Sorry for the name change. Having an awful time of it right now. I got promoted at work (through LOTS of hard work) and DP is pissed off because I have less time for him. I do make time, especially on a weekend but everything is on his terms. We can never do anything I find fun, just stuff HE wants to do because I'm being punished for not spending enough time with him apparently. We have argued pretty much none stop since Christmas. We argue about everything, he starts on me as soon as I get in from work, first thing in a morning, over dinner - I'm just sick to death of it. The ONE thing I have really wanted was to go to New York. I mentioned this two years ago. He said he'd get on to it. 6 months later I mentioned it again and he said he was "working on it" whatever the fuck that means - it's simple, you book and go. Nothing to "work on" surely? I told him I'd sort it but noooooo I make him feel useless enough apparently and he would sort it. I mentioned it again at Christmas and got told to "stop fucking nagging". I was at work today and a colleague said something along the lines of "fuck him, go on your own". It has been on my mind all day. I got home and asked him if there was any progress on the New York thing. He sighed, rolled his eyes and snapped "don't fucking start". So I said "ok, don't worry about it, you obviously don't want to go, I do. I'm booking it for July when DS is away for a week." First reaction was "HA! as if! you wouldn't fucking dare" and then "fine, go on your own then! see how you like wandering around a massive city on your own you fucking sad act".
I wasn't really going to go but now - I'm really considering it!!! Should I just go?? Bearing in mind, if I do it will no doubt be the final nail in the coffin that is our relationship. Would I regret it once there? Would I be sad walking around on my own? Am I biting off my nose to spite my face by booking something I won't enjoy just to make a point?