Well, after writing my smug motivational post, I think someone must have made a wax dolly of me and stuck pins in it, because all my boing evaporated with a thud! 
Was it you Barry? I was only joking about putting you in the pot...
Bit of a shitty early evening, feeling really irritable and achey and losing the plot a bit with DD because she was faffing and arguing about going to bed. Then felt guilty about snapping at her and not giving her a restful bedtime. 
had a couple of glasses of red but was feeling so tightly strung and angry that I thought 'what's the point in drinking this - it's not making me feel any better' and gave the rest of my glass to DP, who finished the bottle. That in itself is a bit of a miracle, tbh; before I would have carried on drinking. I had a close call later when I really really fancied a tot of sloe gin that's just about ready (haven't tasted it yet), but resisted the temptation and had some ice cream instead. Shit for the diet but better for my liver and head. I feel incredibly premenstrual and sore, but I don't think I'm due for another week at least. 
I've realised that I'm at my absolute worst in the late afternoon - tired, irritable and just want to be left alone. That's when I'm most vulnerable to wanting a drink, but if I give in then, I'm ruining the following day and I don't get the boing, and feel even worse the next afternoon. At least now I'm realising that that is how I am, rather than it just being that I'm desperate for wine. 
I've got to find other coping mechanisms for that period of the day, as it's when I'm most liable to snap at DD, especially as it's when she's most needy and challenging.
Phoenix glad you like the egg fried rice recipe. Spicy fish sounds lovely with it!
Joey I was quite confused about why my squid are white... although they are white, of course, I just wasn't sure of the reason! I cook the squid in a puttanesca sauce, traditionally eaten as spaghetti puttanesca, a Napolitean recipe that translates as whores' spaghetti - it was a favourite of Naples working girls, apparently. 
Mouse I'd accepted that I'll have to be on ADs for good, but I've had a little glimmer these past few weeks that maybe I could wean myself off them. You really made me laugh with the wobbling comment hot on the heels of the norkage discussion! I definitely wobble, unfortunately, even when feeling emotionally stable.
Koala I'm glad you're feeling the boing too! Sorry to hear about your dressnot fitting yet. I bet it's just not the right cut for you.
Gugg now that's a challenge to think of some veggie recipes, as we are quite carnivorous. The butternut squash bake is lovely, and the puttanesca sauce is a vegetarian one if you don't add anchovies. It's onion, garlic, capers, olives, crushed fennel seeds and tinned tomatoes. I add a smidgen of chilli flakes and plenty of black pepper. I quite often make a very quick and simple tomato sauce for pasta too, just slice and gently fry an onion and garlic, then add a tin of chopped tomatoes (I always put a slug of red wine in 
) and some thyme/rosemary/ whatever you fancy, and simmer it vigorously for ten mins or so, uncovered so it reduces a bit. Meanwhile, you cook the pasta. take the sauce off the heat while you drain the pasta, then just before serving, add an egg yolk to the sauce, stirring it very fast so it doesn't cook or curdle. It thickens the sauce and gives it a lovely creamy texture. It's a plain and easy sauce but the egg yolk really makes a difference. I can pm/post the recipe for the farro risotto if you like - it's lovely with mushrooms.
Koti at 'motivational slapper' and 'fuck 'em in the ear'!
God I'm glad I've got a DD - I think I'd rather find a buzzing bullet than a wank sock...
Sorry not to namecheck anyone else. Am knackered and drained so off to sleep for me now. Night Babes xx