The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Springing Into Spring Like Super Spingy Springs On A Springy Day!

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Hello everyone, I'm Mouse :)

Welcome to the Bus, Gerald. Of course it's an imaginary Bus, and we're all aware of that, but we've been on this Bus for a bloomin' long time now so this place kinda feels like home.

See, the thing is, we're a mix of drinkers, non drinkers, total abstainers, and also posters that are or have been, somewhere in between, around the block and back again!

There are no hard and fast rules here, just No judging, No bitching about others and most certainly No expectations of YOURSELF.

No-one can say what will or will not happen whilst you're posting here. You just have to take the ride, One Day At A Time.

There are two sayings that we have painted down either side of the Bus :-

1. • The Vulnerable Need Our Support, Not Our Judgement
2. • Alcohol Fosters Inertia

You've started to read this thread for a reason, and you'll either carry on and maybe Name Change (or not) and post, walk away, or realise that this is all about YOU, cry for a bit, and then come and take a seat :)

For those who would like a bit of our almost 4 year history, have a read of THIS TRULY INSPIRING THREAD

- AND THIS IS OUR PREVIOUS THREAD TO THIS ONE

We're not a quiche or a clicky group, four years is a long time and longer when you're pissed for some of it, so whilst the threads may look 'clicky', I can promise you, it's just that we all 'know' one another because we've been here for a bit but you'll soon get to know us all, who loves what (CHEEEEEEEESE), but we were all 'new posters' at one time, weren't we? :)

Baby that's lovely! Couldn't agree more.

Feeling cheery and sending waves to all. On my third Becks Blue of the evening and slightly worried its making me giddy (its like the ghost of the taste of alcohol gives me the ghost of a sense of being nicely merry). Longer term am not sure I really like the idea of af beer as surely it is just prolonging the sense of having an alcoholic drink as a release/reward - but right now on day 11(ish - can't quite remember), it feels like a very necessary part of my daily ritual. Ah, the rituals of alcohol - many weighty tomes written on that, no doubt.

hugs all
x

Not cheesy at all baby. For the first time in a long time, I feel that my endless hope is not for nothing and know that sometimes strenght is its own reward. Im looking at life, as messy and complex as it is, with fresh eyes and more determination than ever.

My DS was all that ever mattered to me. And he is here with me right now. Smearing humus all over his face and laughing as I try to hide my cell phone. Good days are ahead of us as well as bad ones, but we are together. And it simply would not have been possible without this bus. I would have gone mad, I would have made myself sick, I would have made a mistake. But with the bus and the sidecar, I got through it. You guys are the best.

Any newcomers this week: stick around! Miracles happen all the time, and you get to see them on this thread all the time. And its a great place to share your own miracle.

A party photo on my profile???

Welcome newbies and well done baby

Oh yeah. Its the Dcs festooned with Christmas lights!

Evening all - just watching crap telly and thinking how lucky I have been to find this bus and the wonderful people on it -

why lovely photo! treasure these memories

Today hasn't turned out to be so bad after all, but I've ended up with a drink anyway, sorry. At least I didn't have any last night, and maybe that's why today was a better day? Although I did hit the Kalms quite hard.

why. It is so good to put a face to the name and also to see you and your beautiful boy together. Wonderful x

Spanna hope your conversation box activity went well today cupcake! such a great idea and I bet it gave everyone a chance to get involved. well done on day 4, you are on fire xx

Love to everyone else too. I seem to have a black dog for company today, overwhelmed, tired of coping and due for my period. No real reason but also every reason. Sorry, I am sure tomorrow will be a brighter day. At least I won't be hungover

Beaches the full moons on us again that may be the reason for your black dog day. I really hope today is a better day.

Day 5 for me

Have a good day everyone x

Good morning my lovely friends, spanna your doing amazing, I forgot to say yesterday I loved your conversation box idea, hope it was a roaring success, with you at the helm I'm sure it was.

Day 19, I'm sure the thiamin has been a game changer for me, my crohn's is causing me painful joint problems but I'm doing plenty of walking to strengthen my bones and listening to my cheesy favourite hits from the 80's and 90's, only problem is I forget that when I'm singing along people can actually hear me, thought I was getting lots of friendly smiles yesterday totally oblivious they were laughing at me. Uch well, spreading laughter can only be a good thing. Have a super day and why still smiling at the thought of you waking up with your boy, just checked my super cute 3 year old who is giggling in her sleep and makes me feel very grateful..., Love and cuddles to y'all xxx

Hope all Babes are doing well - have a terrific Thursday xx

Thank you Spanna . Funnily I looked up the full moon dates last night, and there it is for tomorrow. I always seem to go a little 'luna-tic'. At least there is a reason and I know it will pass

Take care babes xxx

Oh dear. A bus full of 'luna-tics', Friday the 13th and a full moon.

I'll hide in the back.

Day 33 done for me. Mostly feeling fabulous, but WW still whispers in my ear about 'controlled' drinking. Yep, like I haven't tried that one at least a million times.

Loved the picture of why. Oh I do like happy endings. Thank you why. Makes me smile every time I think of you and your baby and what you've survived.

Bloody hell. You're all out enjoying the sunshine, the world cup ceremony. I'm stuck here. Cold, dark, lonely, sober. All alone..... Actually I do wonder if I'm finding it easier this time because it's not summer.

Friday 13th. Day 34 for me. I'm up with the sparrows this morning. I'm not drinking today. Have plans to go for a run later and drink fekking sparkling water while I watch crap on tv. It's all happening down here.

Though I'm feeling great. I keep having niggles about social things coming up, but I don't want to drink any more. I keep imagining myself drunk and thinking what it must look like to other people. Not a pretty picture. I look much nicer in my fluffy dressing gown all sober and sweet, with a crochet hook in my hand that I have no idea what to do with.

Hello, I feel very low today. I came home from work, had a shower and went to bed for a bit. I was just scrolling through here.

I am swigging from a bottle of wine. Not even bothered with a glass. I can't even say what I almost did waiting at the bus stop. There were tears falling from my eyes, no noise just tears. And pain. Real pain, in my chest, in my head, in my heart. Probably menopausal, probably because of mirena, probably auto immune stuff, probably so much different stuff going on in my life that my head is spinning and I want everything to just stop.

I enjoy the very odd glass of wine, I do, but this feels bad. This feels like a need to blot out stuff. I can't even describe it properly. I feel like I want to scream but if I start I won't stop. The wine isn't even nice, I opened it two nights ago to cook with. It smells sour but I can't help it.

I had a real problem years ago, drank every night, woke up lying on footpaths, or in bed surrounded by vomit. I remember the numbness and so help me I want that again so badly. Sorry I sound like a self indulgent twat but I needed to offload so badly. Thank you.

Third time lucky - lost my first post, and h appeared over my shoulder so I deleted the second. Day 5 done, it's easier when I have work as it's tough enough without a hangover! now the weekend is nearly here I no longer feel like drinking even though it's my 'allowed' time. So I'll probably end up drinking just because

This is the first time I've done so many af days and not felt better for it. I'm anxious, headachy and can't sleep at night. I don't think it's alcohol withdrawl though. H has a massive problem which I'm winding myself up about. I can't do anything to resolve it but I getting churned up stressing over it. Weirdly he thinks it's all sort of amusing and is untouched. Part of me wishes I could just switch off with a glass of wine, the other part thinks I have to ride the feelings out and learn how to cope better.

In case I don't get on tomorrow Happy Friday 13th everyone :)

wry are u OK? Join us on the bus. No one judges, everyone understands. You are welcome here

demented Thank you, I will hop on. I hate feeling like this, last straw happened at work today, (unwittingly) someone made me feel like a failure in front of other colleagues. They backtracked, and sent a text later saying they didn't think but I feel destroyed. I don't hate them for it, I hate me for it. It has shaken me. I want to work somewhere I don't see pain, or experience raw, all consuming grief, all I want is to run round with a magic wand making things better but I can't and I can't bear it.

I have almost finished the bottle and it hasn't touched me, the tears are falling quicker than I can wipe them, thankfully I haven't got anything else in the house. But it's the weekend after tomorrow and I'm scaring myself. I haven't felt like this in a very long time.

Anne unfortunately, drinking or sober, there will always be days like those. Drinking won't make it any better, in fact it is pretty much guaranteed to make you feel worse. Can you ride it out? We are here for you if you want to unload x

wry I'm so glad you posted. You have a way with words, I can feel your pain and confusion coming through your posts and I really think you are in the right place here. Lots of people will identify with that need to blot it all out.

You have the rest of your life to drink if you want to. Can you put it off a few more days do you think? Can you keep posting over the weekend and share how it's going with us. Stay with us and we can help you take it one day at a time. Welcome to the bus

Hi all,

wry sorry to hear that you've had a horrible time. I think we all use /abuse alcohol to get to that lovely numb feeling. Your horrible experience at work has only just happened and is very fresh in your mind- I can understand the need to distance yourself.
It will pass and it will be ok (with time) and I think you know that drinking won't make it go away. How about making tomorrow Day 1? There's always some loon here to talk to.

Hi to all other babes. Going to get my large but sober arse off to bed now.Big hi to other crocheting and recovering babes,we should make something together- I dunno what? massive granny square saying Fuck Off Wine Witch????????

wry stop drinking now sweetheart.
Empty any more away,clean your teeth, try and go to sleep. Tomorrow is another day.

Faire I will ride it out as logically I know alcohol makes anxiety worse. I need to find out how to deal with it. In this case I'm all churned up about a problem that is nothing to do with me and I can't resolve. I don't know why but I internalise everything when I need to some how put it to one side in my mind.

Welcome wry, try and get yourself to bed now and make tomorrow day 1. Don't stay up getting more and more wound up aabout work colleague. Some people are thoughtless and unwittingly put you down, others are just twats! In the morning you hopefully won't feel so bad

Oh wry we use this term a lot on this thread but reallly
truly "I could have written that post myself". Every single one of us have a back story, some deep hidden issues that led us to drowning in wine and seeking understanding and salvation on this amazing bus. Every single emotion you are feeling we have felt, god only a few weeks ago I felt as raw and hideously sad as you do right now. You will find more comfort on here than you can find in that bottle. You are not alone, we exist on here to support each other, learn from each other and help heal each other and by posting your heartfelt post makes you one of us. We are here for you and every single one of us has wept your tears of despair so we can help you, keep posting and know you are not alone sweetheart. Big scottish hug from me xxx

What baby said.

ma you made me smile, cheers babe x