Row turned violent - very confused

[inneedofagoodtalkingto]

I have name changed. Probably not much traffic now but my DH got home from an event and we had a row. The upshot is I threw a glass of water at him and he punched me in the face. There's more to it of course but I've subsequently had a panic attack and am not really thinking straight. I can't sleep, and just hoping for some thoughts on what I do next. I don't really know what to think at the moment. Just fighting an urge to run out of the house and drive somewhere, anywhere away from this house.

That sounds lie something best left in the past, even without the recent violence.

Just read your update. I still saw friends regularly, had no money problems, the confidence part - hmm watching your partner throw stuff and punch does affect most peoples confidence. You are afraid to say exactly what you mean.

However it doesn't take away from the fact that over several years it escalated from throwing to kicking and eventually to me believing, truely believing I was going to die. I have a professional job, I went to work the next day... This is not normal.
It made me realise that I would be stuck with a shitbag forever, like an ephiany (sp.). I left. Got more abuse and threats for two years even though we were nit together! If I had left with the first kick it would have been so much easier, and I dont think he would have hassled me so much.

Take care op. Come back and post when you are ready.

Just read your update. I still saw friends regularly, had no money problems, the confidence part - hmm watching your partner throw stuff and punch does affect most peoples confidence. You are afraid to say exactly what you mean.

However it doesn't take away from the fact that over several years it escalated from throwing to kicking and eventually to me believing, truely believing I was going to die. I have a professional job, I went to work the next day... This is not normal.
It made me realise that I would be stuck with a shitbag forever, like an ephiany (sp.). I left. Got more abuse and threats for two years even though we were nit together! If I had left with the first kick it would have been so much easier, and I dont think he would have hassled me so much.

Take care op. Come back and post when you are ready.