The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Driving Through The Autumn Scenes, Searching For Our Sober Dreams.

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Hello, I'm Mouse :) Welcome to the Bus, (aka Gerald ).

I'm one of the Brave Babes on board this fabulous Bus of travellers, all in search of their sobriety in one form or another.

We have those who drink in moderation, those who have a set pattern of days on and off the booze, and we have posters who have been sober for minutes, hours, days, weeks, months or years.

There are two lines that the Bus has painted down the side, one on each -

The Vulnerable Need Our Support, Not Our Judgement and Alcohol Fosters Inertia

So, if you think you're drinking too much or you're worried about another person, then come find a seat.

We get through our days chatting about all sorts of things, life is, after all, full of plenty of things to fuel our desire to drink, and we're all very different people

However, our common goal is sobriety. :)

The Last Thread

The Reason We're Here - The First Thread

How lovely to "see" you Bproud

Many congratulations on 3 years sober, what a huge thing to do!

I've had the day of hell busiest day today, and can't face the lovely dinner Dh has cooked, just too tired to sit at the table :(

I'm ok until I get indoors, just tell me I'll get used to it!
Cheese and biscuits at about 10, for me after a shower, not good!

T xxx

Sharp Fucking WELL DONE on taking the first step.

I would strongly suggest that you self refer to your local alcohol and drugs team.

They can help you with a safe home detox on librium (when they will visit every day) and help you through the withdrawal.

Or you can self refer for residential detox - if it is similar to where I live, you will have to phone them every day to get a place , but if you do that, you should be admitted within about 2 weeks, and then you get about 2 weeks in rehab with all the support that they offer - (counselling , group therapy, access to AA and medication to help the physical process of withdrawal). If you are willing to grab that chance with all your heart, it will probably save your life.

You come across as very determined - seek out help - it is out there - you just have to go out and find it..... I feel you will get through this..... but use EVERYTHING that is available to you.

Stay safe tonight my lovely.

And this bus will be your long term friend xxxxxx

It is a reunion, Isinde was right

*Bproud absolutely brilliant - 3 years - how amazing is that, you totally rock!!

Thurso cheese & biccies sounds good, if you can stay awake until then.

I'm having a nice little n&t whilst trying to convince dh that he shouldn't put vinegar in the cat food...

Oh, massive hug to Silver too, sorry, pressed 'post' too soon.

Shall I pass round party hats and those blower thingies?

Hey bproud good to see you again and well done you.
If we are having a reunion we need Venus and Jesus too.
Passes round crisps....

shoves stray tampax up scary to deal with wind problem

inserts another half dozen up self as period of death continues

Major bold fail....

Great to see you all, as nutty as ever .

So many very brave babes, I take my sensible, non-party hat off to you all.

Do you mind ma

Rude

Hey, Bproud, no-one is wearing non-party hats round here, sensible or no sensible.

Now what do you fancy, I've got giant moose ears (not personally you understand), wizard hats (ready for hallowe'en and all year round Harry Potter fans) and a good assortment of tiaras.

What else...

Thank you all. You have me in tears because I give nothing back and am
so demanding.

Mum not responded to my email
and she knows I have sent it.

Down to 3 bottles today not 4 so tomorrow is going to be a struggle

I get so embarrassed in the shop as he clearly knows I am an alcoholic.

Actually offered to get in a cab and go to mum's 300 miles away as not well enough to get the train.

I only buy it day by day these days.

I am in awe at the support here and wish I could give back. One day.

Thank you all. I do appreciate it and wish nominations were still open for Christmas appeal nominations

You make me cry as I get more support here than in RL

Thank you xxx

Aaaaargh - you unearthed horrid baby doll!
Cowers down in sidecar and pushes indie forward as ritual sacrifice.

Oooh, I'll have a tiara please scary

sharp are you getting help with a controlled detox? Well done on going down from 4 to 3. A big step in the right direction but a controlled detox with librium can help. My brother did it, he was on 3 bottles a day at the time. He reclaimed his life and so can you

Not until you apologise for the tampon incident ma

Sharpkat I got immense pleasure from seeing the amount of empties in my recycling box diminish each week as I started cutting back.

Just a few weeks ago there were none at all in my box. I was ridiculously pleased because the collectors had reason to speak to me about dh overpacking the box and I would have been soooo embarrassed if it had been overflowing with bottles.

You will feel the same about that shopkeeper one day when you can walk in to pick up a few groceries and completely bypass the booze aisle. It will happy, my lovely, just stick with it. And listen to ma she has helped her brother pull himself back from the brink.

*will happen

Just popping back to say thanks for the nice words earlier. I will continue to lurk and occasionally post. I am not sure I will be of much help to anyone else at the moment though. I still feel so raw with grief and a glass of wine (or 2 or 3) is getting me through.

Sharp - I wish you lots of luck and strength and will be following your journey.

Oh all right scary....
< mutters> waste of good sanpro that was.....

sharp keep going you poor love.

My last drink ending up with me waking up in my own piss. It was horrific. I was hearing voices, could barely stand, shaking, couldn't eat for weeks, hardly walk up the stairs. Everything was hell.

With willpower, AA, not wanting to die and the love of my family and friends I am 5 months sober.

I know how you feel, and it will pass. I promise you that.

Can you get some diazepam? That helps.

Hi there all. Well I've had a shit of a day. As some of you may remember I've been (mostly) abstinent for two years now. I've been sitting next to an active alcoholic at work and she came in today three sheets to the wind. Totally off her trolly. Big scenes in the office, she walked out of work. I feel so cowardly as I said nothing as people slagged her off (not majorly but...) They really don't understand what a horrid addiction drinking can be. If they had seen me two/three years ago ... well anyway. I also feel that I let her down as I could have said something about AA but I didn't trust her not to stick the knife in when she was on one. My sponsor said that I should put myself first and that there would have been plenty of other people and opportunities for her if she was ready. meh. Been feeling really crap about it all day. Have had a whole bar of wonka chocolate this evening. (My treat of choice these days)

Have resolved to perhaps step up my service at AA, as an alternative.

It's been really busy on here today, I lurk at least once a week - it's lovely to see all the support that you give each other, I probably need to post a bit more.

louise I think you are right. Looking after yourself first has to be your priority. We cannot help people who are not yet ready to receive help. Stick with those that are actively looking for help and, hopefully, one day someone will be there for your colleague when she is ready to change.

Hi babes, big shout out to the lovely guggen and greeny you guys were amazing with me when I was in the gutter, lovely to see you back and your support had changed my life and my family's, I thank you. shall and sharp you guys are doing sooo well taking charge of your drinking with determination and courage, every journey starts with a single step and you've both taken in. You must keep posting, we have all needed more support than others at times, it helps us to help you and you will do the same .... It is strangely comforting to know I'm not a failure or a freak because it seems all around me the mums do yoga, bake cakes are slim and shiny and always felt I was just selfish and self indulgent to need wine to get me through this life when I have a good man and beautiful dd's, knowing I'm not the only one and supporting new babes helps "pay it forward" in return for the incredible warmth shown to me when I was literally falling apart so keep posting the good bad and the ugly, we're a tight team here and we have ALL been there !!!! On a lighter note my 3 year old walked in to the kitchen while I was munching a kit kat with my coffee and said " mummy I don't think you should eat any more biscuits, your bottom is quite big already" bloody charming, love to all you splendid, wonderful babes xx

sharp You are putting the 'brave' in Brave Babes tonight. Well done on today. Get in touch with your community alcohol place tomorrow. Its good to have a human to help at the start. Stick with it. Thinking about you tonight.

Day 41 sober for me. Life still a complete shambles but saw my boy today, so the mountains could crumble and I wouldn't care. As the always fabulous Oscar Wilde once wrote, "We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars". Ain't that the truth

why you are fab

Shout out for Soc too, how's things down under?

why I would hug you if I could, so proud of you for sticking with it, good times ahead for you lovely lady x