Kinky sex embarrassment. Help!

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God this is embarrassing, but I can't really talk it through with anyone in rl so you lot will have to put up with me for now!

Basically I'm happily married and DH and I have regular (good) sex.
I even manage to orgasm durin penetration. I used to only manage the big O through for play so it's fair to say that my DH is good in the sack.

The thing is, I have a kinky fantasy that I always think about in order to orgasm.
I've tried not to and just concentrate on my (gorgeous) DH but I just can't 'get there' without it.

I feel too embarrassed to tell DH how much I think about it (I have let on a bit but always back-track and make a joke).

I feel like I'm wrong to be thinking about my fantasy whils being intimate with DH and worried he will think I'm a weirdo if I confess about it.

I would really like to try out my fantasy and I do feel a bit unfulfilled sexually.

Anyone had any experience or advise?

Ooo using one hand to text is good. I'd put I'm using one hand to text guess what the other one's doing?

Good luck, do keep us nosy cows informed!

ditto.

I still don't understand what you are all going on about as I have not read 50 shades - is it just a spanking thing?

I have not read 50 shades

Me neither, going, and I plan to keep it that way.

Right.
I'm going in.

Will update tomorrow

Ooh have fun

Fuck me going in, what is this bizarre kink?

At half past midnight too - that is impressive!

Update

I told him!

I did wait untill we had done the sexing and I was asking him what his favorite things were and chatted about them for a bit.

He then asked me about mine and I just told him about my fantasy but that if he wasn't up for giving it a go then I wouldn't mind ect.

He wants to give it a go and said it turned him on - mostly because he likes to see me having a good time.

We didn't try it out last night as we were already done in.

So far, so good

Woo HOOO!

The bad part over, then.

Fab news really glad you bit the bullet

You have to update and tell us how it went mind you as we all care are pervs

Is it the rape fantasy? Quite common apparently.

Sorry goingbacktowork,
Yes it is.

I'm not really into the rape scenario thing.
I tried it a couple of times and got upset, even though we had a 'stop' word and he (my ex) did stop eventually (didn't hear me say it the 1st time! ).

Eventually tried it again with DH but neither of us got into it and ended up having love making type sex in the end

Forceful -great.
But anything more than that, I think you do have to be really careful and not do it with a total wanker helps!

So did you have fun last night