Thanks guys .
Am going to write this to help me make sense of how I'm feeling, please feel under no obligation to read it!
I'd thought I'd be ok, rationally I knew it was just flirting but with the promise of a friendship, but when I saw her this morning, I felt as sick as when I discovered my ex had been seeing someone. Perhaps there's a leftover issue there as well! Although I currently do seem to fancy every man I see at the moment, any flirting at all this time last year still made me feel very uncomfortable. I was in a sort of 'superprotective' mode, where no man (particularly a flirty one) was to be trusted at all. I'm a bit worried that I've returned to some of my old habits, where I did accept shoddy behaviour from men, because I was desperate to be liked. I honestly thought I'd moved on a long way from there, I recognise that a lot of men are actually nice, and that I deserve one of those ones. After all, I'm the prize, aren't I?
I think I'm upset because I allowed myself to be in a position to get hurt, and I thought I could protect myself.
I am pleased for him, well, I would be, if I thought he really was a nice guy, but he's ignored a couple of texts from me (one chatty one from Friday, and one today which was asking him for a favour), and left me on his dating phone, rather than his everyday phone. These things make me feel as though he really was just using me to flirt with until something better came along, and that hurts because now I feel like I've been dropped as a friend.
Pass the cocktails.