The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Wondering Where The Spring For Their Boing Is!

[Mouseface]

Hi I'm Mouse

One of the Brave Babes on the Bus, a Bus full of different posters, some who drink more than they'd like to and are trying to stop, some who don't drink at all now, and some who are somewhere in the middle. :)

There's no judging here, no finger pointing, no rejection, just pure, unconditional, (occasionally tough), love and empathy.

We all share stories of how we got here, to have our seat on the Bus, looking for our own personal sobriety, our own personal happiness. Sometimes we talk about other things too, you know, like cake, cheese and even day to day life, life that can lead us to breaking point......... lead us to hit rock bottom.

So, why not come say hi, take a seat, post, lurk, whatever suits you :)

This is our latest journey with a link to others

And this is the reason we're ALL here, the first ever thread

Hope to see you soon :)

[guggenheim]

Hi lovely babes,

Yay! koala well done! Fantastic news Bet you feel great.

jwn wow! very exciting

mouse you were quite right about booze and driving. I've not driven the car on the same evening I've had a drink but I frequently drove the morning after. I know several lovely people in aa who have driven whilst drunk and it's a devastating, humiliating experience. Who would want to cause an accident or end up in a police cell overnight? Too right to flag up the dangers. and breeaathe.....

I'm off out on a hot date with dh. Had a lovely pm playing with ds in the park, hoping it might have worn the little blighter out no chance
End of term!!! whoo hoo!

[babyjane1]

jwn you sound happy as a lark, I'm chuffed and guggs enjoy your date ps s/s is spring summer collection ( I only know this cos I read the glossy mags, I'm team primark all the way) I'm rockin day 4 x x x

[determinedma]

Hi all
koala as always you impress me so much. Well done.
mouse dd is still having back problems. She has weekly private Physio which is costing us a fortune, plus acupuncture, plus being taped up. Nothing seems to work. Even the Physio has said all they can do is temporary pain relief.she has been "fast tracked" to see a consultant which means the letter from GP went in a month ago, and we only now have a letter saying she is on a waiting list and MIGHT get an appointment in 12 weeks. Still no MRI scan. They wont do it.she wears insoles which she had made when she was in Spain, but nothing seems to help

[FuzzyInTheMorning]

Thanks mouse!
Day 3 and struggling but no alcohol in the house apart from one warm beer. Not exactly tempted by that! Cherry juice and crisps for me...

[kateissotired]

Watching masterchef with a glass of vimto, everyone is in the pub. I am getting texts to join them but I know I will be on the wine within 10 minutes

[ThisIsMyTime]

Hi everyone day one for me two bottles of wine last night and I'm riddled with anxiety today hate this feeling, hope to feel better tomorrow

[kateissotired]

Hello time, I am not sure I am the best person to offer advice, but try and look after yourself, tea or hot vimto, and settle into the settee and watch tv or get involved with a good book. The anxiety will reduce tomorrow

[determinedma]

Must admit I'm not even trying to stop at the moment. I have Easter and then a week out of work with a friend visiting, so I'm not setting myself up to fail.I know that's a bad thing to write and to read for all the babes who are out there struggling,but its where I am. I'll stay in the sidecar for now and try and regroup

[ThisIsMyTime]

Thanks Katie any support is appreciated. I normally get to day 3 and think I deserve one its not that bad and I seem to have forgot about the terrible anxiety I suffer after a binge. Onwards and upwards from here hopefully

[kateissotired]

The reason I should not be offering advice is that I am still cringing after the run in with the friend, who is with my other friends at the pub. I am worried I am the talk of the table, but I know I should be focussing on myself, and getting better. I went to AA today and found it really really helpful, and friendly and supportive.

[babyjane1]

kate well done on AA, I'm sure when they see the huge effort you are making they will come round. mytime we have all been in your situation but tomorrow will look better, don't beat yourself up it will make you feel even more anxious, tomorrow drink a ton of water, eat well and if you can find time for a bubble bath and face pack I promise things will look a whole lot better, hugs to you x x x

[aliasjoey]

ma that's not such a bad thing, it's understanding your weaknesses, planning and controlling... better than attempting the impossible, failing and then going too far in the opposite direction as some kind of self punishment. (Been there, done that)

3 busy days ahead - two nights saying with relatives and then a wedding on Sunday. Tomorrow, I'll have a bath and an early night. The wedding, I'm not going to drink until after we've eaten, I can't remember what time the meal is, but if it's early I won't start drinking until at least 6pm.

Saturday, I guess will be the same, no wine until we have eaten. It's really hard seeing everyone else most people drinking (when you really think about it, actually quite a few people don't drink, funny how we don't seem to notice that) but anyway they can limit or control their drinks and I CAN'T so there's no point in envying them.

I'll try and check in, if only briefly, just to remind myself that you're all here.

[ThisIsMyTime]

Morning babes day 2 had ok sleep have work today so hope I feel better than yesterday hope everyone is ok x

[guggenheim]

Morning babes,

katie good for you for resisting the pub, it would be too easy to cave in and have a drink , much better to stay away until you're able to stay sober/ just have the one/ whatever it is you're choosing to do.

thisis good -day one over and done with The anxiety will decrease too. Even getting to day 3 and then having a drink is loads better than every day or binging, so well done.

baby so good to see you here x. I should have pretended that I knew what s/s was really shouldn't I? lol. I 'spect that you are one of these glamourous babes too.Here's to day 5 - that's pretty much a week!

Love the sophisticated drinking- vimto, cherry juice, I had a coke. Cheap dates us lot!

joey enjoy the wedding, that's a good plan re: drinking. Are you wearing the yellow flouncy number then?

[FuzzyInTheMorning]

Day 1. Again :(((

[babyjane1]

What happened fuzzy? What triggered it, I had a minor argument with dh and literally put my jacket on to go and get wine, it was like a reflex! Anyway I reminded myself that wine is no longer the answer to
Everything. For example I drink when I'm happy, I drink when I'm sad, I drink when I'm lonely and I drink when I have company, I drink when
The kids do my head in, I drink when my mum has them to give
Me a break, see the pattern emerging!!!! Anyway we are all in it together and well done you for being honest and starting again, every day without wine is a job well done x x x

[FuzzyInTheMorning]

I found a crate of beer on the patio from when we had friends round last week. Had one thinking it won't hurt, then another, then another....:(

[babyjane1]

We have all done it, me dozens of times so remember your among friends and keep posting x x

[Mouseface]

Afternoon, tis me, Mouse

Koala - amazing work!!! Well done you. Do you feel like doing a few thousand cartwheels? I think you are absolutely bloomin' fab to have reached 3 whole months. Fantastic news :) xxxx GO YOU!!!!

Fuzzy - what Baby said, with some hugs thrown in xx

Ma - it's stupid isn't it? Can I ask you what meds she is on? I'm assuming that she has to pay for her prescriptions too? The tape has come off after a whole two days and I feel dreadful today. I feel like someone has kicked me in the crotch because I've had a busy week.

Does DD find the same? If she's moving about a lot, her pain levels go through the roof? Big squidges to her, I so feel her pain. If you like, you can give her my email address, I'll PM it to you and maybe we can chat about treatments that we've had and see if there's anything one of us hasn't tried yet? Would that be okay?

I'm full of a cold too..... coughed for most of last night so feel like a right old moaning mini today!!

joey - enjoy yourself at the wedding :) xx

JWN - S/S? Oh my days, you better have a clear out hadn't you to make room for the new collections? Or will you just move DH out?

[aliasjoey]

guggs you mean the one I wanted to wear as bridesmaid to purple wedding?! Ha! I'd forgotten about that - you have a good memory! No, they did not ask me to be bridesmaid

[aliasjoey]

Well I hope this weekend isn't going to be a disaster. The reason is we're sleeping in a house/hotel full of DHs relatives, and something horrible happened last night and I'm dreading a repeat. I sometimes have night terrors, not for a while - but last night I had a doozy. I have a vague sense of a presence in the room, and start screaming my head off! Unlike a nightmare, you can't really remember what it was about, other than a sense of terror. DH who is scared witless, tried to shut me up by putting his hand over my mouth! (He is half-asleep) I pointed out that feeling someone try to smother me would only increase my terror, but as he said it was sheer instinct.

I'm really worried if I have another one it will wake up a hotel full of strangers! Or DH will accidentally suffocate me, and a murder investigation would put a bit of a damper on the wedding... I don't think alcohol either helps or makes it worse. (But it would take away some anxiety about getting off to sleep)

[Mouseface]

when I read that about your DH trying to quieten you by putting his hand over your mouth made my blood run cold.



Do you think that something triggered it? I know not everyone believes in ghosts, beings or whatever, but I do IMO, and that you could've sensed a 'presence' in the room which triggered your night terrors/reactions to kick in, making you scream and make you leap out of your skin.

Poor you and no, the alcohol wouldn't have helped, in fact, it would exacerbate your night terrors sweets, but you know that.

((HUGS)) Maybe have a word with DH and tell him not to try and smother you but to carefully and gently wake you if he can instead. Or at least try to hold you so you don't fall out of bed or hurt yourself.

[determinedma]

Hey mouse thanks for pm. Bought dd a support belt kind of thing to see if that helps. She has a lot of pain in her hips now too. I am going to ring the go on Tuesday when they reopen and use the red flag symptoms to try and get things moving. Say she has pain spreading below the knees and numbness. Not entirely true but this has been over 6 months now and we have tried everything and paid ourselves for Physio and even private gym membership to see if sauna helps.
We dont pay for prescriptions here but we have paid out for everything else. I just wish she was pain free and back to enjoying life as a 19 year old should be

[aliasjoey]

Thanks mouse the problem is that DH is only half-awake and not thinking straight. I've just been googling and the main triggers are stress and poor sleep patterns. Both of which I have. Last year when I had very bad insomnia, I had several of these sleep terror episodes, so I think there is a connection. Am just going to have to try and get more sleep. But with a wedding and the damn clocks going forward this weekend (!) it might be a struggle.

ma your poor DD! It must be so hard at such a young age to be in pain. Of course it's hard at any age, but you know what I mean!

[PurpleWolfe]

Feeling so so sad tonight. I'm handing the dog over to someone else, to take care of her, tomorrow. They are a lovely couple and I know she's going to be spoilt rotten - and I know it's the best thing for her. They have another Giant Schnauzer that they resucued and are going to take time and patience to introduce them to each other. I'm so happy that she will have a constant companion in her dotage. She gets lonely here. It hasn't helped that they wanted some more photos of her life so I've been back through the photo archives. Lots of lovely sunny photos of happy dog and happy children - happy times. They have the time and money to look after her in her old age so it will be comfortable and happy - she's even going to be allowed on the sofa! It is the right thing to do but it's not easy. Gonna be such a mess tomorrow.