The Brave Babes Battle Bus - In Search Of Sobriety, Sunshine & Survival!

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Hello, I'm Mouse :)

Welcome to the thread, or our mythical Bus called Gerald!

There is room for everyone. Always

There is help for everyone who wants it. Always

There is unconditional support and kindness. Always

We have two sentences that we believe in here -

1. • The Vulnerable Need Our Support, Not Our Judgement
2. • Alcohol Fosters Inertia

No matter what it is that you drink, how much, how often, we've ALL been in your position at one point or another...... so most of us WILL know exactly what it's like to be YOU

If you'd like to read the last thread, it's below -

THIS IS THE PREVIOUS THREAD

And if you want to read a pretty sobering thread and the history behind these many, the reason why we are all here, fighting to stay/get sober is here -

FIRST EVER BRAVE BABES THREAD

Hope to see you soon :)

Mouse x

The reason I was asking about the secrecy is I think DH is on to me.
I'm frightened he might confront me.

just are you ok?

Morning all,

wry I am very impressed with the horsey stuff,wish I wasn't scared of them. You sound fine and dandy these days.

ma sorry about the crap bits but 3 days- brilliant stuff! After day 4 the carvings begin to go away,so stick at it lovely.

Oh bugger we.re on a new page and I can't scroll back and see who I need to NC.

beaches Goats! they are I future I tell you : )

goats? what goats?

wry the last time I went riding my cheeks ached a bit afterwards too [griin]

just what's happened? Stay with us, change name if you need to, we'll figure out who you are. Come in some kind of disguise, lift your glasses up and whisper "It's me, LeJust" x

Hey just, we will figure out who you are ye know, just please keep posting, it sounds like you need a little company right now.

Hope you are okay my lass, xx

just I seriously think this bus is the most non-judgemental place on earth. Don't be afraid to off load on us. As mouse often says, once you've got your ticket for the bus, you're a member for life so that seat there amongst all these nut cases is yours forever regardless of what you say or do. xx

Good morning my lovelies,

My gorgeous wry you sound very upbeat and I'm very glad I got you riding again (ooh errr) , the weather here has been great all week so I was planning to ride at the weekend but it's forecast to rain!!! I'm so glad you had fun while you were away, you deserve a man who wears tight jodhpurs and has buttocks like hard boiled eggs, hell we all do!!!

just are you ok pet? Keep in touch and let us know your ok.

joey is today a better day for you, could feel your stress surging through my phone, being a parent would be a lovely task if it weren't for those pesky kids xx

Thank god for mug shots on SW, keeping me on track xx

Big hi to my dear friend guggs, how's you Mrs? Xx

hmm, this being as miserable as sin and pining is very good for the figure.
am just one pound away from hitting a half stone mark that I haven't seen in years.
I don't recommend it though.

You know when you've hidden it for ages (like th bottles Pp mentioned above)? Your partners and family literally had no idea and assumed you got drink on 2 glasses. I think DH suspects there is more to it now, I told him I went shopping the other day, I didn't, I went to use, but I could see he was using the find my iphone thing at home. He's never done that before, I haven't mentioned to him.

Hi Just. Does your dh have any idea at all about your use? What I mean is, does he just not know the extent of it or is he completely in the dark? Are you imagining that he would leave if he knew?

You don't have to answer any of the above. Addiction can be so isolating, I am glad you are here on the bus. Xx

Aww just. How would he take it if you told him? Would he be supportive? He has concerns already if he feels the need to check you are where you say you are. Would honesty be the best policy for you both as a couple or do you think it would be destructive? stay on the bus, lovely, we are here if you need an ear, xx

soc so proud of myself, nowhere near your league, but my hols have been brilliant, I've enjoyed myself just as much without the awd WW goading me to 'just have the one...' Xx

ma so sad that you're pining, it's fair knocked the stuffing out of you, hasn't it? It's not fair, why shouldn't you have a wee bit of happy, you sair need a wee bit. I am going to congratulate you on your weight loss anyhoo, for I think being AF has a little hand in that too. Xx

baby hello my lovely horsey pal! I went daft today and bought another 3 pairs of jodhs in the sale. Cord ones, they'll be super comfy with my wellies for walking Little if nowt else! You got me a little bit of me back again, thank you thank you thank you! Xx

guggs I was nervous to start with, nowhere near the gung-ho kid I used to be, used to be bareback, barefoot and all sorts, now I'm all about the back protector, hat, and hip padding. My confidence is slowly growing, mainly thanks to my lovely awd schoolmaster. He's like a rocking horse, blissfully comfy. I feel like I'm a different person, just flamin scared that when I get back to work that those feelings of not coping will rear their ugly head again. I am determined to enjoy my last few days. Monday will whirl round soon enough! xx

I am washing and ironing, it's peeing down here so nowt much else to do! I am off to see Matthew Bourne's ballet Lord Of The Flies on Saturday, so excited! And I bought a little treat with some of my alcohol piggy bank money...

Top Hat! I am going to see it in September! Heaven, I'm in heaven...seats right at front of the dress circle so nobody blocks my view of the lovely frock. Will be at the stage door ripping it (very, very carefully) off her back handy thing being plump. Weight advantage...

Back to washing and ironing, I flaming love you lot! Catch you later, Xx

Sorry beaches cross post due to me taking ages typing on the Batphone

How's your day going lovely? Xx

hey wry so glad to hear you being so cheery.
it absolutely has knocked the stuffing out of me and left me completely discombobulated. They say there's no fool like an old fool and that would seem to be the case.
Just cant seem to care about anything at the moment which is dreadful and very self-indulgent. Don't think I've ever felt like this before and its most unsettling. Want my old shell back, not this stupid emotional creature I seem to have become.....

Hi Wry, love your upbeat mood! it is infectious . I am so glad this holiday has unearthed a bit of the old you and your love of horse riding. You seems to be glowing. It's rainy here too but managed my morning run/walk and resembled more of a radish than a beetroot so that may be a sign of progress. Later I have to take the boys to buy all their school supplies, lots and lots of new jotters, pencils, folders, rulers (actually quite excited as I love all that jazz!). Enjoy your day, or the rest of it babe xx

Ma keep going lovely, heartache is so painful.

Thanks beaches
Cracked and am drinking tonight. Might as well.
Don't know wtf is wrong with mn. Now I get the desktop site on my mobile and cant get to the threads I want! Grrrr
Also I grated my hand while grating cheese cooking dinner for everyone and it hurts!
I am having a pity party. Anyone want to join me?

Ouch! ma you poor thing on top of everything else - doesn't it feel like everything is out to get you? It will get better, honest.

My urodynamics study went okay. Not really painful - except afterwards when they ripped off the tape which had been holding the catheters down. On the inside at the top of my leg (it's actually caused a bruise!) thought they were waxing my pubes

They said I have irritable bladder (not the only thing in this house that's irritable, believe me) and I've got some pills. Starting to realise that there is an ache in my bladder quite often - I got used to ignoring it, or assuming I was a hypochondriac.

wry good to see you back, but you smell a bit... horsey

wry a sober holiday is a massive achievement. Especially around all those debauched horsey types. Well done. The smug seats are filling up! Xx

I have had enough of my drinking I'm a horrible person . I want to change but I can't seem to do it.

Evening, tis me, Mouse

MISS P! MISS P! MISS P! - I REMEMBER YOU SO VERY VERY MUCH AND IT'S UBER FAB TO READ YOUR POST! WELL DONE. LOVELY TO SEE YOU AGAIN GORGEOUS LADY.

baby - I've not been on the thread that much but I homed in on your post on Mon 25 - Aug, it started 'you lot are filthy'................ and it rang so true with me sweets. How long have you got until anyone goes back to school are they too old/young?

Are you okay? I mean really? PM me if you want to sweetie. xxx

How are the rest of you wonderful Babes? Hello to any new faces :)

I can't stop, I've had a run of horrific pain, I was in bed for 3 days, it was shit, utterly shit, so I'm thinking of writing a blog about my day to day life and the pain I go through and the way it affects my family.... what do you all think?

So sorry to post again and run but Nemo is really unsettled and DH is poorly still.

Night Babes xxx

Hi mouse, really hope your pain has passed or at least managed, sounds horrendous. I must say I'm in awe of you and lots of other babes.
The inner strength I've seen when I've read through these threads debating whether to post is humbling.

I've got nothing on my plate compared to the rest of you which makes me feel a twat for thinking I've got problems!

Thanks so much all of the babes for posting and replying to my questions, I'm in a strange place where I need to decide how to proceed, like a crossroads if that makes sense and you lot are the only people in the world that I've said anything to.

Not that I've actually said much at all but you know what I mean

I have just done a reality check and realised this week I've been drunk 5 of 7 days. Once to blackout. I am actually scared of how far and fast I've slipped down to here. My kids are on holiday with their dad so I've not let it affect them but my DP drinks far too much too and while I love the bones of him I have actually been lying awake for at least two hours wondering how the actual fuck I am going to make our rel work if being together leads to this kind of excess. Miserable barely begins to express it. I need to get back on this bus asap.

mouse ! really good to see you. A blog sounds like a great idea, we'd all read it wouldn't we babes ? (Nods vigorously, but without being entirely sure what a blog actually is)

Morning babes.

Welcome to the bus imagination. Many of us have felt like you do love, but with a bit of support and banter have managed to make a few small changes. Some babes have even reached the smug seats! But it all starts with day 1, deciding not to drink today. Posting seems to help and everyone has loads of great tips to help get through it.

overcame welcome (back). God I hate those lying awake worrying mornings. I relate to the difficulty of having a drinking dh too, at the moment he is having a break with me but much of our life involves drinking together normally. It is bound to change the dynamics if one stops/reduces significantly but it could be a positve effect. Try not to project (easier said than done) and just think about laying off for a bit. Your thoughts may become clearer/less panicky after a few days/week without drinking.

@ joey. A blog is like an online diary, or at least that is what I imagine mouse is considering. You kind of share your daily struggles ans successes which can really help other people who have similar situations and can just be an interesting read. I'd say go for it Mouse, you enjoy writing and it might highlight some patterns for you too. Just make sure you let us know where to find it

just you don't need a plate full of problems to be on the bus! Just the one concern will do . Keep posting what you are comfortable with while you work out what you want to do x

Ma hope a little sunshine reaches inside you today xx

Spanna How is the new job going lovely? Are you very busy learning it all and settling in?

hope hey flower

Day 17 and will not be drinking today.

Waves to baby, Soc, isinde, guggs, rural, wry, anne, snazzy, little and any other bus babes looking in.

Hi babes quick checkin before I read back, I've been away for a few days.

I'm not doing very well on the not drinking front, I had wine every night I was away. The first night two glasses and I felt it the next day, the next just one glass which was fine. I went back to the hotel and had a coffee and wasn't even tempted by the bottle H had bought. Yesterday though I got through nearly a whole bottle...I can't see myself having an af day at the moment, much less a run of them. I hope it's nothing more than being off work and in holiday mode, regardless I need to refocus