The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Wondering Where The Spring For Their Boing Is!

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Hi I'm Mouse

One of the Brave Babes on the Bus, a Bus full of different posters, some who drink more than they'd like to and are trying to stop, some who don't drink at all now, and some who are somewhere in the middle. :)

There's no judging here, no finger pointing, no rejection, just pure, unconditional, (occasionally tough), love and empathy.

We all share stories of how we got here, to have our seat on the Bus, looking for our own personal sobriety, our own personal happiness. Sometimes we talk about other things too, you know, like cake, cheese and even day to day life, life that can lead us to breaking point......... lead us to hit rock bottom.

So, why not come say hi, take a seat, post, lurk, whatever suits you :)

This is our latest journey with a link to others

And this is the reason we're ALL here, the first ever thread

Hope to see you soon :)

I'm in...... Can't travel too far so would have to get a train. 2 hours max for me smacked off my face on morphine

I'd love a BB meet up. :)

Night Ma xx

OK,so we arrange to meet near mouse's place. Where is there within one hour radius mouse ?
I love the idea of us all pitching tents, sitting round a fire and getting pissed having fun.
Of course, there are always hotels!
Night mouse

Morning babes. Love the idea of meeting up & think your Aunts farm sounds fab alias xx

Ooh the farm sound s perfect!
Who else is in? And when is a good time, bearing in mind school holidays. In Scotland kids are off fro, end of June to mid August, I'm England its more July to September

Hello, I am here as I really need help. Drinking is taking over my life, making me ill, I feel like I am going crazy

Yet again I have wasted an entire weekend soaking myself in booze; being nasty to my DP for no reason, making a general arse of myself; woke up today full of such self-loathing that I slashed my arm with a razor. Can't stop vomiting, shaking and have a ball of adrenalin in the pit of my stomach that is making my head spin.

Sorry to jump in like this with such a 'poor me' post, but I have no one to speak to that understands and I know I need to stop, but really could do with some help. Once I have that first drink I just spiral and guzzle the stuff down, there can be no middle ground, it sounds so easy to just stop, so why can't I do it? How many more times am I going to keep doing this to myself?

owl no-one on here will tell u its easy to stop. It isn't. But posting on here is the first step. What are your triggers and drinking patterns?
Stay with us, you will get help here.
alias I'm glad Facebook wasn't around when my dds were teens. Cyber bullying is a very real menace these days. Can you talk to other girls mum?
Budge up indie - anyone would think you owned this sidecar

just wanted to try and be brave and come out and say hi and thankyou for such a good thread. Im an alcoholic / alcohol dependent person who has been in and out of aa for a number of years and who has done a stint in rehab too. I have had sober years and not so sober times. At the moment i have that silly notion in my head that i can control my drinking and for the past 2 weeks have had some nights of not drinking and then some nights of moderate drinking. That was until yesterday when i decided to have a bottle of wine and when that was finished i polished off half a bottle of whiskey. Today i have been sick, sick, sick and panic stricken. I also have become addicted to over the counter pain medication and these too are a problem. Argh! i just want to be rid of all of it and get my life back on a even keel. I have enjoyed reading this thread and as i am so hungover it is a welcome and worthwhile distraction.

Thanks dementedma, yes feel better for having admitted my problem and to people that understand. Pattern of drinking is 3 or 4 days of caning it, panicking about how much I drink, stopping for a few days and then starting all over again.

I can easily get through a bottle of wine plus 2 or 3 cans of lager/cider at a time, or sometimes drink 6-7 cans at at time. I have had anxiety and depression for years, which is definitely made worse by my drinking. I take citalopram, which is no doubt not working as it should be with all this booze in the mix.

Hiya OWL and SINA. Hiya all other BRAVE BABES :)
Stil struggling a bit but less so over the past few days.Thanks for being here.

My anxiety levels are going through the roof, had hoped I would feel calmer as the day went on but my heart is thumping out of my chest, full of paranoia. Feels good to be able to write all this down, because if I could bottle this feeling and take a whiff of it next time I'm tempted to pick up, I doubt I'd be so stupid again.

I've had countless 'rock bottoms' but really need this one to be the last.

sina and owl you are in good company here. Its quiet just now, bit the other Babes will be along soon with help and advice. Try and stop hating yourselves - no-one on here will judge you. We have all been there, and most of us are still there. Day 1 for me yet again tomorrow. I am on citalapram, and quite a few on here are on ads and other medication.just aim for cutting down on the booze if you can for now, and keep posting

Hello all, it has been a while. I am on day 22, something I have not been able to manage since my teens. I will be honest I have found it odd and sometimes bloody hard. Owl, the anxiety will decrease, please be easy on yourself and kind to yourself. The thing I am struggling with is some friends belittling what I am doing because they miss 'drunk Katie' and so there is a lot of 'go on, just have one'. My friends gf is still blanking me, but me and my friend are back on speaking terms

hi owl and ma, im with you on the paranoia, the anxiety is a killer. Im still suffering now and feel really ill and definately not going near a drink tonite. How are you both dealing with day1? A dangerous time for me is when i start to feel a bit better and the memory of the last drink seems to have faded. As i was able to drink moderately for a while, I was thinking earlier in the week about step 1 of 12 step aa programme...am i powerless over alcohol? is my life unmanageable? Well i had to go and bloody well find out the answer which in my case is yes i flippin am.

hi to scarlett ribbon, im just getting used to this posting lark and missed seeing your post up the page..sorry!

Hi Lovely Babes! Been off line for over a week but back now thanks to Mouse. Hugs.

Have spent a wonderful week in Cornwall with the DC (and a friend and her DC, who I will never, ever, ever holiday with again!!!) Will read back tomorrow but hope all the Babes are OK. xxxxxx

I've spoken to my lovely sister and admitted I have a problem - although the amount of times I call her up when I'm pissed, it'll have hardly been news to her! DP has been lovely, which is more than I deserve, given how nasty I am to him when I'm drunk

I plan on getting through the rest of day 1 by following Kate's advice and be kind to myself - haven't been able to eat at all today, but the nausea is easing off so I think I'll have a cuppa and a slice of chocolate cake.

Hi Owl and Sina welcome to the bus. The best advice I can suggest right now to you both is to keep posting. Even if you drink, come back and fess up. The more people we are honest with, the easier it is to face up to the problem.

Hi all
purps good to see you back. Tell is more about the friend and DC. I smell a good bitchfest.
Day 1 tomorrow AGAIN! No point doing this running training while drinking like a fish....
mouse are you OK? Is it tomorrow that nemo starts school?