nothing can drag you down when you're not holding on...

[chocoraisin]

Hello :)

I've decided that blog or no blog, I can't imagine not having all of you fabulous people to turn to in the next couple of months while I count down to baby arriving. So I've jumped ship from the old thread and decided to set up camp here.

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Oh for dark mornings again. After Wednesday it'll start getting darker again thank god!

humph. Now, at half past 7, when I have things to get up for and get on with, DS wants to go back to bed.

thank god indeed midwife!!

Yes my DD is still awake at 9.30pm and wants to get up at 6am usually but luckily she will come in with me and watch a DVD for a while.

I usually have to get up around 4am though and put blankets back on her when she starts shouting...

Try and chill on the sofa with him later.

oh, bad luck indeed, choco - can you persuade a lovely granny to take DS for an afternoon so you can get a nice long kip? I hope you get some rest somehow, even if it's just a nap while he naps! Sending you energetic vibes!

ahh, I just woke up!! Thanks :) he went down about 12.30 and I went to bed at 1! 2 hours nearly for me, he's on course for 3. Hurrah! I feel much less like I might punch the next irritating adult in the face lol.

I can't believe DS2 will be here in a fortnight. EEK! Might as well reconcile myself to no sleep at all then

How scary exciting!! I can't believe it either! 2 weeks!!

[chants]
Baby! Baby! BABY!

SO very exciting! I am pathetically over excited. I have a close friend due around the same time as you and, as I told her on the phone this morning, she clearly moved to the U.A.E. last year in the foreknowledge that I'd be round her house with a lasagna EVERY DAY of her last two weeks, trying to be helpful and basically being in a big baby-frenzy :)

YAY! BABY! YAY!

choco...I am excited for you and delighted and the end is nigh (well the beginning YKWIM). Stay well and rest.

Glad you managed to get some sleep! Make the most of it now ! Two weeks! Getting closer! I have a friend due around the same time. I never get broody though. One is definitely enough for me, she is three kids rolled into one!

I've been following your trials and tribulations Choco having read all your threads over the past cpl of weeks.

Just wanted to say you are doing brilliantly. Oh and by DH says your ex is a p**ck who obv needs a younger girl to try and make himself feel adequate.

Good luck for the birth of DS2. You have too very lucky boys to have such a great mummy!

thank you rowan! and your DH obviously he's completely right lol

wooo I'm excited too guys, although I have burning symphysis pubis pain today - a bit like a lit cigarette on your pubic bone - oweeeeeeeee!! I am going to tell myself this is encouraging as it could be baby engaging. DS1 arrived roughly 5 days from where I am now, and I'd rather go into labour then have a section than have a section 'cold' iyswim. Apparently it's better for me and baby if the hormones kick in by themselves.

blackcurrants mmmmmmmmmm lasagne. Another benefit of baby moving down is I have managed to pack in a HUGE baked potato tonight AND cake and custard. I'm keeping my strength up hehe.

Stuff it in Choco, stuff it in!

Yeah, cake and custard mmmn might have to bake this afternoon!

I want flapjack SO BADLY but although I picked up some condensed milk to make soupdragon's lovely chewy version, I realised when I got to the cupboard that I'm out of golden syrup. As GS is a British thing I'm going to have to wait until I'm next in manhattan, and go to the special supermarket that stocks British things. Oh well! I can pick up a packet of Hob Nobs while I'm there :)

Sorry, this post is brought to you entirely by my enormous greed. choco I sincerely hope that you don't go into your section "cold" - and you get enough organizational time to not have a rush-in-for-a-section situation either.
Whatever happens, stock up on the cake! :)

Just ate a jam doughnut :-)

I wish I could join in - I feel sick! The cake, doughnut & chocolate phase will soon come I know. Meanwhile cortisol, adrenaline & a few spare tyres will keep me going. There is a silver lining, thinner thighs! Meanwhile Choco & blackcurrant you need my share! A bit like in Friends when Joey stopped eating meat so Phoebe could when she was pregnant!

I need to be careful , I've lost three stone which is great as I'm very overweight but appetite has returned a bit since being on the AD's so I need to watch what I eat as I want to continue losing not put any back on.

All I ate today was a cheese roll for dinner and a doughnut for tea!

That sick feeling is horrible, I had that for weeks before I started the pills :-(

many hugs to all you in-shock-and-suffering ladies.

I do NOT need your share of cake. I need your share of weightloss. You need MY share of cake. Today, greedy foetus has demanded a huge bag of baby carrots dipped lavishly in humous, a ham n cheese sandwich for lunch, and probably a choc ice pretty soon.

greedy baby... :)

Pineapple smoothie, enormous bowl of cereal, bloated belly? - check!

Baby fit to burst? - check!

tea and sympathy for all my lovely cheerleaders? - check!

I'm thinking of you all, and hoping that you have lovely restful evenings with your DC's x

Sounds pretty healthy to me preggers ladies!!

When I was pregnant I lost 10kg due to sickness and that was despite the baby becoming addicted to Wagon Wheels and Coco Pops

Had a 6lb 15oz baby so don't know where all the Wagon Wheels went.!

I went right off cheese which was my favourite food.

mmm cocopops!! I have a real thing for them too skye hehe.

So, not much to report today other than baby is head down and engaged (midwife appt this morning confirmed as much) so... could come at any time!! Or, could just make me walk like a duck for another fortnight lol.

All has been very quiet on the H front, he's not been in touch as requested. It's very nice not to have to think about him, but I do feel strangely sad at the moment that the closer I get to this incredible event that he is so disconnected from it all. It should be our family becoming complete. Instead, we're so far apart we can't even hold a conversation. I am so disappointed in him to think while I prepare for our baby to come home, he is living the life of a student with his silly little girlfriend instead. I just get moments where I cannot fathom the ridiculous, utterly pathetic immaturity of the man. Our children deserved so, so much more from him.

Meh, there's not point dwelling on it though is there? I'm making my own plans. The nursery is dressed, DS is excited, I've got a present from bean for his big brother so that DS gets a bit spoilt on the day they meet. I've also booked DS's 2nd b-day party and ordered a great big yellow tractor cake for him which he will love.

I will simply have to get on with things and appreciate all the lovely things H is missing. No point wallowing!

Well said choco. I feel sad for the loss of my family life especially for DD but we are the lucky ones who will get to see the first day at school etc that our H's will miss. We get to see them most of the week, they chose not to.

I too am better off without an immature pathetic excuse for a man. Like my friend said the other day, anyone normal would talk about their problems not run away....

They take their problems with them while we are now free of them...

Enjoy your last couple of weeks of peace, get plenty of rest

Oh that tractor cake sounds lovely! I'm planning DS's birthday (end of July) and hopeing like crazy that we don't move house 2 days' later! oops! :)

I can imagine getting introspective at this moment- and it does seem mind-boggling, doesn't it, how much people will miss/risk for the sake of ... what exactly? But more fool them, and as you say, your focus on the lovely things right in front of you will surely bring you the happiness you deserve - no chasing rainbows for you! Real, solid, lasting happiness with two amazing little people who will surprise, delight, and exhaust you in equal measure, I'm sure!

choco...I lurk here often as I find you inspiring.
I am very struck by your comment that you cannot fathom the immaturity of the man. It sounds as if you were the mature one in the relationship.

My STBXH commented to mutual friends recently that he loved going out to nice restaurants for dinner but that it wasn't the same going alone . I think these friends are still agog at his lack of insight that this was entirely his choice.
But there is absolutely no point in dwelling on any of that- it would be allowing him to take up head-space that is entirely reserved for my children and me.

Yes it's unbelievable that he could be so deluded to think this is ok! One day I think he will realise what he's done but it may take many many years for him to "grow up"!