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Planning to walk away from everything for the weekend

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beautifulwho · 30/03/2012 20:27

Hello, I'm back to tell you that I've had enough and I need everything to stop for a bit. I'm planning on going away for the weekend, leaving the husband with the kids, going to the shop and not coming back.

I don't know where to go but I can think of a few places where I could turn up and try my luck, I don't drive so I will need to take money from my husbands wallet and take my debit card for paying for somewhere to stay. The kids can go to MIL she's really good with them and I'll let my church know I'm alive and intend on staying that way. I need to take a bag with me with essentials and iron clothes for the boys and DH for church on Sunday, will aim to get back Sunday PM. I can't cope any other way.

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oikopolis · 30/03/2012 20:58

it depends where you are... different shelters have different ways of helping.

if you go here: www.womensaid.org.uk/landing_page.asp?section=000100010008&sectionTitle=If+you+or+a+friend+need+help

and scroll down to "GET HELP LOCALLY" you can look by region and then by town. just choose a place nearby and ring them directly maybe? and they can tell you where you might be able to go immediately?

beautifulwho · 30/03/2012 21:00

I can't have a break without the DH sulking which kind of ruins the break IYKWIM? Was planning to go somewhere Sunday but he's still stropping about that

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doctordwt · 30/03/2012 21:00

Could you make arrangements to stay at a convent or retreat?

I'm sure that you could find contact details for some within a reachable distance of you.

You may find that you are able to access a peacefulness and support there that might be more appropriate for you.

Good luck and take care of yourself x

amillionyears · 30/03/2012 21:01

Do you have money to check into a b&b

puds11 · 30/03/2012 21:01

what would he do if he found you? that sounds very ominous.

Dozer · 30/03/2012 21:01

Presume that the problem is an abusive DH Sad. someone more knowledgeable will be along soon.

Could you make plans secretly, then just take the DC and head for a women's shelter way away?

amillionyears · 30/03/2012 21:02

You need the break for you
You are important

beautifulwho · 30/03/2012 21:22

Sry, husband came in to talk/ blame me for everything. I'm so confused, I know what happens and then my DH changes things and it doesn't make sense and I'm in the wrong again. I feel like I'm suffocating.

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beautifulwho · 30/03/2012 21:24

puds if he found me he'd just tell me that I'm a bad mum for walking out on the boys but I guess he'll say that anyway. And no matter how hard I try to reason things through with him, I'm batted into a corner and I can't think straight Sad

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Dozer · 30/03/2012 21:24

Ok, seen the thread, hope posters from there will be along soon.

Your DH is not a good person or a safe person to live with or leave your boys with. You are a better parent to them than he could ever be.

Did you try rape crisis? Or womens aid? Please do. Or samaritans.

beautifulwho · 30/03/2012 21:27

I could try and ring them all tomorrow when I'm away and can think properly. I just can't describe how messed up my head is, I know that I didn't do anything wrong earlier, I was sure.

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tribpot · 30/03/2012 21:27

It sounds like you have made reasonable plans to ensure your dc are safe this weekend and you can have a productive rest away from the stresses of your day-to-day life.

You are entitled to some time off, and you're acting responsibly by ensuring no-one will worry about your safety whilst you're gone. Take good care of yourself.

oikopolis · 30/03/2012 21:29

i think that might be good beautiful. as long as you can ensure your DC are safe and OK, maybe it would be good to just get away, and perhaps phone somewhere for support tomorrow.

beautifulwho · 30/03/2012 21:30

Thanks tribpot I hope others can see that too. I'm not walking away because I son't care. I have to walk away for a short while to survive x

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suburbophobe · 30/03/2012 21:30

husband came in to talk/ blame me for everything. I'm so confused, I know what happens and then my DH changes things and it doesn't make sense and I'm in the wrong again.

Sounds like he's gaslighting you.

I haven't seen your other thread, sorry.

Dozer · 30/03/2012 21:31

You haven't done anything wrong. You are not any of the things he says you are. He is very wrong. You have been living with an abuser.

There is help out there for you, please look for it. Re-read advice on your thread - people care.

Dozer · 30/03/2012 21:35

Thread is here www.mumsnet.com/Talk/relationships/1429023-Need-clarification-re-husband-and-I-was-asleep

Yes, do whatever you need to get through the weekend.

your DH may get worse if he gets wind that things are changing - dangerous time for you. take care and make those calls when you can.

struwelpeter · 30/03/2012 21:46

I had feeling like that when I was in an abusive relationship. I dreamt of going away by myself for a weekend. I wish I could have done.
If things are coming to a head with your DH then really going away or not won't change anything as regards the situation. It could be good for you.
You can write a note with a day and time you will be back but stick to it so give yourself maybe a little bit longer than you think you'll need - he is the DCs parent so there is no earthly reason why he and his mother shouldn't be able to look after the DCs for a weekend. Imagine if you had very bad flu or a broken leg; he'd have to.
I used to wonder about Agatha Christie who disappeared for a few weeks and totally understand the need to do it.
Get a good book, whatever you need to be alone in a hotel room or b&b and be content for a while ie knitting, a good book, corkscrew for wine or ipod - whatever relaxes you.
Guessing at your background is there somewhere with a church/cathedral that you could wander into and think/pray/attend the service at and feel anonymous. Somewhere that you think you'd feel comfortable in or always wanted to go.
I used to travel alone for work a lot; it's a bit weird at first - eating alone etc - but it can be wonderfully restorative.

Dozer · 30/03/2012 21:54

Samaritans 08457 909090

Women's aid 0808 2000247

Rape crisis 0808 802 9999 (12-2.30pm, 7pm-9.30pm) (local centres open more hours, can search on internet for them).

puds11 · 30/03/2012 21:56

you are not a bad mum! your just having a very difficult time and your husbands being a prick for not acknologing that!

beautifulwho · 30/03/2012 21:59

Thank you, I have got a few good books and I just think I want to curl up in bed and pray for a bit, I just want time alone to be. I've found a hotel and it's in a good place, just got to book it- how to get my debit card from DH wallet?

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Dozer · 30/03/2012 22:15

Women's aid advice on making a safety plan

A personal safety plan is a way of helping you to protect yourself and your children. It helps you plan in advance for the possibility of future violence and abuse. It also helps you to think about how you can increase your safety either within the relationship, or if you decide to leave.

You can't stop your partner's violence and abuse - only he can do that. But there are things you can do to increase your own and your children's safety. You?re probably already doing some things to protect yourself and your children ? for example, there may be a pattern to the violence which may enable you to plan ahead to increase your safety.

Plan in advance how you might respond in different situations, including crisis situations.
Think about the different options that may be available to you.

Keep with you any important and emergency telephone numbers (for example, your local Women's Aid refuge organisation or other domestic violence service; the police domestic violence unit; your GP; your social worker, if you have one; your children's school; your solicitor; and the Freephone 24 Hour National Domestic Violence Helpline run in partnership between Women's Aid and Refuge: 0808 2000 247).

Teach your children to call 999 in an emergency, and what they would need to say (for example, their full name, address and telephone number).

Are there neighbours you could trust, and where you could go in an emergency? If so, tell them what is going on, and ask them to call the police if they hear sounds of a violent attack.

Rehearse an escape plan, so in an emergency you and the children can get away safely.

Pack an emergency bag for yourself and your children, and hide it somewhere safe (for example, at a neighbour's or friend's house). Try to avoid mutual friends or family. See the suggestions below on What to pack if you are planning to leave your partner.

Try to keep a small amount of money on you at all times - including change for the phone and for bus fares.

Know where the nearest phone is, and if you have a mobile phone, try to keep it with you.

If you suspect that your partner is about to attack you, try to go to a lower risk area of the house - for example where there is a way out and access to a telephone. Avoid the kitchen or garage where there are likely to be knives or other weapons; and avoid rooms where you might be trapped, such as the bathroom, or where you might be shut into a cupboard or other small space.
Be prepared to leave the house in an emergency.

Preparing to leave

Whatever coping strategies you have used ? with more or less success - there may come a time when you feel the only option is to leave your partner.

Thinking about leaving and making the decision to leave can be a long process. Planning it doesn't mean you have to carry it through immediately - or at all. But it may help to be able to consider all the options and think about how you could overcome the difficulties involved. If at all possible, try to set aside a small amount of money each week, or even open a separate bank account.

If you do decide to leave your partner, it is best if you can plan this carefully. Sometimes abusers will increase their violence if they suspect you are thinking of leaving, and will continue to do so after you have left, so this can be a particularly dangerous time for you. It?s important to remember that ending the relationship will not necessarily end the abuse

Plan to leave at a time you know your partner will not be around. Try to take everything you will need with you, including any important documents relating to yourself and your children, as you may not be able to return later.Take your children with you, otherwise it may be difficult or impossible to have them living with you in future.

What to pack if you are planning to leave your partner
Ideally, you need to take all the following items with you if you leave. Some of these items you can try to keep with you at all times; others you may be able to pack in your 'emergency bag'.
Some form of identification.
Birth certificates for you and your children.
Passports (including passports for all your children), visas and work permits.
Money, bankbooks, cheque book and credit and debit cards.
Keys for house, car, and place of work. (You could get an extra set of keys cut, and put them in your emergency bag.)
Cards for payment of Child Benefit and any other welfare benefits you are entitled to.
Driving licence (if you have one) and car registration documents, if applicable.
Prescribed medication.
Copies of documents relating to your housing tenure (for example, mortgage details or lease and rental agreements).
Insurance documents, including national insurance number.
Address book.
Family photographs, your diary, jewellery, small items of sentimental value.
Clothing and toiletries for you and your children.
Your children's favourite small toys.
You should also take any documentation relating to the abuse - e.g. police reports, court orders such as injunctions and restraining orders, and copies of medical records if you have them.

Dozer · 30/03/2012 22:18

beautiful, in the morning just say you're going to the shops, get the card, and withdraw some cash for later use.

Do you have an internet cafe near you? You could look up information there.

CailinDana · 30/03/2012 22:45

Beautiful, I was on your other thread. I'm so sorry to hear it's come to this :( I think getting away for the weekend is a good idea as long as you won't come back to an even worse situation. If you think it will genuinely give you the headspace to get some peace and rest then it is totally worth it.

If things are really bad next week, please consider phoning the police.

misty0 · 30/03/2012 22:52

I'm not religious (sadly), Beautiful, so i cant pray for you, but i want to add my best wishes to you that you find peace this weekend. I think you are doing the right thing. Your children will be fine.

You need time to pray and find yourself. Even a few hours is valuable time ((hug))