scatty - hope you hear from him...
oww - you sound really chilled out, I think sometimes our heads get stuck into thinking one way, but it really sounds like you have got on top of it.
ike - jan blues. Plan something, anything, a few things, just so you have some stuff to look forward to ( i always find it helps alot) Could you do any kind of volunteering in the meantime, so you are still getting a break, but are getting out and about and have some kind of structure? ( would that help at all)
Have cancelled fridays date, the snow being a good excuse, so, i can pick it up again if i want, and still texting back and forth with chilli boy, who seems totally normal and nice.
And you know what, hes just going to take me as he finds me, in not thin, im not a whale, im just adverage and if thats not ok for him, then it wouldnt work out anyway.