The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Whacking The Wine Witch Round The Chops (With Barry The Squid).

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Hello, I'm Mouse :)

I'm one of the Brave Babes who's travelling on this wonderful, magical, mysterious Bus, trying to hold onto my sobriety for me, and for my family.

I do drink but thanks to this Bus, I've kicked the vodka addiction into touch and the evil WineWitch has been banished far, far away so I now drink in a controlled manner, One Day At A Time. :)

By that, I mean that just for today, I won't be drinking. Tomorrow, however, I will be because it's a very special occasion. The day after will be dealt with when I wake, and the day after that, the day after etc.....

We're a Bus filled with some fantastic posters, some who drink, some who don't touch a drop ever and some who are on/off drinkers who have lovely warm seats in the side-car, some are hanging onto the roof-rack by the tips of their fingers and trying their best to resist the dreaded WineWitch's charms night after night. But they are trying, and that's all that any of us can do, is keep trying, keep starting again!

So, if you think that you're drinking too much (you probably are) why not come and say hi? We won't bite - unless you ask very nicely, manners cost nothing .

There's lots of seats so pick whichever one you like and have a . Just jump in, we're not a judgemental pack of quiche makers

And here's a bit of light reading for you.... our latest thread and the very first one, the reason we're all here.

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Afternoon, tis me, Mouse

Jeez woman!!! Don't ever do that again please, apologise I mean. You had every right to post how you felt, pissed or otherwise. YOU NEEDED TO LET IT OUT and thank Jeff, you did it here, amongst people who care about you xx

I'm glad that you are back sweetheart and I hope that you are going to feel much better about yourself tomorrow when the hangover fades xxxxx

Thelea - I was on Citalopram for anxiety, they really helped but not if I drank with them. Nuff said. I really hope that they work for you sweetheart xx

YAYAYAYAYAYAY for POO IN A POTTY!!! Great news Guggs

Purps - I'm good, mad busy setting up my sponsored hobble and helping a friend in need out but we're okay, the boy and me.

Your posts have been so up and down and even sad at times, I wish there was a little booth on the bus that I could fill with Nemo's Huggles?, they are amazingly lovely and make you feel fantastic. They cure everything, they really do. :) xx

Sorry not to read back properly, I will do later as DH isn't going to be back until late so I can MN for hours.

You are all so important to this Bus, each and every poster brings something that helps another Babe or another lurker! The power of sharing your feelings to a bunch of strangers really is amazing in my opinion and experience.

Sorry not to name you all but you're all fab!!! Back later xxx

theala did the psychiatrist just prescribe meds? no 'talking therapy' ?

I had a very bad experience with a psychiatrist who did just that, ticked boxes on a clipboard and then told me I needed drugs. I've seen about a dozen mental health professionals, NHS and private, and he was probably the worst of the lot.

I hope you found your psychiatrist more helpful? NHS guidelines say medication should be used as well as something like CBT. Sorry if that comes across as negative, I just know that sometimes you have to shop around to find someone you 'click' with.

Thanks Mouse. I've just been reading dire warnings about Citalopram, Xanax and alcohol, so that's a pretty hefty reason not to drink at the moment.

alias Just meds for the time being. In fairness, I just cried at her for half an hour, so I'm not sure I could have made any progress with talking therapy anyway. I'm hoping that the meds can calm me down enough so I can get my head straight for talking in the next few weeks.
She didn't offer this time, but I'll ask her about it the next time. She was a lovely woman, but I can't really say if we clicked or not yet.

(( Huggs Isinde )) Don't be sorry, you goose!!! xxxx

Hi all - the catastrophe (relatively anyway) did happen and im surviving a bit anyway. Im off to drink lots of wine and will come back tomorrow.

Sorry to hear that Full Please take care of yourself and post when you can. Plenty of water, vitamins and try and eat something nutritious. Take care. x

What's happened fullof? Sorry if you have already explained and I haven't followed properly.

isinde hope you feel ok and don't go anywhere.

theala you sound so sad. Really hoping for some good news for you.

'Lo there joey and mouse and purple and curry (don't go anywhere either, curry). Apologies for not name checking everyone.

Anyhow, I might have over played my hand in encouraging the poo-ing process. Ds sits on his potty, breathing in gasps and shouting "push!push" aka OBEM. I have a large box of 'Poo prizes' directly in front of ds. And today it worked. I think I should be allowed to make a tearful speech, thanking the people who make potties,toddler wipes,etc etc. lol!

Lovely idea for a huggle booth Mouse. You are right, I'm really struggling just now. I have an 'outer' persona which is strong, capable and fun. The other persona is pretty troubled. The first is a mask and hides the less publicly acceptable face. Had a bit of a hissy fit (justified) at DC's tonight. Homework, housework etc. Explained to DD that had loads to do and no help. They tidied up the sitting room/dining room (including the dining room table - aka the dumping ground!!) and gave me big hugs. Don't want to 'put' on them but an age-appropriate explanation worked - today.

! Poo prizes!!??

full of wassup?talk to us
Loads of people to name check and problems to ask about but I need to talk to indie.
Don't you ever fucking dare to speak like that about yourself again lady! You contribute with every post, with your compassion, with your humour, with your shitelovely poetry. I have met you and you are fabulous. I love you, but obviously in an non-sapphic sort of way, just in case you were getting any ideas . You are going NOWHERE! I am still on this bus and still drinking ( and taking citalopram BTW. It doesnt kill you, just stops it being very efficient)
So, shut it babe. I have put you on Barriewatch so behave yourself OR ELSE.

curry you will get housed soon. I've heard the salvation army has some nice places

I said earlier that pain, emotional upset, heartache, difficulties were subjective. They are but, sometimes something we see can smack us in the face. This clip was awe inspiring and guilt making for me. The faces of the children say it all. Not a cruelty vid - just dogged determination, inspiration and a total lack of self pity. This guy is amazing. Tears here - again. xxxxxxx

theala okay that's great that she was lovely, and you're probably right - it would be better to wait for the meds to kick in before getting all deep with emotions.

Sorry, I was just bringing up my bad experience. And anyway, I know counselling isn't a magic fix (after years of therapy, I'm still taking the drugs!) I hope you feel better soon.

purple that video is incredible - what an amazing guy. Going to send it to everyone I know!

Makes me feel really humble Ma He's fighting against more than I could even imagine. xxx

I know, and he's so upbeat and funny. Inspirational. Makes me feel ashamed of my recent whinging about stuff.

Me too Ma. x

Hey Babes - just in case anyone else is thinking of doing a runner, I have adapted the words of K.C. and the Sunshine Band 'specially for our bus

Babes, I love you so
I want you to know
That I'm goin' to miss your posts
The minute you step off the bus

So please don't go, don't go
Don't go away
Please don't go, don't go
I begging you to stay

If you leave, I wish you well
I hope your plans come true
I was blessed to share the sidecar
With someone as wonderful as you

But please don't go, don't go
Don't go away
Please don't go, don't go
I begging you to stay

Hey, Barraaayay

Babes, I love you so
I want you to know
That I'm goin' to miss our catch ups
The minute you step off this bus

So please don't go, don't go
Don't go away

Hey, hey, hey, I need you all

I'm down on my knees
Picking opal fruits
Don't go, don't you hear me, Babes

Don't leave me now, oh, no, no, no, no
Please don't go, I want you to know
That I value you so
Don't leave me, Babe
Please don't go...

Nuff said?

Love it

Great stuff, Faire!

What's going on Fullofhopefullness?

well done on getting the dcs on board, Purple.

Ma - I can't wait for the Sally Army to sort us out. Sounds blissful. And I can play several brass instruments, so I could help them out with all that too, in return for keep.

Have a good night all. I am on the chocolate biscuits and tea. Decaf this time.

What are you up to tonight, Isinde?

Last time I saw Barry he was wearing your cap and sitting in the driving seat Inde. Better buckle up

Choccy bics sound good curry, I'm on the hot chocolate here. So cold again today, I put the heating on! In May

I know, Faire. I have been carrying my gloves around for weeks, not getting around to putting them away, and found myself wearing them today!

ma if we're all joining the Sally Army band, I can play the triangle?

Okay Babes do we need to sound the the klaxon for fullof ? I can't remember what the procedure is - does mouse have to give the order, or can anyone do it?