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In for another miserable weekend because of sex

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NotHappyEither · 21/09/2013 08:29

We haven't had sex since last Saturday. We're supposed to be in a 'no pressure, it happens when it happens' phase because we've had lots of issues around him wanting more sex than me, not expressing that in the right way and me losing interest because he makes me feel like crap.

I've explained if he just relaxes and let's things happen naturally we'll end up having better sex. Maybe not as often as he would like but he complains lots about quality and my thinking was this would be a quality over quantity thing. Last weekend after this discussion and agreement we had great sex and he was really happy and up for the idea.

Fast forward to last night. We went to bed, I gave him a cuddle (another thing he complains is that I don't show him enough affection so I've been trying to make the effort to) he immediately thinks great we're having sex. I know if we don't have sex now he's going to shouty and miserable for the rest of the weekend. I feel like I have to have sex now and that immediately takes any fun out of it.

So I said words to the effect of let's just have a quicky. Because I honestly haven't got it in me to roll around for hours with someone who doesn't really care as long as he gets off. It didn't go down well. He ranted for a bit then told me to just get on with it then, I could make the effort for a change. I tried but he wasn't really turned on, I said let's just leave it tonight so he got out of bed and started shouting about oh that's great we're in for a great fucking weekend now. And that its my fucking job to turn him on if he's not and I can forget staying out tomorrow night (we're supposed to be staying at a friends DC at GP) he makes horrible digs and is shouty and rude stomping about the house.

Part of the problem is he knows we're out tomorrow and Sunday he has to have an early night so he thinks we won't get a chance for a couple more days. I do know that but just wanted to do what we said and let it happen when it happens and try and build it up slowly. I got up with the DC this morning and took him in a coffee this morning and he's already grumpy with me.

He'll be shouty and grumpy all day now. He's done this so many times and I hate it that a lovely weekend is ruined by sex again. Sad

OP posts:
nkf · 22/09/2013 19:02

If you pm me, I will try to answer. I did type out something, but it felt too personal.

Lahti · 22/09/2013 19:09

I opened my own bank account in secret a month before I asked him to leave. Next I got a notebook and wrote down all the things that he had done that seemed a bit "off". I remember thinking that it seemed like trivial stuff, but I read thru it again 6 months later and I just can't believe how I was living.
Eventually after living in near panic for 6 weeks as I knew I had to leave, he just blew up at me and demanded to know what was wrong with me. I just said that I was scared of him and I couldn't cope with his behaviour anymore. He was really shocked said he would try harder. I then rang a counsellor. While I was talking for (50 mins) I said I think he needs to move out so that I can think straight. She said that was the 1st time in the conversation that I had sounded sure of myself. He refused to move out at 1st, but eventually he did a month later. He then threatened to throw me out etc as I had no right to go this (he lives with his mum). He then promised me the earth to take him back holidays etc etc. as soon as he realised I was serious he stopped and became very businesslike and he started with texting and emailing all the time threatening me to stop me moving from the area. He has ridiculed me for using a solicitor for everything, but my boundaries are so shot that I couldn't trust myself to negotiate with him. It has been hard especially as I am isolated from my family, but my ivorce should be through this week.... it has taken 5 months.

Lahti · 22/09/2013 19:11

Sorry typing on phone with DD on my knee.

Lahti · 22/09/2013 19:13

Feel free to pm me too.

Wellwobbly · 22/09/2013 19:20

Chump Lady is very honored to interview Dr. George Simon, author of “In Sheep’s Clothing: Understanding and Dealing with Manipulative People” and his new book “Character Disturbance.” (See both for sale in the right hand corner Amazon box). Dr. George Simon is a leading expert on manipulators and other disturbed characters and has studied character disturbance for over thirty years. This makes him a go-to read if you’re dealing with infidelity.

For more about Dr. Simon, check out his excellent blog www.manipulative-people.com/

CL: I really enjoyed your books. Before I read your work, I had read several books on narcissistic personality disorder and what rang false to me, based on my personal experience, was that narcissists have low self-esteem or can’t deal with shame. Your books were so refreshing by contrast — as you argue some people are disordered, that it’s an issue of character, and that traditional therapeutic strategies aren’t very effective.

Can you speak a bit about your practice, and your experience dealing with disordered people? Are they compensating?
GS: In both my books, I try and make the distinction between people who are for the most part “neurotic” and people who are character disturbed. It’s a continuum. On the one end, we have people who in the past would have been labeled “neurotic.” These are folks who are struggling with anxieties and insecurities that are largely unconscious to them. They have “issues” that they never fully resolved. These issues cause them anxiety. Sometimes they “compensate” for underlying insecurities and they really don’t know they’re doing it. And there’s always some symptom that goes with the anxiety accompanying their neurosis – fingernail biting, difficulty meeting people, or establishing relationships, for example.
On the other end of the spectrum, we have folks who are more disturbed in character – and frankly, they’re not very neurotic at all. And they lack the anxiety neurotics have. And what’s happened in our times is that most neurotics are not pathologically dysfunctional anyway. They’re just hung up and fretful enough to have qualms about things and make society work. They’re very functional people, generally. They do not have the kind of maladies that afflicted people in the Victorian era, when Freud came up with his theories. Back then people had bizarre maladies that couldn’t be explained. This extreme neurosis is what psychologists use to treat. From that, they came to some conclusions about what makes people tick and the role of neurosis in people’s mental health.
These old models are still with us. Change is slow. Many, including therapists, still adopt traditional points of view — so when presented with someone with a character disorder, they’ll say to themselves that person is compensating for something — that deep below they must have low self-esteem or insecurities they’re struggling with.
If someone takes this approach, the character disordered person isn’t going to get much help — and it’s not likely they’re going to get any better.

CL: Chump Lady is a blog about infidelity. If someone finds themselves cheated on, and it’s a longstanding pattern of lies, deceit and living a double life, should they consider that they might be with someone character or personality disorder?
Is it a matter of degree? I wonder if anyone can act this way over a period of years and NOT be disordered.
GS: You know, everybody lies sometimes. A friend might ask you how she looks in a dress, and you may lie. But the reason that you lie usually says something about your character, and often in a good way. You don’t want to hurt your friend’s feelings. So you might fudge a bit on the truth.
But the kind of lying that disordered people do is different. Not only the reason they do it, but the many crafty ways they do it. The most artful liars can lie by stating a series of perfectly true things — keeping out just one small crucial detail, which would shed an entirely new light on things. So, they lie artfully.
The other thing that distinguishes a character disordered person is why they lie. Usually, good neurotics want to understand why people lie. They want to understand the underlying motives. What would make a person act this way? We rack our brains trying to understand why we’re being duped. But the ultimate reason disordered people lie is to maintain a position of advantage over someone else. If you’re in the dark, and you don’t know that you’re being deceived, then they have the upper hand and can have their way with you.
Remember, their goal is always to keep you in the one-down position. And the ways the disordered person can lie to keep you in that position can be quite artful.
CL: If someone is engaging in an affair, the why is maintaining the secret life, the narcissistic supply of cheating. So if they’re telling lies to throw you off their cheating, (lying in a disordered way), does that make them disordered?
GS: You always have to look for the telltale signs of character disturbance, and lying is one of those signs. There are several others. In my book “Character Disturbance” I outline the other signs to look for.
We live in a character disturbed age. We have so many folks who lack character and just don’t grow up. Sometimes they grow up in their 50, 60s, or even 70s. Sometimes they never do.
When people are showing the signs of character disorder, it is important to not listen to the things that they say. I know this sounds odd, but I learned this during my research. Therapists would work with disordered clients and realize they weren’t making headway. They would listen like they were trained to listen. Therapists are trained to be warm, empathic, accommodating and trusting. Because you assume a person has come to share and get advice from you.
But that’s not true with character disorders. Usually, they’ve been dragged there by their ear by someone whose life they’re making miserable. It’s not the same thing [as coming to the therapist for advice]. So if you listen to them and take what they say at face value, you’re already likely to be taken in, but you just don’t know it yet. With character disorders, you can’t just listen to what they say — instead, you have to listen “for” the kinds of things they say — the kinds of tactics they use — and keep a watchful eye out for the signs that might suggest you’re being played.
CL: Do people with character disorders want to be better? I would think that gaming the system and getting goodies without reward is pretty hard to give up. What’s in it for them? If you had a serial cheater as a client, how would you treat them versus a traditional therapeutic approach?
GS: It’s not as simple as being neurotic versus being character disordered. There is a continuum. There’s a little bit of neurosis in just about everyone. In some people there is none. In psychopaths — these are the folks whose have ice water in their veins — they pathologically lack any adaptive anxiety. They’re not afraid of anything. This is chilling. They’re not amenable at all to traditional approaches.
But most character disturbed people have some way to reach them. And sometimes they have a degree of appreciation for not only the error of their ways, but how it could be better if they were different. Sometimes they even appreciate someone else getting it — that they need to change. So many times when they come into a traditionally minded therapist office and play their game and their therapist misperceives them. “Oh, this poor compensating, inadequate person!” the therapist is thinking. But under their breath, the disordered person is chuckling — this “shrink” is going to be a pushover.
But if somebody’s calls them on their issues, really calls them on it and asks them something like: “Have you ever experienced any kind of disaster in a relationship because of how inflated your opinion is of yourself?…. If someone dares to say something like that to them — it gets their attention. And you know what? They probably have an example! When they can share that and talk honestly with someone about how maybe this isn’t such a good thing, there’s room for discussion. You can’t ask such a question mean spiritedly. But you have to cut to the chase. And what generally happens in that moment, is that for the first time the possibility of real trust occurs. Because the person dealing with them will meet them at the plane in which they function, as opposed to playing nice, seeing things through rose-colored glasses, and sending the signal that they can be played.

CL: What would you advised someone who has been cheated on? Not to play nice because you’re going to get duped?
GS: When confronting [a character disordered person], I might ask “have you ever encountered a situation that ended badly because of the inflated way you think of yourself?” — the way it is said doesn’t have to be hostile, or uncivil. It can be perfectly benign but direct. And honest. Brutally honest, but no hostile intent.
It’s not about not playing nice, [confrontation] doesn’t have to be vindictive. Just has to be direct and completely honest.
CL: For people who are on the receiving end of bad behavior by character disordered people, is it better to constantly to be the marriage police and gently confront them when they step out of line? If you’re neurotic, you’re buying books for them on Amazon and trying to help them figure themselves out.
GS: I think that would be a total waste of time because it assumes something that is patently untrue. It assumes that what they need is insight. I make that point in my book. We live under this delusion! Therapists do this all the time! They think they are going to be the person who says just the right thing in just the right way, so that this time a light bulb is going to go off in this person’s mind and all of a sudden — they will understand and “see” the error of their ways! The problem is, they already understand!
It’s not that the cheater or disturbed character doesn’t know what they’re doing and what damage comes from it. If the wounded party is crying their heart out and is miserable, it’s not like you don’t know what you’ve done and what an effect it has had! It’s right there.
Character disordered people are not stupid people. They’re contrary people. They know what the rules are, they know what the expectations are. But they haven’t made the decision in their heart to play by the rules that you want them to play by.
That’s a matter of the heart. So, like I’ve said over and over in countless workshops:
They already see but they just disagree. A little rhyming phrase I use a lot. I can’t say it enough! Therapists make the same mistake!
And they’ll change only when the cost of their behavior rises too high, the benefits of doing something different becomes more clear, that’s when they’ll change. It’s not that people can’t or won’t change. It’s under what circumstances they’ll be motivated to change. What you need to do if you’re in a relationship with someone like this is set those limits and enforce those boundaries! You must set the terms of engagement! You can’t trust them to do it. When there is a clear cost to continuing their crazy behavior, there will perhaps be some incentive to change.
You can define the terms of engagement. The problem for neurotic folks is they don’t like operating in that mode. It’s not natural for them. It feels to them like they’re being a hard [ass], like they’re being too selfish. They have all these ideas about how inappropriate it is to start calling some shots! But asserting your needs and enforcing the limits is just what you have to do.
CL: Are some people more prone to being manipulated than others? What makes people a mark?
GS: People with a conscience are especially good marks.
There are certain tactics that I outline in “In Sheep’s Clothing.” Favorite [tactics] like “shaming” and “guilt-tripping” cannot possibly work on someone without a conscience or unless that conscience is pretty active. You must have the capacity to feel guilt. If you don’t feel shame, there is no way an invitation to shame or guilt can work with you. Of course there are people who are more vulnerable to manipulation – it’s the decent folks. It’s because they have a high level of conscientiousness. There are others who are vulnerable, too.
CL: What do you make of the neuroscience around NPD and sociopaths? Did you read the New York Times article on psychopaths as children and “callous unemotional” traits as being inherited? Do you think that some people are… well, neurologically handicapped to be disordered? Is it dangerous to expect them to get better and change — if they literally don’t have empathy synapses?
GS: This research is in its infancy. We just don’t know. Some folks seem to have empathy deficits built into their wiring. There is something wrong, but we don’t know enough yet. We really don’t. Just because the brains of psychopaths work differently when you study them doesn’t necessarily mean those brains were different from birth. The degree of empathy deficiency and the degree to which it is strictly part of the programming versus a developmental issue [is unclear].

Wellwobbly · 22/09/2013 19:26

Sorry, terrible c&p but the points he makes (that a good counsellor should call him on the fact that HE makes HIS life worse), that you need to provide boundaries and consequences, and that the very real threat that he might lose his family 'could' tip him into controlling himself....

was worth repeating. But report if it is crp/illegal, sorry.

Lweji · 22/09/2013 20:23

Ah, the cycle of abuse.
He knows you got closer to leaving again and is tried to make it better.

It's still there and he's not worried about you:
He's worried about other people.

As others said, he's still abusing you. Only now you're grateful and happy that it's not as bad (as you perceive it) as before.

You're still not happy, though, are you?

GuybrushThreepwoodMP · 22/09/2013 20:57

In one of your early posts you said broadly that the weekend is ruined for the kids and you could have made it better. Are you actually saying that you should have forced yourself to have sex with him so that he wouldn't be horrible to your children. Do you realise how fucked up that is?
I'm sorry op. What a horrible situation.

NotHappyEither · 23/09/2013 07:52

Goodmorning. Thank you well that was interesting reading. I think a lot of what that says rings very true.

Lweji no, I'm not happy. I feel like I could keep plodding on a bit longer but not happy. I think that's been true for a long time. Measuring things on how much I can keep going, not how happy I am.

lahti Thank you for your post, I can imagine DH acting the same way. It was very similar last time, except I caved at the making all the promises stage. Like you, I think the only way forward would be to use some kind of solicitor or something. I don't trust myself anymore. My biggest problem is money. I gave up my job to start uni (tomorrow) and so don't qualify for tax credits. I will have to try and get another one I think. I don't want to give up my uni place unless I absolutely have to as it will mean being able to support myself financially better in the future. If I get even a small part time job hopefully I would qualify for some income support as well. Do you think it is unrealistic to plan for after christmas? Last time we separated it was all rushed and I think that was part of the problem. I had no plan. I feel like I need to be more in control of the situation? A few more months so that I can do this properly this time.

nfk Thank you I completely understand. I will try to pm you. (Not done it before Smile)

Someone asked before if I had spoken to my mum. Weirdly never before really. We've always been there for each other and especially as I've got older she has talked more to me when my df has been pissing her off being unreasonable. I've been able to see for years what a pain in the ass he can be but they always work it out. The other day though I had quite a telling conversation with her. I told her that I hate that I find myself telling the girls to 'leave dad alone' 'don't wind your dad up' etc etc and that I remember things being like that at home when I was younger and I didn't want my dc to put up with that. She agreed that it wasn't acceptable. Later, she'd obviously been thinking about it because she told me that she would do anything she could to support me through uni. Not to give up no matter what because then I would be able to look after myself one day if DH wasn't around. She said that she'd never paid a bill in her life or arranged anything to do with the house, she wouldn't know how to cope on her own, (she's never worked, always stayed at home and just run around after df) but she wants us to be able to. She doesn't want us to have to rely on someone.

I think deep down she knows. I think if she 'did it all again' things might be different if she knew what she knows now. But she has what she considers a good life and I think she believes it's too late for her. I think it's sad though that she always hopes and is still hoping that one day the things he agrees he's going to do he might actually stick to. Also, slightly off topic but she's suffered from depression on and off for years. I was reading another thread the other day and it mentioned people who had been on AD's for years, then came out of a relationship and found that the depression disappeared. It struck me that my mums depression is (I think) strongly linked to my dads unreasonable behaviour and in turn her general unhappiness with her life and how little control she has over it. I bet her depression would disappear if she didn't have to put up with that. (That makes me want to cry actually.) I love my mum.

Sorry this is so long. Couldn't get on last night and have been churning stuff over in my head all night.

OP posts:
tallwivglasses · 23/09/2013 07:59

Hmm, what are the chances of you, your mum and the girls setting up together? It's a bit pie-in-the-sky but worth keeping your options open...

Lahti · 23/09/2013 08:36

Hi I used to get really stressed out if I didn't have a plan, but since starting this process I have chilled out a lot. My solicitor is fantastic £250 per hour but worth it. I have discovered that I need to stop reacting to his actions and put myself and DD first ALWAYS. My parents were away for 3 months when I did it but I just couldn't wait any longer... I told my sisters while it was happening and they were relieved but shocked at how abusive he was.
People really do notice what is happening to you. My sisters both commented on I now dress differently. Another thing that they did was that my STBXH and I always asked for vouchers etc for Xmas and birthdays. They realised that he was the one who actually wanted the vouchers and was using them for himself, so after a few years they stopped asking and bought an acual gift for me instead so that they knew I had received something iykwim.

Isetan · 23/09/2013 08:47

You're not staying for your kids, you're no martyr; you're staying because your scared, your staying because of financial security, you're staying because you don't want to 'fail', you're staying because its all-you-know.

If your husband and your dad aren't the type of men you want your girls to be in a relationship with, then show them different. Right now there getting the same relationship model as you had from your parents and look how that turned out.

By all means stay, but be honest about your reasons.

Isetan · 23/09/2013 08:49

Right now they're there getting the same relationship model as you had from your parents and look how that turned out.

QuintessentialShadows · 23/09/2013 09:10

I have just read this thread this morning, and in all the abuse, manipulation and control that he is exercising over you, I picked up on one thing:

"Before DH I was in a horribly abusive relationship for 2 years. It ruined me and I'm not sure I ever recovered. DH kind of rescued me from that and the only way I really broke free was by getting together with him. "

In the nicest possible way, he did not rescue you. He cherry-picked you.

I also agree with Isetan, you are not staying for the sake of the kids. It goes against all logic and all reason that your children is better off growing up in this atmosphere, learning how relationships are conducted, and what they can themselves expect in married life/their relationships. This is not in their best interest. Learning that women should be controlled by their husbands, manipulated, emotionally wretched, suffer emotional and sexual abuse by looking at their parents. They can see their role clearly, through you. Like you did. The circle of abuse will not end, you are passing this on to your daughters by staying.

You are staying because you are scared. You dont know how to leave.

I suggest you start making a plan. Slowly move your passports to your mothers house. Important documents such as birth and marriage certificates, bank statement and anything official you may need. Just in case.

NotHappyEither · 23/09/2013 11:06

That's what I'm going to do. Make a plan. I'm going to start looking for a job. I'm going to need one. I don't want to rely on any help from him. Last time we split up he didn't give me any money. I knew he had just enough to survive on and get a sensible place and that was good for the girls. If I get a job I should be able to manage on my own. It's lots to think about but I'll get going.

lahti I did the quick cut thing last time and I just couldn't cope. I will try to chill out but I need to know that I will be able to provide somewhere sensible for the dc and that we'll be able to afford to get by. Thank you for your comments, its nice to hear from someone further down the line!

OP posts:
Lahti · 23/09/2013 14:03

I felt like that re providing for DD but I realised that I wasn't even 'living' I was just existing. I remember thinking that I had had this convo once 5 yrs ago and I needed to do it again noweven though it was going to be harder due to having had DD and there was no way I was bloody doing it again in another 5 yrs. I have to say that STBXH had actually stepped up his efforts as a father and DD enjoys spending time with him.

YoniBottsBumgina · 23/09/2013 14:15

Check what benefits you would be entitled to as well. I know it's not a nice thought to rely on benefits, but that way at least it's not reliant on you getting a job first.

Plus, it would be sensible if you do get a job to make sure it's no more than part time - just in case (and this is very unlikely) he decides to try for custody. The favour will be keeping the status quo, so you want to make sure you are still main carer. Also, again, run a few different job/hour situations through the benefits calculator thing - once you work too many hours you go over the threshold for childcare which can make things tricky again.

Start looking in local papers, the ads at the end of supermarkets etc for rental prices near you - unless you have a high paid job, the estate agents won't touch you usually :(

MoreThanWords · 23/09/2013 15:23

I separated a year after I started a uni course and managed financially - albeit renting a house for me and the children. It's do-able. (And got a First, despite all his sh*t Grin)

Lweji · 23/09/2013 15:27

I don't remember from up the thread, but WA might be a good port of call for support.

Sending strength vibes.

Get as much info as you can and set yourself free.

StackOverflow · 23/09/2013 16:06

In response to your question upthread, OP: I've been great since I've separated from STBXH! I have fingernails again. I look and feel happier. I'm joyfully celibate at the moment - this may change again in the future, just can't stand the thought of 'having to' have sex with someone at the moment.

STBXH has decided that he absolutely must work for my employer recently. Bit of a headache - but nothing like the constant demands for sex.

Divinity · 23/09/2013 19:24

My ex left a couple of weeks before I went back to university full time. The benefits I discovered I was entitled to (single parent with young children) include child tax credit, 100% council tax, winter fuel allowance, free school meals, free prescriptions + dentist. ExH pays 20% maintenance for my two DSs. The school also has a uniform fund.

So there are benefits in place for exactly this kind of situation.

NotHappyEither · 25/09/2013 11:53

I am going to sound utterly pathetic here but my resolve is slipping already. Please help me make sense of this, I know from everything written above that the best option would be leaving but I am struggling so much at the moment.

I know it's a cliché but he is being so nice at the moment. Not forced nice, it doesn't feel like it's got any undertones or scheming behind it, he's just being really lovely. And this is the problem. I know he can be like this, he can be really helpful and understanding and kind. Nothing is too much trouble, we're getting along really well, having sensible conversations where he is listening to what I say. There's been no pressure to have sex since the other night. In fact I'm starting to feel guilty about not having sex because he is being so nice. Like I'm withholding sex from him. Then I wonder if actually maybe I do have issues around sex? It is possible isn't it? I know it's easy to say it's all down to the pressure he's put me under and all that but what if some how I've misunderstood the whole situation and going back, it was me that started all this? How will I ever know?

It actually makes me feel really sad. Why can't he just be like this all the time and then we would never have got to this point? Deep down I don't believe it will last forever but there's always this glimmer of hope that he will stay this way this time. I just feel broken. It's like every time I get angry or determined he ups his game. Why does he have to wait until I'm fed up. It doesn't make any sense.

It's lovely living in a peaceful and happy environment but I almost feel like I can't relax because I'm waiting for it to all start again. But then if I feel like that I'm not giving it a proper chance am I? Maybe something I'm doing starts the negative slide again? Could that happen? Could it be me that is the reason we go round in circles? I don't know. Sorry for waffling but I am on the verge of just saying 'oh never mind, it's fine' and I am torn in half over whether that or planning on leaving is the way forward. I'm driving myself mad.

OP posts:
Lweji · 25/09/2013 11:57

Honeymoon phase of the cycle of abuse.

Just ask yourself if you want to be in another weekend like this.

This is just another tactic to get the sex he wants.
If you keep not having, I bet his behaviour will escalate again.

there's always this glimmer of hope that he will stay this way this time
That's how he keeps you hooked.

Make the plan.
Even if you can't bring yourself to leave now, if you have the plan in place, in the next bad phase of the cycle you will find the anger to do it.

Lweji · 25/09/2013 11:58

Oh, and you are not pathetic.

It's a recognised effect of the cycle of abuse.

You are just like all of us who have been there. Sad

YoniBottsBumgina · 25/09/2013 12:22

"I almost feel like I can't relax because I'm waiting for it to all start again."

And this is the problem. This isn't what an actual happy, healthy, relaxed relationship looks like, because you cannot relax. Even the good times are spoiled by this, because you know he can, and probably will, turn again the minute something happens. The worst part is, you don't even know what the trigger is - something might happen and you might flinch and he carries on being nice, it's confusing. But you know deep down that he will flip again and you'll see the other side of him.

This is not you at fault, being unable to give him a "proper chance" - this is just what the (relatively) good times are like with an abuser. You are already feeling guilty that you aren't having sex, perhaps because you feel he deserves a reward, like a toddler who has behaved well all day? (Clue: You are not his mother. It is not up to you to reward him for good behaviour.) Or perhaps because you fear that eventually his threshold for patience at waiting for sex will reach his limit and that will be the trigger. I think this one is more likely, even though you might be more consciously aware of the first drive. In fact it is a combination of the two. This is a monumental effort for him. It's not his nature, or he'd be like this most of the time. He is making the effort because he knows you are unhappy and he wants to keep you sweet again. Perhaps not consciously - he may just literally believe this is how relationships work.

But be careful, he is not doing it because he feels guilty, because he wants it to be like this all the time, or out of the goodness of his heart, he is putting in extra effort because in his world this means that he deserves something back. And so, as a combination of the two, he will grow increasingly frustrated that his efforts are not getting any return (sex, or perhaps not just sex but general doting on him from you) and in his mind, he is not even getting the minimum/expected amount! (of sex and/or general servitude) He's getting even less! Your perception is "Oh, fantastic! He's behaving like a normal human being - perhaps we can have an equal, happy relationship after all!" and his perspective is "I'm putting in all this effort and getting nothing back! What a cheeky bitch, she's just taking it all!

If you imagine something, say, housework (I know your issue isn't housework but as an example) as being your responsibility, you'd be amazed and grateful if someone came and did 25% of it for you.

However, if you saw this housework as jointly yours and the other person's responsibility, ie 50% each, but they did only 25% leaving you to do 75%, you'd probably be pissed off and resentful at them about it.

Now imagine your perspective is the second one, but the other person's perspective is the first. They would be confused that you're pissed off, because in their mind they've just done you a massive favour. They would think you were ungrateful. Perhaps, as well, they were expecting payment for doing their share and now you have had the cheek first of all not to even mention payment, but to criticise their efforts and say they aren't good enough!

This is what your relationship will always be like. You are expecting 50% from him, he is expecting 100% from you and even when he puts in something, he will never understand that you have totally different expectations. You cannot resolve this, unless you totally sacrifice your entire sense of self to give in to his needs, and look where that gets you :( even then, it will probably never be good enough.

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