The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Spicing Up The Winter Nights With Rich Hot Chocolate And Thermal Tights!

[Mouseface]

Hello, I'm Mouse

I'm one of the Brave Babes travelling on this fantabulous Bus, on it's journey to the wonderful world of sobriety.

The great thing is, that the people on here are a real mixed bunch. Some are drinking regularly, some aren't. Some are sober and have been for any number of days, some weeks, months and yep, some even for years.

There's no judging pants allowed, no savoury flans either , just lots of unconditional support from many varied sources. Yes, some of us have been here from the start but please don't let that stop you posting, this thread is for EVERYONE and it always has been

If you'd like to have a look back, here are some links. One to the previous thread and one to the very first, and the reason we are all still here.

See you soon,

Mouse xx

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Well done to all BB's for resisting alcohol tonight & especially the wine witch when she comes calling. Couldn't really cancel on friend as it was her birthday during the week & would of felt bad as I shouldn't of bought wine last night. But hey the night is done, friend came round with champagne & then we shared me bottle of red (boy oh boy I'm going to pay in the morning!) life is hard. Wish I didn't have an addictive personality. Counselling is so far showing me that I have an addictive personality. Good night brave babes. So hope bath worked for you mouseface and that nemo is ok. My little boy is hard work but saving grace is he sleeps at night. Teenage girl staying at friends tonight his opens up whole new issues...how hard is it bringing up children? Night night babes xx

Ok no I shouldn't buy had have poured myself a vodka. Telling myself will regret will be dying * tomorrow going be hard I'm telling myself all these things but it's making no difference. I know tomorrow is going to feel like hell on earth (ok maybe wee bit melodramatic ) but it's not changing how I'm feeling about having a drink just now

Aww.. jings crivens and help ma boab! Ah didnae realise that were wee Scottish thingummyjigs, special like, just for St Andrew's day. So here goes....

Ah'm quite happy [bsmile] because we Scots have a speshul day [bgrin] when we can listen to the byootiful music [bhmm]

I have to say I'm a bit [bconfused] that after all this time, here I am, a Scots(wo)man [bblush] admitting to my disastrous relationship wi' alcohol [bsad]. Now that ah'm sober ah get quite [bsad] when I see all the alcohol advertising that there is, especially around Christmas. Sometimes I look at people out enjoying themselves, and I feel a bit [benvy} but I know that ma beret widdnae a been straight oan ma heid like that, it wud hae bee wi me in the gutter [bshock]

So a guid and sober braw bricht moon-licht nicht (the nichct) to you all. [bbiscuit] (and the scottish biscuit is a wee bitee shortbread - yum! yum!

Dh on night out...don't know if I'm competing?? Feeling like missing teenage one ? She at least is replying to all my random texts !! Normally she drives me insane xx

clutter (this is me without all the pretend scots stuff from above)...

I can see you're feeling bad about your drinking, but I'm kind of wondering what it is that you want to do about it? I'm not being harsh, but there was clearly something in you that 'wanted' to drink tonight. So what about tomorrow? Will you wake up feeling crap and look for the 'hair of the dog' or will you wake up and resolve to have different type of day? It is your choice.

Aw venus I don't know what I want. I want to get drink cos I actually like feeling but hate the effects of it? X

Sorry for short answer but feel its truthfull.

To venus yep I will probably wake up & feel awful & feeling awful for me is bad & my toddler one is lively but I've missed feeling drunk! Wish there was a pill to take hangover away

Ha ha doesn't everyone? Xx

Sp sorry didn't mean to be insensitive in my mind wee bit funny! xx

I know but hey Nirvana is playing xxxx

Ok I'm here I'm listening to oasis (showing age ) xx

I can't seem to message ?!'

Oh dear, sorry for drunk, rambling messages think I got wee bit carried away [bhmmm] Have handmade toddler one pancakes to make up for yesterdays abismal breakfast, although he has them with chocolate spread I still think improvement & good breakfast yeah? [bconfused]

To Venus yep feeling like shit but no, no hair of the dog but would love one but no that that would be very bad idea. Maybe having kids is keeping me from proper all out drinking as think if didnt have toddler one just now then would but probably if didn't have toddler one would still be sleeping and wouldn't need to [bconfused] IYSWIM? xx

Morning babes - well survived night, had about a bottle of wine - horrible sleep woke up at 4am and despite it being my turn for a lie in had to get up at 7 - thems the consequences and my banging head! Anyway not too much damage done - back to day one and feel happy to say I will not drink today :) on my way to soft play for a play date shortly - soft play on a saturday morning god help me, it's my pennance! mouse those nights you mentioned are 10 years past for me but I could end up back there so easily and have to be on my guard - I would have been in the toilet with my friends had I drank and stayed out. I hope you managed some sleep with nemo, you are so brave and doing such a great job, can't imagine how horrible it is to see him distressed like that :( sendinh him big cuddles. A big wave to all the other lovely babes, have a good day all x

Morning all. Well I am afraid I did have two glasses of white and loads of chocolate last night as got to 8pm and was feeling fed up/period pains so sent dh out. But he just got one bottle , of which he had the lion's share. Don't feel too bad about it as I am not going to drink today (as I normally would). Wine was ok but not that amazing, feel it def hasn't got grip on me like before. X

Morning babes, day 6 and it feels great to have no hangover, sat is usually my worst hangover of the week and I'm actually going to yoga at half past ten, can any one tell me when I will stop craving wine,
I mean the actual notion of wanting wine, I dont think my need is physical just habitual and I'm replacing wine with chocolate which is not ideal for the waistline I'm dying to shrink. Anyway purple how did lunch go with your friend? leucan how are you? Kiki talk to me!! Have a super duper day my dear babes x x x

Clutter I will never forget the horror of hungover mornings with a toddler. An endless day to get through, full of pain, disappointment and wretchedness. It's good to be reminded and has strengthened my resolve to try not to drink alone at home ever again. Do you want to avoid this happening in future? As Venue says, what steps could you try to take?

Baby! Hi.. Yeah sorry to have flunked yesterday but am not going to let it too me back into uncontrolled boozing! I want to be able to have a couple without it triggering a session the next day and the next.. So actually this is good exercise for me! Re choc.shall we use today 1st of month to make converted effort to cut out the junk?

Kiki a few glasses never hurt any one, that's where I'm hoping to get to, was going to got a bottle last night but knew I would drink it all so ive still a way to go, kot thanks for the answer, even if I do succumb to a bottle, there are 6+ bottles I haven't drank this week, that's 6000 calories, 85 weight watcher points and £30 not even counting the 5 cig a night habit I have only when drinking so that's another £12, so not a bad effort, anyway off to contort my wine stiffened body and improve my serenity ( must be a very long class) and catch up later x x x c

Morning, everyone. Sorry to go AWOL, but I was feeling very miserable and I always shut down when it gets a bit much. Don't really know what triggered it, except my life is quite grim at the minute and I think I forgot to keep thinking positive thoughts until they come true...

ANYway. Day 13 here (kind of...*), and those Babes who are fidgeting about their weight should take renewed inspiration from the fact that my hips are now definitely smaller than my shoulders . I don't have scales, but I'm fitting into old size 8 clothes, so probably a couple of inches lost?

• On Thursday the brakes froze on my car - fortunately I was near the turning onto the stretch of tarmac the nearest village uses for a car park and wasn't going fast - I just dropped into first and turned to head for the furthest away fence, guessing I'd have rolled to a halt by then. Which I did. (And yes, the noise of the engine protesting did earn me a couple of 'tchah, women drivers' looks ). Then I cried myself silly because it really felt like the last straw. (Plus, I had the first car accident of my life a few months ago, crushing the last car completely, and am now very anxious about driving anyway). Life's been one shitty event after another since last year (the year before that, if you count all relationship 'surprises') and as I'm very rural, and presently as poor as it is possible to be, the loss of the car would be the final nail. We have no buses. Right then, it was The End Of The World.

So I totter off, VERY shaky, to the shop, where I Do Not Buy Wine For Comfort. I'm quite impressed by this, actually. What I did do however, was buy tobacco, and smoked two cigarettes in the car park wondering how the feck I was going to pay anyone to get the car and fix it. I got back in the car and fiddled about, and the brakes were working perfectly , so I drove home at 8 or 9 mph (REALLY rural, trust me!) and asked a neighbour of mine, who's a retired mechanic, to have a look at it. He told me lots of incomprehensible mechanical stuff, changed the brake oil, and said it would be fine. And it is! Thank bloody feck.

So that night/early evening was magical, just when I needed the silence - black sky, glittering stars, hard sparkly white frost ferns on everything, and the largest, golden moon coming up from behind the hill. I wrapped up, took my tobacco and half a glass of wine down to sit by the river and watch the moon rise. It was beautiful - just the noise of the river and an owl, and golden moonlight on a huge stretch of icy white meadow.

And you know the strange thing? All that still sounds^ wonderful as a moment in time, but in reality, the wine wasn't. Everything else was, just not the wine. I didn't enjoy it, didn't like the taste, it added nothing to the moment and just felt utterly pointless. I went back in, washed the glass, poured some cranberry and tonic (which IS lovely) and I haven't had so much as one craving since.

The fags, on the other hand...