The Brave Babes Battle Bus - BOINGing Into Spring, The Jesus(WhatNext) Way!

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Hello, tis me, Mouse

I'm one of the Brave Babes aboard the Battle Bus, on the journey to sobriety.

We have drinkers, non-drinkers, inbetweeners, notquitesurers...... which is all fantastic.

No matter who you are or where you're at in your personal quest to get where you want to be, come grab a seat and join in the natter, just jump right in.

And, if you'd like to see where we've been up until now, HERE is a link to the last thread and the ones before it

See you soon.

Welcone SadSoma, can we call you something else,Sassysoma, Sunnysoma?

Well done on posting. I hope last nights DUI was your rock bottom- a word of warning though, in a few day's time you might find yourself remembering that night as proof that you can manage your drinking- nothing bad happened, you got home safely.

saf did you see what just happened? You're helping other alcoholics

SAF that must have been horrible for you, to find your grandad dead :(

It's been about twenty years for me. It occurs to me that if one had any other illness lasting 20 years, one would see the GP long before it got out of control...

Samsosa - welcome to the bus! It sounds like you have reached the end of the line and want to change. Isn't it awful the things we do when drunk?

I joined this thread a couple of weeks ago. Before, I was drinking a bottle of wine every single night, sometimes more. I was in a state - worried sick about the effect it was having on my body and mind. I have bipolar type two and am on medication. I am sure the bipolar and drinking are linked.

Since joining this thread, I have managed to give up drinking during the week. I haven't drunk at all this week. I drank at the weekend but didn't drink the week before.

I really hope this place helps you as it did me and so many other babes.

Welcome Soma you're in very good company here!

All our lovely Babes have differing relationships with alcohol but the common demoninator is that we recognise there is a problem.

The cravings hit me pretty hard too but through this thread I have learnt strategies on how to deal with them.

I believe the biggest hurdle is that YOU HAVE TO WANT TO CHANGE (sorry about type shouting) but that is key & took me 15 years to even acknowledge that.

Stick with us & you'll get tons of support . x

Just made up for you Saf, I really am. Emotions always defy logic, and the fact that so many people who misuse/abuse alcohol are incredibly intelligent and successful proves that it has nothing to do with brainpower. I am just so relieved for you, hopefully the fear factor has gone, and soon you can make some choices. Freedom!! Just seen your last post to MsGee, who is ever fully grown up? I hope that I never am. It's about putting everything in it's place. Order. As an active alcoholic I was never good at anything, far too obsessed about where the next drink was coming from, it screwed everything.

Blanket I have decided you are adorable, so there. Think maybe it's time to cry with people that have cried a river in frustration with guilt and hopelessness. Let it go I say.

Soma, hello, you sound ready to sort this. The what if's sometimes are the off switch moment. Big what if last night, I did it and like JNW, shiver at the thought, I did plenty of hazardous drinking, terrible.

Have a safe day all lovely babes. xx

Haha sorry, meant Sadsoma

Damn it, meant to say well done Kirsty!!

Mouse too, I am so annoyed for you with those wretched builders. Wish I could have a magic wand moment. xx

Hi Soma, I hope you (i think you will) find the support you need here.

I am not drinking today.

There, I said it here so now I've got to do it.

saf - you are brilliant. No point looking back - what you are doing is making changes today - YOU, the YOU that YOU are today is BRILLIANT

((( ))) for 15 year old saf though xx

just a quick thought - i have always like driving, for years, even when i hadnt been drinking (drink driving was not a regular thing for me, but i did do it ) i used to worry that i was over the limit from the night before, i would worry that if i was stopped a policeman would tell i was hungover etc etc - the pleasure of driving without that worry is just great! it is liberating, stress free and fun - i have always liked fast cars (which was a worry for dh ) since being sober i have upgraded my car to a jaguar xk8 4.5litre engine oh WHOOOSHH!!!! I LOVE IT!! dh would never have agreed to it when i was drinking, now he knows that i am truely able to handle a real fast car, and although i say it myself, i look bloody good in it!

you can do the slef loathing bit isindi, but a cunt! NEVER EVER!!! have a ((((((hug)))))) old friend!

Don't you go anywhere Isinde! Snuggle down in the sidcar and keep us company.

Hey what's with the slef loathing? Poor little slefs, what did they ever do to you?

< velcros Isinde firmly into her seat on the bus, wraps in snuggle blankie and leaves fresh spring water and paracetamol >

< tiptoes out muttering 'bout furry little slefs >

i don't have a driving license. i think actually there was some small vestige of sanity and self preservation involved in all the obstacles that came up whenever i wanted to learn to drive

yesterday i spent a while gazing at 125mopeds online and wondering if maybe that might be a fitting reward for giving up drinking - plus it would get me to meetings.

inde - don't self loath - loath the fucking nasty booze and it's effect on you, loath it for tricking you into drinking it again. you are lush - it always come across loud and strong. it's the drink that sucks, not you.

Thank you all for your warm welcomes. Helpyourself, I'd like to be SassySoma but binge-drinking isn't very sassy is it! JWN your kind post has given me a boost and told me what I need to hear - if I was involved in a drink-driving accident my life (and potentially others) would be in tatters. That alone should be enough to make me stop.

I'm hungover now and that means I won't drink so I'm safe for today. As for tomorrow? But re-reading these posts I understand that to be able to finally say to myself that I'm an alcoholic can give me the freedom I need to change.

Yes, better to be lush than a lush :)

soma - worry about tomorrow when it gets here! you can change nothing by worrying about something that hasnt happened yet!

isindi - green never was my colour! and dont diss the slefs you lot! you never know when you may need one!

at mrs toad! in astonishingly good shoes of course!

i had a 50cc when i was that age isinde - wasn't fast enough - felt permenantly pinned in the gutter by bastard car drivers. drove 125 ones in thailand - much better! and so cheap to run. i think it may be the answer.

i was damned lucky to survive that 50cc - the gods were smiling when someone nicked it.

I am working honest guv but ... isinde I can email you the spreadsheet from my wedding if that helps? I still have it ten years on

Bloody Hell - you lot can talk type! Every time I come on here for a quick 5 minutes there's about another 3 pages to read. I get round to logging in to reply with some witty, helpful, insightful, supportive comment ...... and the phone rings.

I look a couple of hours later and there's another 2 pages and people have already posted the witty, helpful, insightful, supportive comments that I was going to make - actually you've posted much better than the things I could say anyway, so I have to slink away for a while.

So here are a few comments, just while I remember....

saf fabulously well done on making that step last night. You know I was going to suggest a moped for you...

isindie definitely not a cunt - they don't feel self loathing, or sit in the sidecar. True cunts are the ones who know what your problem is, know what you're trying to do about it, and then do their best to lead you exactly where you don't want to go. (and I do feel the need to apologise for swearing [nice-girl emoticon]

kirstywirsty (or maybe someone else????) re splitting up and drinking. The first time I ever had a drink on my own was a can of lager (not my normal tipple) when manipulative, controlling exh was out. It was my own private way of taking back control, doing something of which he would have disapproved and saying 'fuck you'. When we did split up I alternated between feeling fabulously liberated and free, and horribly, disgutingly guilty. I recall howling at the moon on the occasions when my dds were staying with him - such guilt, such pain, such sadness. But the one thing I would change if could go back would be to ditch the solo drinking once we'd split up. What a terrible habit and addiction that became - no-one to limit or control me. Except that I handed control from a manipulative exh right over to a manipulative and controlling toxin.

sadsoma I just keep reading your name as samosa mmmm - hungry now