The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Whacking The Wine Witch Round The Chops (With Barry The Squid).

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Hello, I'm Mouse :)

I'm one of the Brave Babes who's travelling on this wonderful, magical, mysterious Bus, trying to hold onto my sobriety for me, and for my family.

I do drink but thanks to this Bus, I've kicked the vodka addiction into touch and the evil WineWitch has been banished far, far away so I now drink in a controlled manner, One Day At A Time. :)

By that, I mean that just for today, I won't be drinking. Tomorrow, however, I will be because it's a very special occasion. The day after will be dealt with when I wake, and the day after that, the day after etc.....

We're a Bus filled with some fantastic posters, some who drink, some who don't touch a drop ever and some who are on/off drinkers who have lovely warm seats in the side-car, some are hanging onto the roof-rack by the tips of their fingers and trying their best to resist the dreaded WineWitch's charms night after night. But they are trying, and that's all that any of us can do, is keep trying, keep starting again!

So, if you think that you're drinking too much (you probably are) why not come and say hi? We won't bite - unless you ask very nicely, manners cost nothing .

There's lots of seats so pick whichever one you like and have a . Just jump in, we're not a judgemental pack of quiche makers

And here's a bit of light reading for you.... our latest thread and the very first one, the reason we're all here.

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Back on the bus after separating from my husband :( need to stop drinking even more now I am a single mum but been a bit in denial as need it as my emotional anaesthetic recently. Feeling focused more now...

fuzzy welcome back. I hope the break wasn't too hard
sorry, did you say something?
Heard from bro - taken all his meds, had his hair cut, keeping occupied doing xword puzzles and now 24 hours alcohol free!
Just discovered that dd1 is coming home tomorrow, not Wednesday! Eek

(PS Ma The girl done good for her brother. Hugs)

Thanks ma - still hard but that's to be expected. Drinking too much so today is day 1...

Fuzzy From one single Mum to another - best of luck with Day 1. x

Been reading about the Allen Carr book.....should I buy it?

I think so ma although im not so good just now. I found it sensible and inspirational.

Hi all - good luck to those on day 1 xx
Ma - good news about Richard x
Alias - good luck with trying to quit completely.

Night all - hoping for another good nights sleep xx

Today I have given up for good - again!!

Ha ha thanks baby for reply I bet you don't look like shit just feel it!! Surely if we all cleaned up our acts for a bit we'd start to get our bounce back and shine bright like a diamond!!? I'm doing ok in that I've turned a corner at the moment. Had such an awful row with dp and I think it was fueled by my mood from drinking and his lack of respect for me due to drinking. Found it easy to stop for a whole week after and then we had a wedding party wkend and dp had already said I didn't need to stop drinking completely just wen I'm in a bad mood! Well obviously we drank over the wkend and as usual I took it too far and ended up starting another row:-( so now I'm dry again and thats how I'm going to stay for long enough to really feel a difference this time. Also starting a new exercise routine to start to get the feel good factor again. Oh and another thing which strikes me is that the constant guilt and anxiety over our drinking I think just makes our self esteem so much lower doesn't it? So I'm going to hold off making any big decisions in my life til my head is a little clearer:-/ I'm on day 5 now.....

oh ma so glad that Richard is in a safe place - that must be such a weight off your shoulders after the weekend. Richard's story and the youtube video that babyJ posted earlier are such a reminder of what happens at the bottom of this slippery slope. And far too many of us know just how incredibly hard it is to cling on to our precarious position halfway up (or halfway down). An inch in either direction may not seem much, but inch by inch we are moving in one direction or the other....

Evening, tis me, mouse

I'm knackered. What a day.

Ma - I am beyond pleased that Richard has settled and done some 'normal things' today. God bless him and his soul. I hope with all of my heart that this time, this time is the last time that he will ever have to face his demons. xx

dough? - cake? I can live with that!

Today was very hard. We were expecting answers and results from bloods that were taken during surgery last November when Nemo was in for a cleft palate operation. Said bloods are M.I.A. which may have had my blood boiling for a short while but luckily, the Genetics Team at St Mary's in Manchester are fantastic and managed to get a decent saliva swab from my scared little boy.

They stripped him down to his nappy, examined him and looked at his back, which he's said it hurts him for some time. DH said he was copying me and of course that is feasible but I knew there was more to it because it was all of the time. I knew there was more to it.

Turns out he has asymmetrical shoulder blades, rather severely as it happens and a curve in his spine, plus a shorter than normal distance between his lower skull/base of his neck and his shoulders. We don't know what that means yet. But I am NOY GOOGLING!!

But he's been ace, a real little super star. Sorry to not read back properly and catch up but it's been a heck of a day and I'm shattered, he's only just gone off to sleep...... over excited with his present (Cars 2 Micro Drifters Race track) for which the bloody cars cost a Squillianton pounds from some places and the rest are duplicates! Grr.

Anywho, will be back in the morning :)

Night Babes, Sorry not to name you all but I am thinking of you all and will read back.

Sleep well xxxx

'NOT' FFS!

Tired typing. xx

purple and curry and ALL BABES I find it quite interesting that so many of us are of the mix where we are reluctant to call for attention, yet feel left out when no-one pays us attention, yet hate it when anyone does, yet love it when somebody notices. And also when one of the babes shouts out about it, the majority of us think 'shit - that was me that ignored her', we're people who find it easier to give support than to ask for it, yet feel irritated when people ask too much of us.

I'm sure there must be a personality type analysis that puts all those traits together and labels them as 'people who are on mn posting about their alcohol problems'

Thanks isinde. Good wishes to you xx and all of you. About to watch stephen nolan on depression on bbc 1!! Might be regional though.

stella I think the guilt / anxiety stuff about drinking is just so tiring

It really is easier just to stop.

Sorry meant might be just local?

Definitely tiring!:-( sorry some serious stuff cross posted with me and going on in general and I waffle on about trivial crap. Just I'm starting to see how my cycle goes on and on although partly a physical real addiction as its been there since I was old enough to acquire alcohol:-/ but also mentally it puts you down so that you feel you need it. Right now I hate what its done to me so can leave it and I'm glad that its now and not before something terrible like losing my kids but who's to say I will stop? Hmm right I'm going to scrol back to find this vid baby posted.

Dearest tired Mouse, you know my feelings on this but I'm going to say it again. Of all the mothers for Nemo to have been 'issued', he got the 'lottery win' with you. You fight for him despite your own health issues, you fight for his treatments, for someone to listen, you stay with him when other's may have been worn down so much they couldn't stay, you are there for him, day and night, you love him beyond everything. He may have pulled the short straw with health but he certainly got the jackpot with you. Strange to say, but he's a lucky boy. xxxxxx

Stella - it's amazing, and cutting to the quick because she is so young (compared to me) and yet knows just what drinking does to you, me, others. xx

Agree with purple 100%