The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Springing Into Spring Like Super Spingy Springs On A Springy Day!

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Hello everyone, I'm Mouse :)

Welcome to the Bus, Gerald. Of course it's an imaginary Bus, and we're all aware of that, but we've been on this Bus for a bloomin' long time now so this place kinda feels like home.

See, the thing is, we're a mix of drinkers, non drinkers, total abstainers, and also posters that are or have been, somewhere in between, around the block and back again!

There are no hard and fast rules here, just No judging, No bitching about others and most certainly No expectations of YOURSELF.

No-one can say what will or will not happen whilst you're posting here. You just have to take the ride, One Day At A Time.

There are two sayings that we have painted down either side of the Bus :-

1. • The Vulnerable Need Our Support, Not Our Judgement
2. • Alcohol Fosters Inertia

You've started to read this thread for a reason, and you'll either carry on and maybe Name Change (or not) and post, walk away, or realise that this is all about YOU, cry for a bit, and then come and take a seat :)

For those who would like a bit of our almost 4 year history, have a read of THIS TRULY INSPIRING THREAD

- AND THIS IS OUR PREVIOUS THREAD TO THIS ONE

We're not a quiche or a clicky group, four years is a long time and longer when you're pissed for some of it, so whilst the threads may look 'clicky', I can promise you, it's just that we all 'know' one another because we've been here for a bit but you'll soon get to know us all, who loves what (CHEEEEEEEESE), but we were all 'new posters' at one time, weren't we? :)

definitely one step forward two steps back for me :( I'm on day one again today and feeling sick, miserable and lonely. I am getting more aware every day and that just makes each hangover more dreadful. I need some handholding to get me through the next week if anyone can help :(

Well done on day seven baby :)

Sorry you are so down nefnef, I really identify with feeling of low mood plus hangover, I think it's known as session depression :(

I'm plodding on here - I've allowed myself to drink at the weekend with mixed results. Friday I had half a bottle of red but my tolerance has gone down and I felt sickly yesterday, and was cursing myself. I don't want to spoil my weekend with a hangover. Last night i had half a bottle of rose (11%) and I'm feeling ok today. Was worried I might just drink more of the lower alcohol wine to compensate but I think it was too sweet to. I'll be happy with that if I can go back to af days next week....

Morning all

baby well done on your Saturday night victory

Sorry I missed you, I usually check in on the bus quite frequently and would have been happy to while away the time with you. But you did it anyway. Go you!!

If anyone is looking for inspiration or motivation, I've been watching The Biggest Loser USA on youtube. Started with season one and working my way through them. I know it's primarily about weight loss but it's also about making life changes, pushing through the hard bits, seeking support from others and lots of positive stories.

It helps to keep me focussed on my own personal goals and will fill an hour if I'm at a loose end.

Anyway, getting lots of rest today as work is knackering at the moment. Fun, busy but very tired by Friday evenings so just need to recharge

nefnaf this time last week I was shaking, vomiting, crying. My eldest dd disowned me, my parents told me it was last chance saloon my anxiety was so bad I started crying because the butter was too hard for the toast. Today I've just finished a cycle in the sunshine listening to songs I previously staggered around singing, having seabass and veg for lunch and off to a children's party with actual enthusiasm seeing everyone. I have been lower than I ever thought I could sink (sneaking and stealing my parents drinking and lying to everyone) I know I've a long way to go but I will hold, squeeze and pull your hand if necessary towArds a brave new world where we finally like who we are, I'm totally here for you as others have and continue to be there for me, big giant hug, tomorrow will be better I promise. PM me if you need to talk xxxx

thank you. I need to just get on with this for real now - I know I can because I have before. Which I guess is why I feel so much more disappointed in myself to be here again. :( I'm glad you're doing so much better baby xx

nefnaf we can do it together xxxx

Nefnaf it is day one again for me - my anxiety bad to baby but I know that drinking feeds it and I need it to stop - anyway not drinking today - in fact very tired and already in bed hiding from the WW !!! take a BB so hoping that will keep me on an even keel :). We can do this Nefnaf we can !!!

Struggling here too with the black dog of depression re job etc but have discovered Carling Coolers. Light lager with lemon zest - only 0.6 of a unit and only 2%. So no wine on Saturday or Sunday. A total of about 5 units as opposed to my usual 18 after two bottles of wine.
Hand holding for all who need it as I need it too. Sorry not to have read back..am a bit disengaged from RL at the moment

Hi all was on this thread about two years ago but was not ready to face up to my issues. My relationship has since broken up and my drinking escalated to the point where I was drinking two bottles of wine most nights a week. Anyways I can't go on so I've told my family and my ex the truth about the extent of my problem. Seeing an addiction counsellor tomorrow and not drank for three days. I feel very small and very afraid though relieved and somewhat hopeful that things are going to get better for me.

Hi skippy so glad you've came back, good luck tomorrow and you've been very brave to put your drinking issues "out there" stay close and you will see we're all on day 1, 4, 7 or 100 but we have all felt small, most still do but support here will help and you sound ready for the challenge. Day 3 is brilliant and the benefits are just round the corner. Every day without those 2 bottles is a huge victory, you've already spared your liver and skin 60 units and your purse £30, mAybe put the money in a jar and treat yourself to something special to acknowledge how well you've done. I look forward to getting to know you better. Good luck tomorrow, the hardest bit is over xxxx

Welcome back skippy and well done for making the decision to stop. Stick with us, you're going to be ok

Yay on day 2 again !!!! - feeling good :)

70hours me too. Feeling a bit better today. Day 2 almost done for me.

Well done soberxocfish :). ope I am you in 12 hours :)

You will be 70hours.

Hey gorgeous babes

I've not been posting because my drinking has crept up again. It's no where near the levels it was at when I first got sober but my experiment in moderating has not been very successful.

I'm ok- but I'm back at drinking 2/3 big glasses 4/5 nights,which is not on because when I decided to drink again it was only going to be 'on special occasions" HA!

I'm much more mindful now and know where I will end up if I keep going like this,so I will post here and on Dry and get my arse back to AA. I'll just go to the sensible meeting and leave it at that.

I'm not sorry,or worried about my drinking- I just needed to know if I could manage on my own,now I know for sure that I'm the kind of person who needs a group kick up the arse in RL.

So,I will not be drinking today and my intention is to move on back to sobriety and get past the stage I got stuck at before.

Haven't read back (didn't want any nasty sobriety threads to interfer with my drinking,obvs! ) but sending you all big hugs and best wishes for a great day and a sober evening (smile)

day 2. Hanging in there. Still feeling crap.

Hi everyone who is coming back, nice to meet you.

Hi nefnaf

Do you feel crap because you are on day 2 or ill? If on day 2 then lots of water and as much rest as possible will help.

Hi guggs so happy to see you back. We are all different snd you know what's right for you, we'll support you all the way. I still can't contemplate a life without wine but on day 8 I'm just doing ODAAT, just as you taught me, you have been so calming and supportive to me I reckon you can do anything you put your mind to, keep close, we're all In it together babe xxx

Thank you lovely- hand holding need today. Big squish for you x

How's it going today?

feeling emotionally crap, physically ok. Just a bit flat and miserable, but I'll get there. Hand-holding from me too x

Cake. That's what we need- cake not wine

nefnef just lie low. Drink water. Take 10 minutes at a time. This is the worst bit. See you in the morning. I'm off to bed.

Babes, I'm ironing and watching Vera and just made shortbread biscuits. How my life can go from Geordie shore to Little house on the prairie in the space of a week is a source of wonderment and relief. I'm not being smug, I have sunk lower than most of you ever have, I just want my babe friends to know, all the bad stuff can be turned around pretty quickly. Once my biccies have cooled I'll come up the front of the bus ewith hot fresh coffee and oh so buttery biscuits xxx

Well done baby. I'm all tucked up in the duvet, snug and reading my book. It's so nice to read again. Yet another thing that drinking totally fucks up. Here I am lying in bed sober and reading a book - total bliss. I am mad to keep going to back to that shite.
xxx