The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Driving Through The Autumn Scenes, Searching For Our Sober Dreams.

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Hello, I'm Mouse :) Welcome to the Bus, (aka Gerald ).

I'm one of the Brave Babes on board this fabulous Bus of travellers, all in search of their sobriety in one form or another.

We have those who drink in moderation, those who have a set pattern of days on and off the booze, and we have posters who have been sober for minutes, hours, days, weeks, months or years.

There are two lines that the Bus has painted down the side, one on each -

The Vulnerable Need Our Support, Not Our Judgement and Alcohol Fosters Inertia

So, if you think you're drinking too much or you're worried about another person, then come find a seat.

We get through our days chatting about all sorts of things, life is, after all, full of plenty of things to fuel our desire to drink, and we're all very different people

However, our common goal is sobriety. :)

The Last Thread

The Reason We're Here - The First Thread

Right, I'm off to bed, and hoping for a night of peace and rest for my poorly boy.

Lots of love, support, fight and force is being sent your way to anyone who's struggling! You can beat the WW and you can leave the rest of the bottle for another night, another 'treat'?

Why nail it all and feel like shite tomorrow?

Take good care all xxx

Day 10 done.
Thanks to so many of you on this bus.
Busy day, off to bed so will read back tomorrow.
Goodnight babes xx

Morning All

I drank last night. Rather than feeling pissed off with myself I'm actually feeling good because it has reinforced exactly why I don't want to drink anymore.

I do not have a 'stop' button, so I drink until I'm absolutely hammered or there is no alcohol left.

It was really not that great. I would have had just as good (if not better) time with non alcoholic drinks.

I feel like shit this morning and have missed a gym class and can see myself doing fuck all today other than just 'getting through the day'.

There was nothing good about drinking last night.

Back on the bus. Do not drink Babes. It's a big sham.
xxxxxxxxxxxx

I'm glad you are not feeling bad about it Soc and that you are using it as a reminder as to why you don't want to drink anymore.

Get right back on the bus. I forgot who hands out the Opal Fruits, but here have some of this.

Thanks why. Hope you're doing ok. I'm very inspired by you.

Mid afternoon here and I still feel like shit. To think I used to spend every day like this.

Inspired by me? Ha! If you could see the mess I've made out of my adult life, you might think otherwise.

Don't feel like shit. Would you consider maybe trying to go to an AA meeting tonight? Don't let last night be a downer for you, and don't let yourself wallow.

Back on that horse, lady.

Geraldine.

The opal fruits are mine, all mine, I tell you!

Dear god. Do not mention opal fruits. I NEED them!!

Didn't we have a horse before?

Yes, LRD came riding up on Geraldine to catch up with the bus.

Morning all

I thought so. Morning everyone, Sunny here today, am eating a bacon sandwich and wishing I'd left the last glass in the bottle last night. Am very uninspiring today. I'm having a night 'off' tonight. I've really got to claw back my four nights off a week.

ladame I'm with you....sigh

Sunny here too. I did four loads of washing yesterday and the fifth is in the machine. Been putting it off because of the rain.

Ladame make that decision and stick to it. How about 4 nights in a row? Treat yourself like a whiney toddler. Just say no and mean it!

I find that the first few days always go so slowly but once you get into it they whizz past. The same as dieting. The early days seem to drag but the dreaded weigh in comes round so quickly really.

Four days. What have you got to lose. The worst that will happen is that you are a bit grumpy for four days. Plan lots of other things to do instead to keep yourself busy.

Have you got any cupboards that need sorting out, filing to do or decorate a room?

Yes, there's stuff I can do, but I'm at home most of this week anyway (that might change if I get this new job). One of the main things I can do is get into my pj's early, I can't drink in my pj's, it doesn't feel right .

at the whiney toddler !

I am working late on Monday so should be booze free that night, then dh is away for 3 nights with work - glory fucking be - so can PJ and bed early with mug of tea and no hassle. Here's hoping for a good week.

Afternoon, tis me, Mouse

Sorry for epic typos last night, I am even more tired today because the boy is poorly so I've been up with him since 3 something am, went back to bed until around 11 when DH needed to get on. He's baked gingerbread men, he got the recipe from Mumsnet!

If I nod off, just give me a nudge...................... I keep doing it ................. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Aw Mouse you must be shattered

Today I will not drink. I've been drinking way too much and haven't had an AF night in ages.

Actually looking forward to making some nice food, instead of just necking back the wine.

thinking of you mouse you poor thing. Really hope Nemo is feeling better soon.
why as ma said YOU ROCK. You inspire me, thats for sure. Have some knowledge of how long these things take but you are getting there, keep going and well done you
ma good luck next week.
I have been AF 10 days now and it is like a fog lifting more each passing day. Putting on weight rather than losing tho. Have the oral fixation and sugar craving. Result Im eating chocolate by the ton. I honestly rarely ate anything sweet before. Got it all from alcohol I guess.
Keep strong all babes fighting the WW. Sobriety rocks xx

Do you think it's possible to have a compulsive type personality?

By that I mean compulsively doing something that you would like to stop doing?

For me this has involved...

Bulimia
Shoplifting
Taking drugs/smoking
Overspending
Drinking

It seems like there is always something in my life that I am doing to excess that I would like to not be doing.

I have recently thrown away the alcohol in the house and am feeling good about this, but am wondering if I am doomed to always repeat the cycle?

If you met me you would think I had a naice middle class life - so it's not like things are spiralling out of control, and yet I often feel I can't control my behaviour.

I don't necessarily believe in the transformative power of counselling - I think my childhood had it's problems but was not frankly that bad, so I really don't understand why I have this tendency.

Maybe I will be fine and I'm worrying about nothing?

I'm similar Ladame, my parents were pretty crap but I was safe and had everything I needed as a child. Maybe there was some emotional neglect but nothing that's left any lasting damage, as far as I can tell.

I've always had issues around food, though, and drink became a problem probably in my early 30s. I've given up looking for the whys and wherefores and just try to be vigilant.

'Know yourself' is the best way I find. Accept yourself, flaws and all and work with yourself, not against.

Rural when the sugar craving hits, could you have a more substantial meal, something that is quick and filling, like a jacket potato (if you're not low carbing) with baked beans or tuna and a bit of salad? If you feel full, that sugar craving will go.

Ma bed to yourself - bliss! Enjoy it

Mouse hope you are resting as much as you can today. My dd has a rotten cold so she's snuggled up on the sofa watching old episodes of Gilmore Girls. Dh has gone for a bike ride in this glorious weather and ds is visiting a friend so I'm just pottering.

Faire thanks for the advice re sugar craving. Will definitely give it a try.
Think my spending on chocolate is going to outstrip my previous wine spend if I don't do something. . I guess Im loath to rock the boat in case I pick up a bottle again.

Faire Did you mean that reply to LovelyGarden ?