Anyone around?

[armani]

I could do with some hand holding. Sat here in tears trying not to have a panic attack.

I am. What's happened?

What's up?

Me too. You ok?

Just Dp ranting at me again. I can't take this anymore, I wish I could just escape. I wish we could be free, I sometimes wonder wtaf I have done to deserve this.

What's he ranting about?

We - so you have DC? Are they his? Even if they are, you still don't need to stay with someone who does this to you...

So how often does this happen.
Tell us about your family.

Has he stopped ranting now? Do you feel safe?

I woke up this morning and stupidly asked him if he knew the time. He started yelling on at me for waking him, calling me a fucking bitch etc. All day he has been awful and just as I was going to bed he starts again. This time about my alarm the I have set during the week (mon- fri).
'why the fuck can't you be fucking normal and get up to the first alarm? You aren't depressed, sort your fucking life out'.
'fat retarded cunt'.

Sorry to drop feed and ramble.

Oh sweetheart :(

This is abusive and you dont have to take it. Its WRONG, HE IS WRONG.

How long have you been living like this?

Thanks for all your support and kind words.
Yes we have 3 dc under 6 yo. They are asleep in bed, I'm ok I've come downstairs. He won't get up out of bed now so I'm ok.

Goodness armani he sounds horrible. You are not the things he says you are.

Do you feel safe? x

I assume the "fat retarded cunt" was what he said when looking at himself in the mirror?

I have been with him for 7 yrs bogey. Have tried to leave once before, but it all went wrong.

I think speaking to women's aid might be a good idea. He is abusing you x

www.womensaid.org.uk/landing_page.asp?section=000100010018

This is the contact page for Womens Aid. Could he hear you on the phone now? If not, then call them now, while you can.

You are none of the things he says you are. He is abusive. You don't have to live like this. Have you ever spoken to Women's Aid?

Thanks family. Yes I feel safe, just I get anxious at night. I'm trying to breathe and calm down.

What made it go wrong? Has he been worse since you tried to leave?

Not being nosey, just trying to work out what has happened so we can help you xx

This is not normal. He is abusing you.
Does your 6 yrold hear that? Or see you trying to avoid it?
Are you in this country?
Woman's Aid will help you escape.
The alternative has to be better.
A life lived in fear is no life.
Be strong for your kids.

Oh sweetie
You're none of those things he called you, you're a strong woman, a mum of 3 and you deserve better than him

I second a call to women's aid.

Good luck Armani keep posting, you'll get some fab advice here.

Call WA now, they can help. They can get you somewhere safe to stay with your children and they can help you find a permanent home.

Yes I've spoken to women's aid before, but I can't face all that again at the moment, I'm
Not strong enough.
I can't make a call now if he hears all hell will break out. Would rather just keep him sweet to get through tonight.

It's not as bad as it sounds written down.

No I bet it isnt as bad as it sounds.

I bet it is 100 times worse.

You are strong enough, you know you are. You wouldnt be on here asking for help if you werent on the threshold of breaking free.

Whatever else you do, clear your history and in future use "private browsing", so you can post here without fear of him knowing.

Thank you to everyone for listening.