The Brave Babes Battle Bus - BOINGing Into Spring, The Jesus(WhatNext) Way!

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Hello, tis me, Mouse

I'm one of the Brave Babes aboard the Battle Bus, on the journey to sobriety.

We have drinkers, non-drinkers, inbetweeners, notquitesurers...... which is all fantastic.

No matter who you are or where you're at in your personal quest to get where you want to be, come grab a seat and join in the natter, just jump right in.

And, if you'd like to see where we've been up until now, HERE is a link to the last thread and the ones before it

See you soon.

Sunny this is the only way to learn whether moderation works for you or not. I forgot Apprentice was on tonight, I have recorded it so will just get a cuppa and watch it now.

Not skirting board Rain and what makes you think you will have the answer tomorrow? If no-one can guess it I'm keeping the answer to myself.

Mwahahaha

Well done to everyone who is hanging on in there. I'm not. Hope you'll let me continue to tag along in the sidecar for now. You are an inspiring and extremely supportive lot.

Don't really know why, but I actually seem to be drinking more since I acknowledged my problem on here. It's like a really childish reaction to someone telling me I can't drink any more - I just want MORE.

I hold it together in my everyday. I'm so determined not to let it affect the kids that I probably overcompensate - today I was awake at 6 (hungover) and I've been to a show with DD followed by (alcohol-free) lunch with friends. But as soon as it gets to 5 (or 6, or 7 on a really good day) I'm cracking open the nearest bottle.

I really need to deal with this, but I just don't seem to have it in me at the moment. I manage the occasional day, or 2 or 3, but never anything more than that.

Sorry to bring things down - you're all chirpy and I just feel like shit.

Hey ferfux, am also in the sidecar. Good to have you on board.

I am still struggling a bit since I've joined the bus, but the bits where I struggle are getting fewer (I think).

I'm not feeling chirpy - I'm anxious and a bit annoyed at myself. But it'll pass, and the Babes are still here. xxx

ferfux don't apologise. It's what we're here for.
I can really identify with what you're saying about defiantly drinking more- my drinking escalated when I realised I couldn't control it, it was definitely the dark before the dawn...

Hi Sunny. Shift up a bit - I have a big bum. Do you manage not to drink most days, or to be moderate? Why anxious tonight especially?

Hi helpyourself. Glad I'm not the only one completely defying logic. Any tips on getting to the dawn bit?

Off to bed now. Drunk 2 herbal teas to dilute the wine. Sorry to post questions and then disappear. just need to sleep.

Hi ferfux, I feel a bit scared of something I'm meant to do at work, which I've made worse by drinking.

Sleep well chick, see you tomorrow.

I did it!!! Tired but day 4 tomorrow to get through, praying for no night sweats as I put fake tan on. Brown sheets not attractive! Itchy and tired, should be interesting....

ferfux sleep well.

Re getting through the dark to the dawn, I stepped out of the ring. I accepted that I could never have 'just one drink'.

Hello all,

I'm a bit late back. I've had my highlights done (V. Blonde, get me!!) and I have done the shopping for 3 days worth of guests.

Before I went out I had a most horrible experience.... I was in the study quietly looking at Mumsnet working, and I saw a flurry of feathers drop into the garden! Then a huge Eagle small sparrowhawk (Dh said) drags a poor pigeon over to the veg patch and proceeds to peck the life out of it!! I shut all the curtains so that I couldn't see, and when Dh got in, he said it's just nature, "look at all the little birds picking up the feathers for their nests . I don't think I like nature very much! I was going to have a chicken salad for supper [bluergh icon!]

Anyway, Faire, Sofa, Surrealism, Semantics (two of the words I would love to say in RL ) or, Sidecar, Silouette, Sink??

Back tomorrow to find out the winner. xxx

X posted loads
Sunny I've done that when I'm scared, just try to drink loads of water, maybe baked beans on toast before you go out. Hope all goes well.
xx

Morning all

Am about to go to work, hope you all have a good day, will be back later. xxx

Sunny I hope what you have to at work isn't as bad as you feared- Good Luck!

Morning!!

I was too busy working last night for all the shenanigans ... I assume Faire will give us the answer this morning

Strangely enough horridbabydoll is in a bin bag ... DH finally had enough of DD being rude to me last night and scooped up all her toys (except beloved ted). She was smirking till she figured out he meant it. Plan is she will earn them back for good behaviour ... Anyway! Upshot is that horridbabydoll is in thenbin bag so perhaps she needed someone to do her mischief... I think the rest if the ears are ok though

Well done all the babes who made it through last night, or all those struggling - today is a new day!

Ps - on non alcoholic beer ... I never really drank much beer so feel ok with non alc stuff. I would never drink non alc wine as it would seem 'dangerous' iykwim?

Faire >- -<
That is a stern look with wrinkles on either side.

Hope you have a good day at work sunny and that whatever you were anxious about works out ok.

I am pondering whether or not to drink today. It's my wedding anniversary which is of course a perfect excuse to put off decisive action.

Why do you want to drink today ferfux?

I suppose it's partly because I feel a celebration wouldn't be complete without alcohol. But also because it's just what I do. Stupid I know.

MsGee I agree re non alcoholic beer, does nothing for me, if it was wine it would trigger for sure.

Ferfuxake I'm the same, got the in laws over for dinner and they will bring a bottle and they are drinkers as is my husband and drinking Cranberry all night depresses me but I'm going to tell them I'm on antibiotics for a dental abscess so I can't really then start knocking back the wine. My challenge is getting through the whole weekend. It absolutely petrified me as my evenings have become a ritual and at the weekends it's an absolute must to get trashed

All good reasons- but how would you feel if you didn't?

Can you change the focus of the evening? Cinema rather than pub, chocolates or exotic fruits rather than champagne?

I know you feel it's just what you do but you really can change.

I was the hostest with the mostest- all family celebrations were round mine, and in company I was a fun drunk- the misery happened in secret.

2+ years the parties are still here, I enjoy them more and the constant anxiety and guilt has gone.

And it's not stupid- you're in the grip of a vicious obsession, a real delusional craving that tells you that you need something that is making you miserable.

Apologies for rand*om bolding!

Ferfux - I am the same, it's taken me many attempts to even get as far as I have this week. This is day four for me but I will probably drink over the weekend. Having said that, I am sleeping much better and that is giving me an incentive.

Last night I had really strong cravings. I think the only thing that really stopped me from opening a bottle was the fact I have a stinking cold...

That's actually very helpful helpyourself. I love hosting a BBQ or dinner and am always glass in hand cracking jokes and encouraging lots of drinking and eating despite being a bulimic and dare I say it a bit of an alkie

Makes me feel more confident about my dinner thing tonight :)