The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Driving Through The Autumn Scenes, Searching For Our Sober Dreams.

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Hello, I'm Mouse :) Welcome to the Bus, (aka Gerald ).

I'm one of the Brave Babes on board this fabulous Bus of travellers, all in search of their sobriety in one form or another.

We have those who drink in moderation, those who have a set pattern of days on and off the booze, and we have posters who have been sober for minutes, hours, days, weeks, months or years.

There are two lines that the Bus has painted down the side, one on each -

The Vulnerable Need Our Support, Not Our Judgement and Alcohol Fosters Inertia

So, if you think you're drinking too much or you're worried about another person, then come find a seat.

We get through our days chatting about all sorts of things, life is, after all, full of plenty of things to fuel our desire to drink, and we're all very different people

However, our common goal is sobriety. :)

The Last Thread

The Reason We're Here - The First Thread

Mouse Oops, I hope that didn't sound awful, I think it did!

I only wanted to say that you are such a fantastic Mum, I know how it goes to push yourself so hard, but, really you have so much on, if you need to sleep early, do it!
I wish someone had told me that 20 years ago!
T xxx

Hey, Thurso good to hear from you. Do you cook every day, what about dh, does he take his turn?

Hello Faire, yes Dh does do the cooking at the weekends, and I appreciate that is a good deal!

Actually (for anyone that remembers), my college course has come to a complete no go! Two years work, with a practioner who has been disbarred! Who knew!

Conversations in the corridors, and emails to solicitors, are not what I need! Feeling sad, but... cup of tea on hand, and, all of you.
T xxxxxx

Oh no, Thurso that is terrible, after all your hard work

But, yes, you do have us so come and chat with us more often if you can

Thanks Faire,

I'm going to bed now, it has all been such a shock today.
Too much talk,and the end result is rubbish!
Feeling stupid and horrible, and don't want to do the conference room tomorrow about it!
Oh well...
Txxxx

Shit thurso has the whole thing been discredited now? I remember you going through all of this. Can you get some credits for what you did?

Hello all,

thurso I'm so sorry about your course. I knew a woman at uni who's whole course was dis-accredited. Is there any way you can still get your qualification?

I had an awful day at work, so have had a few glasses of wine (despite promising myself I wouldn't). But I have found myself an AA meeting tomorrow night, which I'll definitely be at.

I'm terrified about a lot of things but I'm hoping that if I get my drinking under control that some of these will be easier to cope with.

Good morning all babes

Thurso I'm so sorry and so angry on your behalf xx It sounds so unfair!

Still waiting to hear about my job ...

Am only going to manage three days off this week. Still, better than last week, but must do better next week.

Am very sad today. My little dog, who I love to bits, had to go to the Vet with yet another ear infection (he has very curly wiry hair and lots in his ears and they get infected, because he jumps into the little lake at the bottom of the fields) apparently, this last infection has destroyed his ear drums He had to have an anaesthetic and his ears scraped out (ouch) and is a very poorly little dog at the moment.

Stormy here today with a chance of hail

cutitup Glad to hear you're feeling more positive!

Have a good day everyone, look after yourselves xxx

Ladame sorry to hear about your dog.

It's Friday evening here. I'm not even tempted. So very different to the first AF Friday.

Have a good day everyone
xx

ladame oh poor pauvre chien Does that mean he will be deaf in that ear now?

I bought some wine last night but didn't drink it - am saving it for tonight. It's good that I can have it in the house and not open it.

But not so good that I had to buy it yesterday in case I didn't have time today, and didn't want to be left high and dry.

Thanks Socfish btw you are sounding really positive, go you !!!!

Thanks Joey Both ears are affected The Vet said he didn't know if the eardrums would grow back. He seems to be able to hear me though. He is one of those dogs that puts his head on one side and then the other when you talk to him.

I know what you mean about ensuring you've got a bottle, even if you don't drink it that evening, it's like having insurance

Hi babes, just a quick check in, I have been reading but not a lot to contribute. For those that don't know me, my 3 year old dd was a surprise late baby (I'm 42). I suffered crippling post natal depression and found solace in my despair came in the form of wine, lots of it for a long time. I have fought my way back to normality and gave up drinking which is all great but my reality is my dh and I are strangers, he does very little with me or his dd, I think the whole experience for both of us was so different than we expected and I think he has estranged himself from us. He is a good man but very selfish and stubborn and lately I have realised he is a chauvinist (he denies this emphatically) I am very sad and fear we may have come to the end of the line after 11 years together, he is not really a "family man" and I spend so much time on my own with the girls that it makes me resentful and moody. My first instinct is to run to the shop for wine but I won't, I've fought to hard to get back to my world but sobriety brings hurt and fear and real feelings of loss and disappointment , finding it all hard to process. Sorry me me me, hi to all you brave babes xxxx

Just read your post Baby. You are such a warm hearted poster and I am really sorry everything feels bleak for you right now. Perhaps you and your husband will reconnect with each other a little way down the line. Sometimes hard times like these do pass, or maybe you are not sure you really want to and this will be a new crossroads for you. Either way I just wanted to send you my warmest wishes xx

Sounds very painful babyjane but congrats on the hard fight for sobriety.

I can really identify with being left on your own with the children. It festers and it isolates you as a person. Are you and your DH looking at couples counseling?

baby I can so relate to your post. I've only been 8 days sober and my reality without the escape of wine is hard to face. My reality is my control freak NSDH and the feeling I am trapped in a marriage where I am his cook, cleaner, bum wiper and whipping boy. DS loves him and feel at least for now I have to live with it.
Really hope you and your DH can talk this through and work something out.
Ladame hope your poor doggy is feeling better soon .

Be back later babes, control freak wants a cup of tea I think.
Suppose thats what " MA MA MAaa TEA " being shouted all round the house at 1000 decibels means.
Bye for now,

One day, rural one day. Hold onto that thought.

Ok. I'm the only one sat here with a facepack on aren't I?

Think that's what iv realised after my 9 days sober that I drink to hide the reality of my life now and past 16 abusive ex it's like my life's been head in the clouds my all adult life hasn't been real, it's almost a shock the realisation my 9 days were very tough
I don't know we're that leaves me

16 years* with ex

faire ummm, yup. But maybe you need it more than the rest of us

babyj well done on sticking with sobriety - it must be tough at the moment. I think that's one of the hardest things about not drinking - having to deal with real emotions which were previously buried.

faire my backpack brings me out in spots

Faire really sorry. Wish this was video posting and could see you wit your facepack on . Sort of reminds me when juvenile twitsfriends invited me to a fancy dress party and I turned up in a french maid outfit and everyone else was in their monkey suit or ballgown LOL.
Ma definitely one day for both of us. One happy happy day