I am really touched actually for your messages 
I had a rubbish day I felt just dreadful stayed in bed for as long as possible, and properly cried - it's probably the first time I have cried in aaaaaages.
But then forced myself into a shower and left the building (at about 5pm
) felt better afterwards, went to a dance class (but annoyingly got asked out.. I hate it when this happens, because I am SO not in a place to be dating anyone right now, but the guy is super lovely- argh, just feel irritated and exhausted by it right now
) gosh I am SO grumpy and antisocial!
DS, though, I am blessed to have him - so I should have been happy as I discovered he had made me the most adorable little card and had written his very own kisses in it and drawn a picture of me green scribble so kind of made me happier when I found this, but also a little bittersweet