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If you are tempted to have an affair, please read this

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duckandcover · 28/04/2014 22:25

Take it from me: you'll destroy your sanity, you will not be able to look at your family, and the other man? He might just hate you all along: HATE you but still fuck you anyway. I don't believe men fuck married women they don't despise at least a little. And I have found this out tonight. Don't think that loving you and wanting you are the same thing. I wd do anything to get back the innocence I had a few months ago - but now? OM has given it to me both guns and it is horrible. And no less than I deserve. Please please think about this before you do anything. I don't care if anyone lays into me here, I could not hate what I've done or myself any more than I do. The only way this can be worthwhile is to let others know: your OM might utterly despise you, even whilst they're fucking you.

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LyingWitchInTheWardrobe2726 · 30/04/2014 20:24

OP... I agree with EVERY word that nickymanchester has posted and, for that reason, think very, very carefully about whether joint counselling is the right thing for you. I would never use a counselling session to 'confess', it would just seem even more cowardly to me. That's just my opinion though, there's certainly something to be said for perhaps having a third party around as a support to your husband following your revelation.

The affair is down to you, this whole thing is down to you as far as your marriage goes. What you say cannot be 'unsaid' Do you want to disclose the affair knowing that it could end your marriage? That's the question and it's YOUR decision to make because you are the one that will live with the consequences of that particular decision, irrespective of the pain you will cause your husband.

I think, if you are determined that you will end your marriage anyway then honesty might be the tool that will set you free from subsequent guilt, or at least get you on the road to recovery.

If you think that you could repair your marriage, take whatever steps are necessary to do so and put in the time and effort, then disclosure may not be the right thing for you. If you decide on non-disclosure then this secret goes with you to the grave and you have your work cut out to 'cover up'.

Make no hasty decisions, take the time to work out what you will do next and how you will go about it. Think it through.

I'm sorry for your pain, Duck, I really am. It's a horrible situation and, just because you put yourself in it, that doesn't take away what you are feeling now. Nobody ever sees themselves at the 'end of the affair' when they're embarking on it. If they did, they never would. :(

duckandcover · 30/04/2014 20:59

nicky and london - Thanks. Especially Nicky as you've shared something so painful. Both your posts cover the next step, which makes me ill with fright I have to say, but I will not dodge it. To be honest when I first posted it was really to share my revelation re the HATRED which blew me away - which may have stopped me in my tracks . Yes, not a great reason, but surely any thought that makes one pause before taking such a destructive step is good. But now I see that this is just the start - and I'm so grateful for those who are taking the time to respond, GOOD OR BAD.

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IrianofWay · 30/04/2014 21:52

Great post nicky. IMO it's vital to differentiate between there being genuine problems in a relationship and blaming it on the the bs. I can honestly say i was pretty wretched in my marriage but it wasnt me that had the affair. No relationship falters because of the actions of only one spouse, but an affair is a totally unilateral decision for which the blame can only be pointed one way.

Good luck duck. Take time to make your decision. I know what I hope I would want to do in your place but of course it's daunting. Stay strong xx

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