No probs Lucy thanks for writing it 
I missed some of the middle threads so you might have covered it before, did your dh give up at the same time as you? Hope it does bring some more people round to the thread, strength in numbers and all that.
Yep that's the one thing that's keeping me going is knowing I'd be gutted if I let myself down. That made me smile stayingdry talking out loud to yourself. Have a habit of doing that myself.
I miscalculated as I don't count days as such and looking at my calendar its actually four weeks tomorrow. So this time four weeks ago I was polishing off my tenth bottle of wine for the week (counted that week for some reason with a sense of self disgust as every bottle of wine was finished). Thought of that today and thought holy hell that's about 90 units in a week only in stronger language My poor liver has taken some pounding. Don't think I was usually that bad but honestly don't have a clue as I had bury my head in the sand syndrome.
Onto the positives it's been lovely at night curling up beside dd while she drifts off to sleep without wishing her to hurry up so I can get back to my glass. Reading ds a bedtime story after, something that has been neglected the past while which we used to do every night without fail. Feel a lot more present in their lives not constantly distracted by booze from afternoon/evening and sluggish and meh the next morning.
Was standing out the back last night last night and heard one of my neighbours taking out his bin, stopping at the end of my wall, popping a can of beer and guzzling it quickly before throwing it in the bin and carrying on. It's common knowledge he has a drinking problem but was strange to hear it and know exactly what he was up to. Funny how even though you think you hide it well there's probably other people about catching you unknowingly.