Afternoon, tis me, Mouse
Hope - as has been said, no-one's problems or worries are any less important because they of their content. Many of our woes and worries fuel the desire to drink so getting them out here is an excellent idea imho.
Get it out of your head so that the Booze Beast doesn't talk you into a soothing glass of something or another.
Purple - I'm glad you went on that date, and that he has great taste in cars as well as women 
. Re the physical side of things, there's no reason you should want to kiss him is there? Or anything else? Just enjoy going out and talking to each other, seeing new places in his cars, lunch, dinner, whatever..... 
Joey - PJs here too. You're getting yourself worked up already over drinking or not later. STOP! I like Leucan's idea about planning your drinking better or you could just wait and see how you feel. If you want to have a drink, you will. The more pressure you put on yourself now, the worse it will all be later on. Just go with your gut feelings.
Leucan - All those nasty upsetting things that I drank to push to the back of my mind didn't go anywhere, they're just sitting in a big pile waiting to be processed - I see them pretending to be one of those old punched card data storage computers that used to take up a whole room. And now there isn't a wall of bottles between me and them, they all have to go through the machine... And I have to 'settle' each one. A lot of them I can just say 'yes, you were a twat, you drunk too much and you looked like a moron. don't do it again'. But there are some rather more serious things.
I have boxes. All piled up in the back of my head and now that I am sober (with the occasional drink) I can cope so much better when a trigger comes along. Life is full of triggers and we all deal with them differently, YOU just have to decide which of the things that used to be hidden behind that huge wall of wine bottles needs dealing with first.
Take your time, unravel the mess slowly and carefully. Your past can't hurt you anymore, the things you have done can never be undone but you can forgive yourself. And, you should. Life's too short to wonder about what if's and maybe's imo. Maybe you should just write it all out. Let it out as it comes to you and write it out, then burn the paper it's on.
A very good friend of mine told me that getting rid of anything I had of my abusive ET (ex twat) would help with the healing, so I started to think about it and she was right, I had boxes of photo's that I'd never really gone through, assuming that they were all of DD. I had candles, photo frames, underwear that I hadn't even thought about that he's bought or given me so they all went too.
Bit by bit, I am getting rid of my boxes. Don't get my wrong, some will stay tight shut until the day I die because they are the ones that don't need opening if that makes sense.
Well done to those who are on day 5/6, the physical detox symptoms should start to settle soon....... just stay hydrated and remember that wine has sooooooooooooo much sugar in, your body will be used to that too so is re-adjusting to every little change.
Nemo had a bad night, very sore and swollen face, little bit of bleeding and terrible tummy pains which are just the pain meds etc, and it;s med o'clock now so I best go and tip him up.
Keep going Babes, great to see the Bus nice and full at the moment and welcome to any new Babes I've missed, I thought hot chocolate with shortbreads for afternoon snacks later on? I'm going to lite the log burner too, it's awful here! Brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!
Mouse xx