Oh god. Missed loads of the last thread and start of this one but catching up.
Snape I have to de-lurk. I feel so upset reading what has happened.
If it helps I had quiet alarm bells set off threads back when you said something about PM having casually said something along the lines of he would be with you if it wasn't for your children. Have I got that sort of right?
I had a half worry at the back of my mind then that maybe he wasn't the man you thought he was. You have credited him with depth of character, kindness and decency which is obviously in you but I am not so sure he is nearly such a lovely person as you are.
I thought at the time that you obviously knew him so much better than somebody reading between the lines of an online chat forum but now I really am starting to think you have credited him with way too much when in fact he is coming across as a selfish, shallow, egotistical, conceited, idiot. I think you have projected a lot of what is in you onto him because you want to see it in somebody else. One day I think you will see it in somebody else but it will not be him.
That text is cruel and insulting and all about him and how he is feeling rather than you. You are open, honest, creative, imaginative and loving and all you have done is want to share that part of you with him. If he doesn't feel the same way, fair enough but given how important you have been to each other he absolutely should look after your heart and help you gently disengage however that needs to happen. If you need any confirmation that he is behaving badly ask yourself how you would treat him if the roles were reversed and I know your answer would involve a lot more kindness, tact and care about how you were making him feel. You absolutely would not have coldly defriended him as if you were both 16.
I know men don't always handle these things as well as women but even so he could be a lot kinder than he is being.
I think you have to walk away. Hold your head high and start to get over him. I think you will struggle to think as much of him in future as you have done in the past. I know how painful this is, I have gone through similar as have many of us I think. What you absolutely must not do is let it stop you being you. There is somebody just as fantastic as you waiting out there for you. You will never find him and even if you did you would never "see" him until and unless PM is totally out of your thoughts.
You are a fabulous lovable person. If you doubt that just look at how many complete strangers have come to care very much for you and about what happens to you!!! Including me. Sending lots of good wishes and hugs. xxxxxx