did something you will all hate

[pickthebones]

i am on self distruct.

i am spending money i do not have.

i am exhausted.

i feel like i am at breaking point.

at the weekend i was unfaithful. i am not using any of the above as excuses. i have no excuses.

Get a grip

Pickthebones, what's wrong why do you feel the need to self destruct?

You will not self destruct.

But you will be left deep in debt, with no relationship.

sorry for you, pickthebones

what a mess

Sorry that was a bit harsh.

The first one, not the second one.

Sound advice though LGJ!

Why are you exhausted?

What are you spending money on?

Could you instead spend the money on getting some help so you are not so exhausted and then you will start to get things in proportion?

LGJ

why on you on a self destruct mission PTB?

Snap, although am not spending money cos I don't have any, and haven't been unfaithful YET.

Just don't care anymore which is so not like me.

PTB?

what's going on? why do you feel so bad?

i mean not feel so bad about doing these things, but feel so bad that you have to do them?

Are you ok PTB ??

sorry

did not hang around to see the responses

did not want to read them really. i have been here long enough to know what i have just said will not go down well.

Are you taking anti depressants?

yes

errr - why did you post if you don't want to read the replies??

Sounds like a prime attention-seeking example.

PTB not everyone will automatically have a go at you ??

Why are you so down ??

They don;t seem to be working very well you sound very depressed to me. Have you spoken to a professional about the way your feeling. All your doing is hurting yourself and your family by letting this go on.

Right well break it down...

How much money have you spent ?

Do you have children, can you arrange a night away from them ??

Do you really value your relationship.?

Well you are right that tone and those actions will not go down well here but if you are looking for help and advice you are in the right place.
What does your dh think about your depression?

Is it real money you have spent or credit ??

Can you not leave your partner if you aren't happy ??

PTB, can I just ask, do I speak to you on msn ???

My thoughts are with you pickthebones, forget the weekend saga, think of the root problem, and get sorted, that spiral is a long way down, and its harder to get out of if you don't attack the main problem, let it all out, don't hold back, you owe it to yourself to get some support from somewhere, only you can help yourself, to start with tell yourself you are 'WONDERFUL' look in the mirrior you wonderful person! phone a friend! do anything, but don't be too hard on yourself!

Good Luck and take care of yourself (and rip ya c/cards up)