Hi everyone, haven't posted for ages because I've been sulking that my dating experiences have continued to be so crap but have been reading, feeling happy for some and really angry on behalf of others! Lubey TT is behaving like such a cowardly twat isn't he.
Last time I was posting, I had seen Mr Full On about 4 times who then suddenly disappeared leaving me really bemused, especially given his nickname. He was really good looking, had something about him, but I kept questioning whether he was genuine or not. Everything he told me was true and I just expected everything that came out of his mouth to be lies. This, I know, is due to my hang ups owing to STBXH. I'm just finding it really difficult to find the balance between being a prize mug or overly defensive and unconsciously sabotaging any hope of more than a couple of dates. I just did stupid things out of self preservation - he asked me to come round and then he'd take me out for dinner and I assumed he would just cancel anyway so I was being aloof and acted flaky and non committal, until he text me that evening saying 'are you coming round or what?' Responded along the lines of 'oh, if you want'. Oh that sounds so immature and flaky.
I then saw Mr Pheasant a couple of times. He got some really bad news and went off radar, no response to a text sent from me asking if he wanted to go out again. (This was my attempt at leaving the 'aloof' and overly defensive stuff behind). Fair enough though.
Mr Consistently Nice (nicknamed tentatively..rightly so) - spoke on the phone for hours and hours. Met a couple of times. Seemed quite normal, nice, complimentary. Didn't set my world on fire particularly. Then last week, he called me and asked if he could come and see me, said he would leave his in 15 minutes and never turned up. I text him a couple of days later asking what happened (as I genuinely thought 'what if he crashed his car?') He responded saying he'd fallen asleep/been too tired and then thought I'd be 'on one' because he didn't turn up...so just ignored me instead? He's now asking to see me again but it's not going to happen.
So my question is about Mr Full On. I haven't dwelled too much on the others specifically although have thought that there must be something wrong with me after experiencing what seems to be a pattern of men disappearing. But I have thought about him, maybe just because I really fancied him. I sent him a text last night (about 6 weeks since he disappeared) just saying how are you. I got a response saying 'who's this, I lost my phone a while ago and lost all my contacts'. When I told him it was me, his attitude was 'my god, about time I heard from you, I lost my contacts and you never text me, how are you, can I see you. I've said yes, he's said he's free any time, wants to come and see me one day this week then take me out friday. I'm a prize mug aren't I? About to get used by him? Again? And the lost phone story is bollocks?
Oh, I'm really sorry for the huge outpouring from me, I just don't trust my own instincts at all...