Gone with the condiments

[LouP19]

Evening all,... Thank you to whoever came up with this lovely shiney new thread title!!

As for Fedora, well I looked and it certainly wasn't her I saw in the picture!! He did go to Italy though, I saw pictures on his camera of the Bay of Naples, and also a few video clips of boat trips. And that's when I saw one single picture of a young blonde who he called 'Fedora'. 'I took a picture of her as she's very attractive and I wanted to remember what she looked like'. Jeez, I had a bit of a go, but I left that one because I couldn't be arsed to have an argument. This was about 4 days before he left.

Anyway, onto other things. Had one of these evenings where I can't stop my brain from whirling over details from the last few months. Times when I believed him because it meant an easier life. Believing him meant not being called 'paranoid' or insecure' or told to 'grow up'. Believing him meant some peaceful times on my own, not having to put up with him stomping about, resenting the fact that he was here. Believing him the time he claimed he got a 4 1/2 hour train back from London one evening in November when he smelt of aftershave.

Arrrggghhh! I know there's nothing I can do to stop this churning, but I am SO annoyed at myself. There were signs, but I just hoped things would get better. He always complained of being under pressure at work, so I had faith that he was trying his best.

Am so tempted to contact his boss and let him know what he's being doing under the 'guise' of work. Obviously, I wouldn't do it, but it is so tempting,......

Need to remember revenge is a life well lived blah blah!!

Morning Lou.

Just a quick not to say good luck with your session today. I hope it proves as valuable as the last one in terms of allowing you to get closer to an answer on how you want to proceed.

I think your analysis of his texts are spot on - keep trusting your instincts as they have served you well through this process.

xxx

My (naive) suggestion would be to talk to women who have aborted after IVF just as you have talked to single mothers.

I know they're all just anecdotes, but seeing both sides of the coin may help your subconscious perhaps?

Good luck with your session and your thinking. I love the way Chunt refers to all this as if was some external act of God that happened to him. He can't say "all the dreadful things that I have done".

I hope your session goes well Lou, you've been extremely calm and level headed about the entire ordeal, I know you will make the right choice about your future.

Just to say I hope today's session is as good for you as last week's was. Can't believe his latests texts. I wonder what on earth he thinks you will think when you receive texts like that? He is so selfish. Anyway, that's not very helpful to you but I am sending my love for your decision making.

To the extremely intelligent super-smart Lou, (is that better than 'quite intelligent') ....I hope you get all the information that you need over the next few days, in order to make the decision that is right for you. Good luck.

Afternoon all, thanks for the 'super smart Lou' comments Aqua!!!

Session was good, seeing her again on Friday. Still lots of things to work through of course, but she is enabling me to see both sides of the coin, and obviously there will be pros and cons to whatever I decide,.... But telling myself I've got until the middle of next week.

Just googled 11 weeks scan. Bad idea.

On another note, I came home and immediately made a big vat of vegetable chilli, with peppers, mushrooms, kidney beans, peanut butter. It will probably wreak havoc with my bowels, but I don't have to worry about that being on my own, ha ha! Sorry, tmi,......

I can recommend this Lou - www.sainsburys-live-well-for-less.co.uk/meal-planning/evening-meal-plans/evening-meal-plan-1/thursday/dinner/ though I tweak it with creme cheese, a bit of leek and part-blitz the veg/sauce. (I used to add a bit of liquid stock for flavour until I realised the salmon was salty + salty stock = yuk!)

Btw, are you looking for advice re: the pregnancy here? I am not so sure you are canvassing opinions (not meant crassly) so I say this very tentatively, but a "clean slate" isn't exactly how I would think it could pan out. A baby would mean your ex in your life, effectively, but a termination at 10+ weeks after 3+ years trying could haunt you much more than arranging visitation and child maintenance. Please ignore that if unhelpful; I have no experience to draw on and cannot imagine what you are going through just now. Hopefully your next scan/appoinment will clarify things for you.

Sending you a gentle hug and feather light pats

Thanks Ivana that recipe looks lovely!

HOw are the cats doing Lou?

Fine thanks mistle, they are like completely changed cats! They are so chilled out, not running away anymore,.... Still being spoilt with chicken and fish!

Do you think they like it being a female only household, or have they just managed to settle down now?

Think they've just settled down. My ex was so agitated and aggressive in his manner during the last few weeks that they stayed away from him. Now he's gone they're extremely chilled. They like quiet people, which most of my friends/family are!

ok, mediterranean salmon. we have just had it and ds cleared his plate

1 fillet per person
cougette
mixed peppers
red onion
cherry tomatoes
aubergine
celery

slice the cougette and chop everything else roughly. nothing is necessary, just use whatever is quick-cooking and tasty.

put in a baking/lasagne dish

put salmon on top and season I also used a dash of worcestor sauce.

put in oven on middle shelf at 180. once the veg starts to cook down a bit, spoon the juice over the salmon.

bake for about 45mins and serve with new pots or plain boiled race with caraway seeds, and salad.

and, i am very glad that counselling went well.

Glad the session went well Lou, sounds like the cats are good judges of character!!

Maybe when everything has moved on & settled down you should get all these recipes & culinary tips & make a chapter for your book

smoked salmon cheesy pasta

smoked salmon trimmings
courgette
dairy lea triangles
cheddar
pasta (I use taglietelli)

cook pasta, about 2 mins before its ready add the thinly sliced courgette. drain using the same pan add the salmon put on a low heat, add the triangles (I use two) grated cheese and a splash of milk. this makes a creamy sauce. toss the pasta and courgette in with it.

I use a twist of ground chilli or pepper, just to liven it up a bit.

oh, a squeeze of lemon juice works well too.

So sorry you have such a tough choice to make, but better to see the image now before you decide than look later when you cant change your decision.I'm glad the counseling is going well.

Disclaimer: Following paragraph is tongue in cheek and not an attempt at clinical diagnosis.

Glad your cats are chilled now. I remember on the long running narc thread that we came to the conclusion that cats do not like narcs, they know competition when they see it, so your cats are right on the ball!

Ooh, those fishy recipes are making my mouth water Sweet!
Hope you are feeling better today.

Lou... I am glad to hear the cats are happy and spoiled

the pasta is ds's favourite. I sometimes sub the salmon for bacon, ham or hot dogs.

SweetFanny - that sounds gorgeous. Damn thee low carbing. I am having kebabs and salad.