The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Kicking The Wine Witch Into Touch!

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Hello, I'm Mouse

Welcome to the Bus. We're a group of posters who have been on a journey to here, there and everywhere when it comes to alcohol and the abusing of it.

Some of us drink, some of us don't at all and some of us are trying to get there, really trying to just stop the cycle, break the habit and calm everything down. Some of us are desperate to not be 'that' person anymore.

One Day At A Time or ODAAT.

So what have you got to lose? Weight? Saggy, puffy eyes each morning? False friends? The risk of cancers and other fatal illnesses......... why not join us?

We have a resident MonsterCat, Wolf called Seth and Squid called Barry (best not to ask about Barry! )

And, if you want to see where we've been so far, the links below will show you. The first ever thread is the best by far, because the OP is just like you. And me.

FIRST EVER THREAD

PREVIOUS THREAD

Lemony - please don't be sorry for being human lovely. You are better to let it all out here than bottle it up and keep it bubbling away under the surface.

I'm sorry to read about you Fiancé too, you are dealing with an awful lot just now, cut yourself some slack. Post as much or as little as you like on here, but keep posting!

It really does help to let your thoughts and fears out because a lot of the time, you'll find you're not alone xx

venus - I bet that when you actually think about it, there are a few moments when you feel not very good about your ability to not drink, and in reality you're probably damn good at it. - HERE HERE! Great post.

Nemo is starting to say new words and I'm really struggling! I'm on a fasting day (311 cals so far, 189 left for the day) so no cake or chocolate! Argh! He gets so frustrated and all I want to do is help him.

I'm trying to buy a new bra online, sort the washing and drying out, talk to DD about her GCSE's and parents evening, sort odds and sods out..... but I want to listen to him and understand him. I can't quite get it and he's getting so upset

Time to go and spend some time with him.

Lots of love all, be back later maybe xxxx

lemony nice to see you back. I hope things get better for you soon.
mouse fasting again? You are eating normally in between fasts aren't you?

lemony I'm so sorry, you have been through a great deal of tragedy and and pain and sadness often leads to the vino bianco.you should feel no shame, wine excess has led us all here, please keep posting, feed from the strength of the wonderfully successful babes here and feel safe on the knowledge that you are indeed among new and enduring friends, I'm only on day 3 (this time) we will help each other x

lemony that was a very brave post, I think you'll find loads of support and advice on here.

I've done dry January! 4 weeks tomorrow. have failed on the diet though

joey can you see if you can go on the relationship board 'where the hell is brave babes thread' and link to here, JWN and guggs are looking for us. Can't seem to do it on my phone!

Massive welldone by the way :)

Scrap that joey we seem to be back in our rightful place on relationships!

Well, I am slightly off the bus in that I have just had a really small glass of red wine. Had all sorts going on this week and it is the end of 'dry january' - not that this is any excuse...The bottle has been sat there for ages and I just drank it - not the bottle - the glass worth in it to be honest, I just feel a bit more tired and meh after it, so, whilst I'm glad it's out of the way, that'll be it I reckon!

You went awwayyyyyyy!!!! Waaaiiilllll!

Sorry I haven't read any posts because I looked for the bus and you had all gone awwwaaayyyyy!

Promise me you won't all go away again! I haven't lost the plot jwn was looking too.

Ok you're back now, breathe, breathe.

Thanks ma am very pleased with 4 weeks!

Diet, not so much yesterday I was fasting and at 4pm started shaking (coffee on an empty stomach maybe) and gobbled down 2 slices of toast. The first went down so fast, it didn't even touch the sides. The second was the tastiest thing I've had in years

Each slice was 100 calories, plus the coffee - I just don't see how to manage it? Today, not fasting, but still guzzled some chocolate. Crap.

Any news on your brother?

Oops!

Yeah, got a text from him. He is still alive.

Good to hear Ma

Hi my lovely babes, got a wee funny story for you all. Some time ago
I bought a vax steamer, it's an amazing machine with lots of different nozzles to clean windows, tiles high hairs etc. amazing though it is its not the sort if thing you are enthusiastic about using whilst half cut or with a hangover so mine hasn't seen much action. Anyway today looking forward to my 3rd night of sobriety I decided it was time to get the place ship shape once and for all and out came the vax. It's very noisy and while marvelling at how clean a high chair could be the phone rang which I couldn't hear, dh asks dd if he can speak to me and she says "she can't come to the phone. She's steaming" (Scottish speak for
Pissed) dh thinks oh god things must be bad it's only 4 o'clock and rushes home to see what's happened only to find me singing badly and steaming every surface in sight. We all fell about laughing but the irony will not be wasted on my fellow babes x z x

Plsl @ babyjane being steaming. Where abouts in Scotland are you? And well done on 3 days

thats a good one baby!!

well, my day has been fine, just been out to my sewing class, tiredness is lifting a little but im still off to bed in a minute, tbh, i think im just burnt out - having another day at home tomorrow the relief of just knowing i have some time to myself is huge, its a very 'healing' feeling iykwim?

btw, spoke to dd earlier, some of her work is being used in an exhibition (proud mum moment!!) am hugely pleased for her!

ma I don't know whether to say ' nice and tight' or Gerrrofff!

baby well done on the af nights- good. 2 weeks is a manageable length of time and you will feel better after doing that. Umm..put the vax down if you find yourself steaming the cat/child/ceiling!

Lots of great posts and strong words today. Well done anyone who's managed even the tiniest steps towards sobriety today,keep going.After a very long time I think I'm beginning to understand faire's words about making the decision in the morning and just telling the voice that you're not drinking today. I needed a bit of sobriety to even understand that because otherwise I give in to the cravings. I fancy wine but the cravings are smaller and easier to deal with.Sometimes I want to drink but then I will have to go back to the horrible, unmanageable cycle of drink-hangover-guilt-drink etc,if I do pick up.

I'm knackered so I won't name check tonight- sending best wishes to you all.
Don't go without me again though!

Thinking of you all, strong babes. goodnight

Aw ma thanks babe, I'm just outside Glasow and jesus your daughter must inherit you artistic and creative genes, you are right to be proud. Well it's off to bed for me, it's taking me ages to get to sleep and my nightmares are not pleasant but I'm sure it will all get better. Good point being sober I remember to cleanse tone and moisturise, bad point I'm lucid enough to hear every single whinge and moan my 13 year old dd has about her life..... Asta manyana mon amigos xx

Evening, tis me Mouse

WTF? Did the thread go somewhere? How odd? I know that MN have been off-line a few times that I've been trying to get on here....... maybe it's just that? I promise I've not driven off without any of you! I'm not the driver, just the admin xx

PMSL @ Baby steaming!! That is awesome! Poor DH! Oh, and btw, it's also Manc for pissed out of your head too xx Well done on 3 days Baby xx

Nemo is now asleep and settled. Finally. Just found out that my bank card was blocked when trying to top up my mobile (Stupid thing - mobile - was set to MMS, not SMS so wiped my credit when texting, GRRRR!) so I went to top up and the website was all 'Oh I think not little Mousey, off you pop'

47 mins later and it's now unblocked. I'm glad they do the job well but FFS, why not just call ME and ask ME if I'd made those purchases, which I did?

Anyway, JWN - that is GREAT news about your gorgeous DD. She has made you shine tonight xx

Ma - yes, I am. I am aiming for 1200 - 1500 cals on non fast days. My fasting days are Tues and Thurs as weekends are family time and I want to eat with us all together, Monday is a picky day for me, and I need a break in between. Friday is home-made pizza so it has to be those days!

I very nearly cracked and opened a box of Dairy Milk after CardBlockGate tonight though!!

Gugg - you are getting there, your posts are telling me that, if not you. You are stronger and tougher than ever before. You are getting nearer to where you want to be, you really are. It's all falling into place. Go YOU!! xxxx

Right, now the drama is over, I'm off to bed.

Night Brave Babes. I hope to find the thread here in the morning! xxx

Curry - Big hugs coming your way...... are you okay? I'm thinking not? We're here for you xx

Loving your story BabyJane and well done on the 3AF days - the first few are the worse but it does get better and I promise you'll feel better about yourself too. By the way, my house has never been so clean and tidy and is getting a new coat of paint to boot! Amazing all the time and energy you have once the booze goggles are off and you can actually see the world as it really is and best of all deal with it.

JWN glad to hear you're feeling a little lifted, I know all about the proud mum feeling - we feel truly blessed at those times - another good reason for me not to f..k it all up with wine.

Gugg keep on keeping on - because you're worth it so whatever it takes say it every day. I say my I WILL NOT BE DRINKING TODAY every morning - one day I'll wake up and it won't be the first thing on my mind, and one day I hope to not have to think it at all, but for now, for me it works too.

@Baby and Mouse* steaming means v drunk here in Swindon as well!