The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Wondering Where The Spring For Their Boing Is!

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Hi I'm Mouse

One of the Brave Babes on the Bus, a Bus full of different posters, some who drink more than they'd like to and are trying to stop, some who don't drink at all now, and some who are somewhere in the middle. :)

There's no judging here, no finger pointing, no rejection, just pure, unconditional, (occasionally tough), love and empathy.

We all share stories of how we got here, to have our seat on the Bus, looking for our own personal sobriety, our own personal happiness. Sometimes we talk about other things too, you know, like cake, cheese and even day to day life, life that can lead us to breaking point......... lead us to hit rock bottom.

So, why not come say hi, take a seat, post, lurk, whatever suits you :)

This is our latest journey with a link to others

And this is the reason we're ALL here, the first ever thread

Hope to see you soon :)

Awww, so glad to read this.

Good for nemo. What a brave boy - and he's lucky he has a such a strong mum.

Night night mouse.

Mouse, you and Nemo are amazing!

Darling Mouse, well done little Nemo, what a brave boy you have, if we're all so proud of him, heaven knows how you must feel about his progress, what a star!

Just read from your post to Venus that you're doing Nemo's DLA forms every year, is that right?! That is terrible, those forms are a killer, I have to fill them in for DS and my nephew and they are rotten forms to fill in, an absolte mare. Luckily DS was awarded a 3 year 'award' which means I don't have to fill in the forms that often? It's outrageous that you have to apply every year, I hope this latest set of forms give you a decent break and you don't have to fill them in again for some time?

Hello, 1st time here

I went to the drs yesterday because I'm worried about how much I drink, she said I'd need to have a test to check the damage to my liver before I got any help. Is this definite, I think I'd rather not know and just stop drinking. I don't drink all the time, just evenings - after 7 - never during the day.

Also want to say well done to everyone on this thread, hoping to get to where you are

Afternoon, tis me, Mouse

Yep, for some reason Hooty - I have another but I suspect that it's because they are scrapping DLA in favour of PIP (except for under 16s) so I am sat with a very sore back doing the last few bits so that on Monday, I can copy everything I need to and get it off to the fuckers. It is exhausting.

I keep copies of everything so it always costs me a tonne to copy new stuff, and you can bet your ass they'll want something doing again!!

Hello Chef :) xx

Right, back to it so I can come back later. These forms are enough to drive you to drink!

Yes, yes, yes to photocopying everything Mouse, can you imagine if it all got lost in the post and you had no back-up copy? I hope this time Nemo gets a longer award and you don't have to go through those forms for ages, all those questions asking the same darned thing over and over again!

I didn't drink as much as I usually would have last night, 4 drinks and fell asleep on the sofa before I could drink the 5th. Had a stinking headache all day so definitely not picking up again tonight and rather than beat myself up I kept busy and will try and carry on as I have been.

Hope all the babes are OK tonight x

Got some wine tonight. DH has invited the in-laws over for tea tomorrow, and I'm anxious just thinking about it. He said could I "extend an olive branch"

God I don't know what to do, I mean obviously I will be civil and so will they... not sure what I'm worried about really?

Also, I have the 'wrong' amount of wine - too much to drink tonight, but how to stop myself guzzling it all.

Thank you Hooty

I'm so tired, off to bed, rock n roll!! Hope you're feeling okay and not drinking? Be brave and go to bed early, catch up on the shit sofa sleep xx

Joey - You will drink whatever you want to, none of us can tell you otherwise, do what feels right. If you need to neck the lot of get it out of your system then do it. Otherwise, drink a glass or two and GO TO BED! Don't let others get the better of you. Rise above it.

I know that your anxiety will be through the roof sweetheart, how else can you cope tomorrow? Tonight? You'll be on the back foot if you're hung over tomorrow and you know that. It's your call, hit the FUCK IT button or go to bed. Either way, you have my support for the way you'll feel.

Big hugs Babe xxxx

Night to all of the lovely Brave Babes. Take good care, night xxxxx

Joey I would like to add to Mouse's support. It's your call, my friend.

I bet that they will turn up and act as if nothing has happened. Clean state. Whatever happens, just start again. You said your piece, they know how you feel and that's it. They can make a big deal of it or they can just accept it and move on.

Thank you babes you make so much sense. Clean slate etc.

Unfortunately, I can be relaxed about it now as have had a few drinks. I don't know if I will feel the same tomorrow! this is why I drink, right now it doesn't seem to matter so much, if only that could continue til tomorrow...

Will be thinking of you today Joey. xx

Thanks purple I'm really anxious about it, although not sure why??

How are your fleas today?

Joey The thought of the day ahead is, most probably, going to be far worse than the reality. Nod, smile and don't forget to breathe!

As for the fleas - I think the last lot of spraying the carpets has improved matters. No new bites that I can see at the moment. If the fleas don't have a 'host' and, therefore, can't feed - they can't reproduce, can they??

at how are your fleas today?
Between that and the squid, this is like a travelling circus!

Hi Ma How's things with you now? x

I think I may have got my mojo back again

Afternoon, tis me, Mouse

Sorry I've not been around but I have finally finished Nemo's fucking DLA renewal!! THANK FUCK!!

I am so so so knackered. My head hurts! Plus all of the stirred up PTSD was nice I don't think the people who dream these forms up have any idea of just how much they can upset the person filling them in.

Anyway, done and dusted, for a while now I hope. I'm hoping that because he's nearly 4, he'll not have to do one for the usual 3 years? Who knows with this stupid bunch of Barry fodder we have running the country!

Joey - how yo holding out sweets?

Purps - re the fleas, nope, if there's no source of food as such, they die off and you're clear.

Ma - I second Purps, how's things?

I pegged my washing out, all the bedding, gorgeous sunny day, blowy and drying a treat. DH out in the garden planting my colourful view for me then disaster struck. Bloody washing line snapped, all my nice clean bedding hitting the floor.

Luckily, it was mostly dry so just a case of shaking the soil and leaves off :) Thanks MotherfuckingNature

Tomorrow is a day for planning.... Nemo is 4 on Thursday but we're kinda holding off a 'party' because he's not great with crowds, noise, sharing etc so my folks are coming over on Sunday but I'm going to get him a mini cake for his actual day.

I have a cake topper (Nemo) and some cupcake toppers for the weekend.

I sat thinking about the last four years last night when he'd woken and was in my arms snuggling close to me. I sat remembering the dreadful night I had to call DH and tell him just how poorly our baby was. I sat there thinking about the first 'word' he said and then about the first time he laughed, a real, hearty belly laugh that made me cry, then the PICU visits, the pain, the scars he has that are physical memories he'll always see and wonder what they are, but I'll always remember....

Our children cause us so much heartache and yet so much joy. Big squidges to those in need today, off to bath the fish and then back later to pop in for a catch up. Lots to do tomorrow..... I am so pleased that I am finally getting some time off from Nemo when he's in school. I so need it, as much as I adore and miss him, I need it. :)

Hi babes, hope everyone has been having a good weekend.

Had to go to Next today to get trousers with voucher mil got me for my Birthday. Saw my full appearance in the 3 mirrors...this was not good!

Diet for real starts now, have bought 4 big cans of slimfast and goal is to lose 2 stone.

Day 78 here. Skin, hair, mood all improved although house has won the battle for now!

Alias hope get together with the in-laws been ok?

Wishing all babes well x

Day 78 clutter is awesome!
purps glad to hear your mojo has reappeared.
I'm OK folks.had a nice weekend, keeping up the running and getting fitter. Still in the sidecar though

clutter wow day 78 that's amazing! Well done you!

This afternoon was okay, a bit of a weird atmosphere, but we got through it. Unfortunately had a row with DH just before they got here... and I was so anxious I took a couple of ADs, so now I'm feeling a bit dopey

On the positive side, instead of buying loads of wine for tonight, I only bought myself one small bottle (plus some chocolate, pudding, pain au chocolate for tomorrow and a bunch of flowers! It felt nice to treat myself to flowers instead of alcohol!)

mouse oh I bet you're glad to have finally finished all that form filling...

Omg chronic squits all afternoon. groan