years, have already discussed getting married at length (ie I kind of realised I wanted to get married about three years ago and him about two years ago). I thought we could just set a date and maybe get a ring if he was game.
He was unhappy with this saying that he wanted to have a story to tell people about our proposal. He also made a big deal over how he "didn't even know what kind of ring" I liked. I said I wasn't bothered but we could go looking if he wanted to. We spent a morning looking at styles a few days later. I settled on a few ideas.
Since then he has obviously, not proposed. And I'm starting to feel he never will. But partly due to his personality rather than not wanting to.
To add insult to injury I was asked when we were getting married FIVE TIMES in the space of a week a while back. I'm sick of just smiling and nodding. There really are very few reasons why we shouldn't be married. I'm getting very resentful of his demand that he proposes when I just can't believe he would ever get round to actually organising and doing it.
For example, we recently had a massive bust-up over the fact that he had said he would book a holiday this November for our 6th anniversairy. I have booked all previous holidays, and told him it was his turn. I would like to point out he took 2.5 years to actually get round to planning on booking this holiday. We sat down, decided on the hotel etc and he said he would book it. I asked him six weeks later if he had booked it, he said no and revealed he hadn't even booked the time off and I'm afraid to say I saw red. I absolutly lost it and had a massive go at him about how he never, ever plans or books anything and how if he can't book a hotel and flights how on earth I can believe that he will ever propose?
He booked the holiday and was very upset that he had upset me and admitted that he does make excuses to avoid doing things (he does), and I feel terrible about that.
However, today I booked some stuff in for his birthday this weekend and I'm so cross about how easy it was and how incredibly easy it would be for him to just fucking propose if he wants to do that so much. I'm resentful that I have organised something nice for him. I'm thinking of cancelling as I can't imagine enjoying it with him as I am so upset about his behaviour. How do I get over that?