The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Whacking The Wine Witch Round The Chops (With Barry The Squid).

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Hello, I'm Mouse :)

I'm one of the Brave Babes who's travelling on this wonderful, magical, mysterious Bus, trying to hold onto my sobriety for me, and for my family.

I do drink but thanks to this Bus, I've kicked the vodka addiction into touch and the evil WineWitch has been banished far, far away so I now drink in a controlled manner, One Day At A Time. :)

By that, I mean that just for today, I won't be drinking. Tomorrow, however, I will be because it's a very special occasion. The day after will be dealt with when I wake, and the day after that, the day after etc.....

We're a Bus filled with some fantastic posters, some who drink, some who don't touch a drop ever and some who are on/off drinkers who have lovely warm seats in the side-car, some are hanging onto the roof-rack by the tips of their fingers and trying their best to resist the dreaded WineWitch's charms night after night. But they are trying, and that's all that any of us can do, is keep trying, keep starting again!

So, if you think that you're drinking too much (you probably are) why not come and say hi? We won't bite - unless you ask very nicely, manners cost nothing .

There's lots of seats so pick whichever one you like and have a . Just jump in, we're not a judgemental pack of quiche makers

And here's a bit of light reading for you.... our latest thread and the very first one, the reason we're all here.

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FIRST EVER THREAD

Just read Trinity's thread. My God, how sad. They say that lightning doesn't strike twice. Just like to say, "oh yes, it fucking well does..." Nuff said.

Thank you Baby. I guess, in the beginning, I had the strength of launching myself, newly 'outed', to HCP (and myself). Second (or third, or fouth etc) time round, it's a little harder to find the impetus - even though I know that's the only option. Will look up the vid later. xxxx

Curry Please, please don't be sorry. I had a shit week where I was let down by the HCP, my body (fucking ankle, fucking back!!), finances, my XP and my children played up - which I can normally deal with. I think I put all my 'eggs in one basket' here and, as we all know, we all have hectic lives/demons/problems and I'd hate to think anyone felt, in anyway, responsible. Just me being needy.

Curry Shy of asking? You are so right that I need to keep on banging on to get help but I have huge self-worth issues. I would fight tigers off if my children were involved but, for me, I struggle to see why anyone would bother. Any 're-buff' just (ridiculously) confirms my view that I'm 'just not worth it'. Just historical shit that's hard to shift, I suppose.

Please, all, forgive me for my tantrum. All I can say is that this is the only place I have felt that, if I had a hissy fit, people might listen. I suppose that's a baby step forward?

Stupidly teary now. Thanks all. xxxxxx

curry I love your posts x x x

Green I know you're right. It's just so not me to be the 'squeaky wheel'. And, yes, I know I should be. Not Barrie! Please?! xxxxxxx

purple stupidly teary too at your post x x x

Baby you've made me worse!! (( )) xxx

Phoned to find out why the Dr hadn't replied. Got bounced to pharmacy in case she'd done a repeat prescription. She hadn't. Suffered the embarrassment of explaining predicament to both the reception woman and the pharmacist - only to end up back at reception. Had to make a new appt but it's not for a week. Fuck!!

purple you sound just like me! The whole "if they don't contact me, it means I'm not worth it" thing. It's so hard to believe in ourselves, no doubt we are taught for years to put others first.

And, as greeny says (and ma and her brother know only too well ) it really is those who keep on shouting who get seen. Just try and think of yourself more kindly, you do deserve more.

Last year during a bit of a mental crisis, I asked to be referred to the mental health team. By the time I got a letter through I was feeling better anyway. But the letter had no signature or name on it. And I pathetically thought "they can't really care about me if they don't even sign the letter" and never contacted them

So - I totally get where you are coming from. But pick up the phone and do it anyway, okay? We can do it together - I have to go to the GP this afternoon, and am dreading it in case they think I'm wasting their time.

Sorry - x-posted.

Can you demand a sooner appointment? Okay, I KNOW how hard it is for us to demand anything - but look back over the last couple of weeks, and know that you need more help and support.

I have just watched that YouTube video #babyjane# Oh my goodness, absolutely heartbreaking

Sorry to jump in, but just had to share that. Think his story is going to haunt me for a while. What a shame.

almost I know it was hard to watch but I feel so so lucky that I'm nowhere close to that but to think we're drinking the same poison is scary, I know today I will not drink and if seeing that helps anyone on this bus, then it's worth it x x x

I've just watched the first bit and the last bit. Seen my Mum in this state, luckily, she's still alive and not drinking. Very, very sobering video.

The video is very painful and very moving Baby. Poor bloke. xx

Joey A bit like Mouse a few pages back, if I get an earlier appointment it will be with a doctor that doesn't know my full history and I'll have to go over the painful, embarrassing. tearful shit all over again. TBH I'm struggling to go back at all as I feel like she's let me down in not getting back to me last week when I phoned. After the first meeting I trusted her and believed her when she said we'd sort this out together. Sigh. Still (pulls big pants on purposefully and stuffs a few green Opal Fruits in her gob!) this isn't a popularity contest - it's about my health - and my children's well being. Laughable that, if this were anything about my children, a friend of mine, even XP, I'd be hammering on desks and not taking 'no' for an answer.

Purps You just start hammering on desks and not taking no for an answer. Because you're worth it.....

purple if you do not value yourself enough (and you bloody well should) then think of how your well being affects your kids and get on that phone and demand an emergency appointment, you deserve to be happy and anything they can do to facilitate that then they better had or BabyJ will give them a Glasgow Kiss x x x

Thank you Lemony! Baby you made me laugh out loud with your 'Glasgow kiss' comment! Not how I pictured you at all! Thanks lovely ladies! xxx

Nobody puts purple in the corner xxx

@ Baby! xx

DS2 has just up-chucked over sofa, carpet, kitchen cabinets and kitchen sink. He'd been eating cheese. Ewwwwww! Nuff said!

PS Poor little sod! x

Well done for chasing purple x posted with curry . curry you are far from a non entity on here. There are two of your posts which I think about often and have found inspiring. I'm sorry to all babes I appear to ignore, I'm very busy and I read then jump in and out again if I have something to add to the conversation, which is often just a quick response to one babe not acknowledging other posts in between.

feeling the love on the bus today
curry havent chatted for ages..you make a vaild point that a few of us have experienced how hard it is to get the help we need from medical services. its true they are overstretched, desperately so, but also there is a lack of understanding. The GP who told us "take him home, tell him to have no alcohol and bring him back sober tomorrow" just didnt quite get it!!!

Not up to watching the video yet but I will
Richard safely booked into the Sally Army....he was a bit overwhelmed and confused but up for it. Took him to a cafe to say cheerio and he was shaking so much he couldnt lift a tea cup so had to drink through a straw! He is taking the meds and has txted to say he has had his hair cut! All good. The people there are lovely, even if accommodation is a bit basic but he is safe, warm and looked after for which I give thanks to God/gods/Jeff or whoever. Mum a bit sad to have to leave him but he can have visitors so DH will take her up on Wednesday.
Hope mouse had a good day with the little fish.
indie venus how are you?

oh, forgot to add - for those having to meet with different medical people all the time, I have kept a diary about Richard every day and I email it to them or take it with me so I dont have to keep going over it.
Top tip for the day!!!

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Just checking in because life has got stupidly busy again. Really glad purple is still here and all other babes too.

Good luck to nemo and Richard. Hopes for a calm and sober week for all.

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The doctor was lovely Really kind and caring. But she did prescribe a drug I've never even heard of lofepramine? and the side effects can include insomnia, so I'm now in knots worrying about it.

I have about 200ml of wine left tonight, actually it's a very odd feeling - I want the alcohol but dread it at the same time. Feel relieved knowing that after tonight I'll be dry until the weekend. I really ought to quit completely.